[Flying and Boobs]

hey hey hey hey.. *listening to Class 95*.. ok now. i'm in the hype mood today as i'll be flying to Sydney tonight!! hehe. that gonna mark my 10 days long holiday.. though i'm still in office now and lots of work still waiting for me. haha..

Dan is going away.. I'm going away.. this post is going to get lonely.. hehe..

anyway, something happened yesterday morning when i was on my way to work.. and it kept me wonder just wat are girls thinking of...

i was on bus 74 towards AMK MRT and seated at flank seat which is nearest to those front facing seats (if you get wat i mean, as the location is critical for the story below). .

ok, anyway, as i was making myself comfortable by placing my bag on my lap, the corner of my eye caught a quick peek view of two boobs which were carelessly concealed behind a low neck blouse worn by the girl sitting by the front seat just on my right side.. (ok, that was totally unintentional), i was quick to divert my eyes and glued to Channel News Asia right in front and determined to keep my movement minimum.

but at the corner of my eyes, though blur vision, i caught the girl getting uneasy.. keep fidgeting.. pressing her hands against her chest.. doing test peeping at herself.. then use a bag to press against her.. *period*.. ok.. my thought is.. "Do all girls take all men as sex manic that go for cheap thrill like this??" this kind of visual 'feast' happen everwhere and so often that most guys are not turn on by it anymore! and further more, i was not even looking and i dun even know how she looks like?!.. man.. i was almost wanting to tell her, "lady, i'm not interested in whatever you are trying to protect." ..

ok, this may sound MCP, but if you (the girl) know that you are wearing something that gonna 'expose' yourself to a extend you cannot handle it.. then dun wear it!.. ok.. i can see the rotten eggs getting ready at one corner.. ya.. alternatively, you can always protect yourself through more passive means instead of making a innocent guy (like me) feel so uncomfortable as though you are protecting yourself from ME (in particular).. use double sided tape for goodness sake.. i mean, if anyone took advantage of your vulnerability and stare at the twin peaks, by all means, cover with anything you can find.. or even turn around to that guy and ask him wat he is he staring at! i'm sure in a crowded bus, the guy will be totally disgraced.

so girls, when you are protecting yourself.. do it without the notion that all men are sex manic though we are essential sensitive to such opportunities.. but hey.. self-discipline can still be excerise to divert attention.. bottomline is, i was not looking!!! heheh ;)

chill.

[ Away ]

will be going to Malaysia tomolo morning till Sunday evening... attending grandfather's 90th Birthday... :)

anyway let me try to recap wat happened these few days... basically stayed at home everyday & played the PC emulator game Final Fantasy 3... a very old RPG game on Super Nintendo last time... finally completed it yesterday... hehe... hmm... had an interesting discussion with Moon & Starix yesterday nite... hehe... the topic is bout Bras! haha... very enlightening...

met up with a few sec sch friends for lunch today... followed by a session of tennis at NUS... a tiring sport though... hehe... anyway heard from them tat Redang is a nice place to go in Malaysia... espescially for those beachy or snorkeling enthusiasts... checking out on the internet now... its a coral beach resort I think... anyone interested to go? Viz? Seer? Bubbles? Moon? Starix?

[ Singapore, unfriendly? ]

ST published an article pertaining to a study conducted in 23 cities around the world puts the Republic near the bottom when it comes to random acts of kindness. Some point to Singapore culture as a possible source of this restraint. [Full Story]

Ahh.. another part of Ugly Singaporean?.. it was mentioned in the reports that Singaporean are the least helpful in the three test scenrios.. helping blind man to cross a road, picking up pen and return it to the person and helping someone with injuried leg.. i dunno how much i could agree or disagree that we are actually bunch of ungrateful, ungracious city creatures for i believe the quote "Once bitten twice shy".

