Thursday, March 27

[ What if.. ]

you know, i was just wondering.. what if i'm blind? its kinda weird to ask such question.. but really.. what will I do if i'm blind just like that *snap*.. my world will plunge into darkness where colours are nothing but black.. what will become of me.. i will not be able to work for sure.. my life is gonna change for sure.. so, what am i suppose to do? what am i losing?..

ok, i know i sounded apprehensive about going blind.. but on the other hand i was just thinking, things may not be all that bad.. i will be humbled (obvious).. supported by government.. maybe then i can really lay down what is not important in my life and start living the way life should be.. i may have more time for my family, my relationship with them may get better as i would be more dependant on them .. i will not be able to see angry or hypocritical faces.. no more emails to read.. much less of entertainment.. maye then i'll learn not to judge people by how they look, what they wear.. life may just be simple and true..

maybe i will be able to listen to birds singing.. friends woes.. able to feel the soothing sun rise.. touch the grass and caress the wind.. embrace the people i truely love but is it really all possible only when i lose my eyes? .. with the gift of sight, aren't we supose to appreciate more? are we seeing the wrong things??

hahaha.. weird thoughts just find their way through my fragile mind.. hahaha.. chill

Wednesday, March 26

[ First Time ]

I am in sch now... first time here so early... hehe... yesterday also had my other first time... first time in sch till 11pm... hence I only reached home bout 1245am & slept at ard 130am... & then had to wake up at 7am... haha... so now I am real tired and sleepy... but its another long day for me... still got stuffs to settle before the presentation later... so wish my luck pple... :)

Tuesday, March 25

[ I wanted to post ]

yes. i wanted to post for the past few days, but everytime i thought i could get a breathe of the blogger, i'm away doing something else more important.. yes. my work has started to tied me down like an anchor strapped to my legs.. i could feel the pressure that is building up around me.. i'm working longer and longer hours so as to fulfill other committments like studies, my own business and so on..

luckily.. footdrill competition has drew its curtain last sunday and i'm freed from the weekly meetings and intense preparation for the event.. time management is everything some says.. so if i have to plan a weekly schedule.. this would be how it's like..

Monday: 8.45am to 5.45pm (office work), 6pm-6.45pm (dinner), 7pm-10pm (studies), 11pm-12pm (business)
Tuesday: 8.45am to 5.45pm (office work), 6pm-6.45pm (dinner), 7pm-10pm (studies), 11pm-12pm (business)
Wednesday: 8.45am to 5.45pm (office work), 6pm-8pm (jogging), 8pm-11pm (studies), 11pm-12pm (business)
Thursday: 8.45am to 5.45pm (office work), 7pm-11pm (empty slot), 11pm-12pm (learning of new skills/knowledge)
Friday: 8.45am to 5.45pm (office work), 7pm-10pm (study/empty slot), 10pm onwards (leisure)
Saturday: 9am-11am (studies), 12pm-7pm (red cross), 7pm onwards (empty slot)

so there you go.. not exactly a perfect plan.. but it should drafted out my current plans for at least the next few weeks.. talkking about stress.. my assignments are due in two weeks time..

Thursday, March 20

[ Abit Stressed ]

ok... just came here to leave my footprints & show tat I am still alive even though I am MIA from here for so damn long... so... some short updates...

FYP done & submitted
3 more projects to go
Getting abit stressed over one project now
No new target, still single, available & unwanted
Sometimes will get abit stressed by this also
Shall go play game now to forget all these stuffs

bye...

Tuesday, March 18

[ From my emails]

There is something interesting going on among my close friends.
pretty interesting, got time why not take a peek ?
I'll cut & paste from my emails.

it started with an email forwarded to me.
It talked abt pessimistic views on life when one grows up.
can't remember the whole thing but it something abt missing out on many things as one grows up..
Hence decided to give my two cents worth, here's what i wrote :
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"alamak, so pessimistic..

for me, as i matured, i learnt that there is something so beautifuL that a
stranger can give when a chemistry occurs -- Love.

As i matured, i learnt grandma, Dad & Mummy are getting old & we should give
back what they have endowed on us when we are young -- Kinship.

As i matured, i learnt that some friendships can be forever if both parties
accept & appreciate each other for what we are -- Friendship.

see.. ther are many beauties in the world,
you just have to open your eyes..

keep smiling Friends"
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My friend (girl) wrote something back, chim-mer than mine :

"Hi to all, I never think that this will become a startup for a discussion session, but oh well, here is my share of thoughts.

As I mature, I see the unconditional giving that my family has poured to me through the years - that is True Love.

As I mature, I feel the warmth of friends who stay by my side when catastrophes happen & they think about me when organising a fun activity together - that is Laughter.

As I mature, I know that there are another group of friends, who on a deeper level, will avail themselves to me at any time of the day. These are people whom I know will be there, ready to give a listening ear/a shoulder to cry on, without a second word - that is Friendship.

As I mature, I find my purpose to live in this world & so I live each day with a deeper sense of responsibiliy and meaning, no longer breathing aimlessly. At the end of my journey, I want to look back, give myself a pat on the back and say,"Well done!" - that is Life.

As I mature, I see a someone who loves me despite all my bad moments. A someone whom I have a relationship with, which at times, I may waver, but He stays faithful just loving me and carrying me through the storms in my life - that is Pefect Love.

& in a nutshell, they are Blessings.

God bless"
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Then another friend (guy) wrote this back :

"Hmm , why suddenly everyone feel so sentimental. Haha maybe i should wrote some word of wisdom.

As I mature, I see less and less of my toes( while standing) - that is "Fu2 Qi4"

As I mature, I use less and less shampoo- that is wisdom

As I mature, I have less and less dreams - that is enlightenment.

As I mature, I spend less and less time resting - that is self actualization.

Despite all these I found that as I mature , the hand that has been holding mine for years is tightening her grip~ and to me that is love.

"I love you dear."

( Special dedication lah, dun shiver leh the rest) "
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I really had a good laugh & some thoughts ran thro my mind too, you ??



Monday, March 10

[ My Day, My Life]

today marks a new beginning of my degree course.. i've attended the lesson which was conducted in takashimaya.. as the matter of fact, all my lessons will be at taka.. hehehe..

i could foresee a very difficult road ahead of me now.. i got my job, my own business, red cross, friends, family and so much more activities trying to find time in my already dried up slots..

may God give me the strength and energy i need to brave through all the challenges.

[My Day]

Weather hot hot.
Morning swim swim.
Skin tanned tanned.
Nails pretty pretty.
Chit chit Chat chat.

well... that sums up my day :)

Tuesday, March 4

[ Frank or Franked ? ]

Are you Frank to someone or have you been "Franked"?



chill.

Monday, March 3

[ Shit Bic ]



How the story goes..

Pigeon 1: Hey look! there's a motorcycle!
Pigeon 2: ahh ya! woah.. a chopper style.. cool
Pigeon 1: errr.. P2, dunno why, i feel like shitting.. when i look at the bic.
Pigeon 2: Aiya.. you always like tat.. you know the rule.. one shit.. all shit.
Pigeon 1: hehe.. you are such a great friend.. lets call everyone on k?
(pigeons flying onto the bic.)
Pigeon 2: ya.. ..mmmm.. i like the view up here... lets make this motorcycle our toilet..
All Pigeons: YEAH!!!