ok, how many of us have experience of been cheated or con by another fellow street guy, hands up. ok, i see a some hands here and there.. ok, i dunno about you guys, but for me, i was approached by a innocent looking small man with big head, stout in figure, no specs.. ok, yes.. the first time i met him was in my secondary sch days.. i was heading home, walking through the car parks.. and there he is, looking 'lost'.. he came up to me with those pleading eyes asking for direction to Bugis claiming that he had lost his way (ok, going to bugis, but lost his way in AMK, ok wise guy), he also showed me his IC and claimed to have lost his wallet (ok, lost his wallet but IC still intact).. some moment through the conversation he was even close to tears.. he asked for money to take a cab .. and out of sympathy and gullibility, i gave him $4 (ouch).. and he walk away happily (now i know why).

i thought i did something right too, not till i was approached by this SAME guy again after a few years!! i was like going, "Shit you" in my mind.. ok, so this 2nd time, while he was repeating the same story only going somewhere else.. i stopped him and i told him he asked me this question before.. and his eyes went in all direction like a ping pong except looking at me! (i mean, 4D wouldn't strike twice right?).. and mumbled something he never see me before and walk away briskly.. hahaha.. but its still not the end.. i was approached by him for another TWO occasions!.. believe me.. this guy is a professional con man.. (with bad memory).. the Fifth time i saw him is when he was trying to strike a conversation with another student near RC HQ sometime last year.. being different from my wimpy size secondary days (my height was only 1.42m in sec 1), *WWE Commentator going*.. weighing 80kg .. 1.72m tall.. heavy weight champion.. .i walk up to him and this time round, he seems to know me.. haha.. i gave him my bloody cold stare and turn to the student and told him this guy is a con-man.. i was even ready to gave that con-man a taste of my knuckles.. but he switched to 'eject' mode and retreat briskly.. again.

so, the moral of the story? i dunno.. but this is not the only incident that happen to me or my group of friends.. last year in Malaysia, we were con of a ticket going back to singapore.. now, that guy was really good.. tears and everything.. all the girls except for two women friends and one man(me) fall for it.. but the girls were too kind hearted.. hahaha..

but i'm not asking you guys not to reach out and help.. but its a real world out there.. not everyone is a care-bear fan.. we just have to take cautious.. for me.. i will never give money again. it is just too easily abused.. i mean if i do not have money.. i will never ask any stranger for money to take cab.. i'll take bus and ask for a free ride.. or call a friend to help, no HP or coin? no problem.. everyone is a walking telephone booth in Singapore.. anyway.. if anyone gonna ask money from me to take cab.. i'll just tell him wat bus and send him to the bus stop and see him up the bus before i pay the bus fare for him.. need food? i'll buy him a burger.. need sex? ... . they wouldn't find me lah!.. hahahaha.. need cigarette? normally i'll give one.. but since i'll stopped smoking.. i can only give him my loads of lighters.. hahahaha..

so.. everything is done and said.. and the guys for the new aircon is here.. yeah!.. chill.. really cooling.. hahah

[Technology, does it make sense?]

The recently technology hype in Singapore probably is the highly publicized driverless MRT train that’s going to roll its carpet sometime next week, not only after months of delay..

The new system that is going to operate the NEL is claimed to be geared with over 500 computers working together, 24x7 without human intervention, probably besides switching on the electric supply. The maintenance of the systems were told to be difficult and time consuming which attribute much to the cause of delay.

However, it was also mentioned that the new system is gonna cost MORE!.. and now, does that make sense? We are investing in space age technology that going to dig more bucks out of everyone, well, less those who drives at the very least.. (any minister takes MRT?).

Look.. the new system which requires high maintenance, coordination and all fancy shit is going to create less job and cost more.. and we can even give ourselves a pat on the back for being the first in the world to develop and implement it.. (no wonder we are first)

Technology was first invented to make things more convenient and probably reduce cost of doing them which otherwise may be prohibitive. Blind use of technology for the purpose of colorful score chart is technology suicide and a total waste of tax payer money! (equation: tax money + new system = higher cost, which is also = less money for you and me, which is also = pay same tax amount) . Effectively, we pay to build, pay to use, and pay to maintain it.

It was said that Americans spent millions to invent a pen that can write under zero gravity in space while the Russians gave their astronauts pencils. Who got the technologically edge who got the brains?

For a public transport that main objective is to maintain low cost of operation so that it can be affordable to the masses does not require such ‘high tech’ gadget to make it look good. I mean, will you go, “Hey!, I’m so excited! This train is driverless!”.. I’ll probably go, “Hey.. (with much less enthusiasm) , I’m so worried, this train is driverless and I’m paying more for it!”

Hopefully, the relevant authority will inject more justification and reveal more tangible benefit in the near future so that we (or at least I) can buy into the system.. but then again, this is Singapore, we’ll just live with it.

[ when part of you is lost.. ]

have you ever felt so depress that you feel that you are withering in the cold alone night?.. have you ever lost part of you that is so valuable that even time cannot buy it back?.. once in a while, can you still remember the innocent playful time during our childhood days, but now they are just abstract art of our memory?.. will you remember the faces that you once know but now.. gone?.. and when they exited our lives.. part of us dies with it?...

still time moves on without mercy nor hesitation.. time that we like to catch often slipped through our fingers when we try to tighten our grip.. we can win the world.. but time will conquer us. there are things that we leave behind that may cause one of the deepest cut that even when the pain subside.. the scar remains.. and our mind will remember.. there are visions that we look forward to.. but are we sure that it will not be another blow of departure that tears us apart?..

i know i'm not making sense here.. yes its true.. but that's because part of the window of my heart is gone.. lost .. and time will place a permanent seal over it.. it will forever remain as an abstract memory in my heart.. a part of me that is lost.. a part of me that is closed..

to my dearest two boys... who're now gone.

[ Finally... My 2nd Interview ]

Close to a month now since exams ended... 9 days since my first interview... hehe... will be going for my 2nd interview tomolo around Boat Quay... be a bouncer maybe? Its another management trainee position but this time its for an advertising company I think & not a retail company like my 1st interview... hopefully both parties can be satisfied and my slacking days can be ended soon...

[ Back for good ]

anyway, for better or worse.. i'm back in office.. i'm starting to feel a vaccum of drive and passion for my office chores now.. everything seems to be so peaceful and stagnant that it began to drift me into insolation.. for watever that means.. some say i am stressed up with all the happenings around me and my overwhelming committments in life.. maybe they are right.. maybe.. maybe i need a break from my current life style.. my direction seems to blur every minute i'm sitting here, typing all these..

but well, at least one thing for sure, i'm not in a state of Depression (thanks God!).. which normally i would when i lose control over time, over life.. i need an asprin.. chill.

[ Only one word to describe my mood: SIANZ ]

have been staying at home & slacking for many days... but today really have the feeling tat I dun have any more friends around... feel so lonely... alone... bored... my social circle is too small... never contact with sec & jc friends anymore... not close to ntu friends... & stuck with the same group of red cross friends... it was ok last time... but as time changes... so do circumstances... now they are either too bz with studies, work or gf/bf tat we seldom get to meet up... I really hate this feeling... esp when friends only have time for their gf/bf... yes we hatesss it, precious ... not being jealous or having sour grapes though... I understand the need to be with bf/gf as I had also been in relationships before... just tat I am feeling super moody today and need to grumble abit to let it all out... no offences to anyone... dun misinterpret my words... no hidden meanings or anything... not directed at anyone...

maybe I just need a girlfriend... yes we needss it, precious... haha... haiz... okie... back to my Lord of the Ring book......

[ The Taming of Smeagol ]

The black crawling shape was now three-quarters of the way down, and perhaps fifty feet or less above the cliff's foot. Crouching stone-still in the shadow of a large boulder the hobbits watched him. He seemed to have come to a difficult passage or to be troubled about something. They could hear him snuffling, and now and again there was a harsh hiss of breath that sounded like a curse. He lifted his head, and they thought they heard him spit. Then he moved again. Now they could hear his voice creaking and whistling.

'Ach, sss! Cautious, my precious! More haste less speed. We musstn't rissk our neck, musst we, precious? No, precious - gollum!' He lifted his head again, blinked at the moon, and quickly shut his eyes. 'We hate it,' he hissed. 'Nassty, nassty shivery light it is - sss - it spies on us, precious - it hurts our eyes.'

He was getting lower now and the hisses became sharper and clearer. 'Where iss it, where iss it: my Precious, my Precious? It's ours, it is, and we wants it. The thieves, the thieves, the filthy little thieves. Where are they with my Precious? Curse them! We hates them.'

'It doesn't sound as if he knew we are here, does it?' whispered Sam. 'And what's his Precious? Does he mean the ---'

"Hsh!' breathed Frodo. 'He's getting near now, near enough to hear a whisper.'

Indeed Gollum had suddenly paused again, and his large head on its scrawny neck was lolling from side to side as if he was listening. His pale eyes were half unlidded. Sam restrained himself, though his fingers were twitching. His eyes, filled with anger and disgust, were fixed on the wretched creature as he now began to move again, still whispering and hissing to himself.

At last he was no more than a dozen feet from the ground; right above their heads. From that point there was a sheer drop, for the cliff was slightly undercut, and even Gollum could not find a hold of any kind. He seemed to be trying to twist round, so as to go legs first, when suddenly with a shrill whistling shriek he fell. As he did so, he curled his legs and arms up round him, like a spider whose descending thread is snapped.

[ Interview Over ]

okie this post is late... anyway the interview was okie... was early by half an hour even though I stopped at the wrong bus stop & went to the wrong building... haha... but dun think I will want the job... main reasons are the low salary, very long working hours & high level of stress as emphasized by the interviewer... need to sign a contract too... so back to square one again... hehe...

[ First Interview ]

hmm... tomolo will be going for my first interview after emailing out bout 15 job applications since 2 weeks ago... finally there's one response... hopefully everything goes well at the interview tomolo... pray for me pple... & I need lotsa luck... :)

[ Sentosa Again ]

today is my second time in bout 2 weeks at Sentosa Siloso Beach... with only 4 red cross friends... & I am in the situation where I am the big lightbulb caught between 2 couples... AGAIN... haiz... it may seem perfectly alright to some... esp the couples... as it is just a normal gathering & not dating... but to those who had been in my shoes before... if u get wat I mean... u r the one who will really know how I feel... but anyway the day was ok... it would be better with more company... if not for some last min cancellation & unavailability of some... played beach volleyball (I am still bad at it with no proper control... hand pain ah)... frisbee (ok I am not bad at this)... soaking in seawater (very salty)... tried kayaking for the first time (quite interesting)... the end result of today is a little tan & a little sun burn on my shoulders... tired now too... :\

[ The sum of all time ]

one week has passed swiftly and unnoticably especially when one stay in camp, dissecting himself from the rest of the rotating earth. though this ICT gave us the liberty to stay out every night, i had chose to stay in.. ok. i'm crazy and even more insane when the book-out time is always around 5pm. hahah..

well, at least the 'army' blood in me did not protested against the stay-in.. i made use of the time to study for my exams in the condusive air-coned office environment with minimum distraction from internet, TV, telephone calls and work!.. hahaha.. i actually enjoy staying-in as the best benefit is that i do not have to wake up early and make the painful journey back to camp everyday. besides, the camp provides all facilities which my house is currently absent of..

my house is 'still' packed under stones and dust from the renovation work that i believe gonna keep me away from home for this coming week.. aka, stay-in. anyway, this ICT has been rather relax for a high-key training that is. the toughest is probably the IPPT test on Mon which left a lot of our muscles screaming for the next few days. haha.. there are runs on alternate days but i'm not expecting myself emerging any leaner than before as the food are well.. let's say abundant. haha..

so, i will still continue to miss my home, TV, internet and all the blah blah blah stuffs till the end of my ICT coming Friday.. Dan and gang will be feasting their preyful eyes on the bikini girls today at Sentosa today.. hahah.. you know, sometime i wonder if i'm losing my mind.. hahaha..

chill