[ Easter ]

Happy Easter!!
Christ has Risen!!

Nothing else matters...

I would like to thank everyone for you concern... really appreciated, i could see God's work working through you, touching me.. Thank you.

[ down with fever, but .. ]

yes, my body finally collapsed last evening.. i'm down with fever.. to escalate the misery.. i have to live with 2 ulcer on my tongue, 1 ulcer on my gum and 1 ulcer on my lips.. argh!.. hahahah.. funny that i can laugh now.. am i laughing at my own misery?.. hahaha.. is it helpful? am i still sane?.. i guess i am.. hahah..

And at last, after so many months.. i lost my sleep for the night!!.. last night, i drove the slient night furiously over work?!.. yes, can you imagine?.. 3am in the wee hour, designing brouchures.. checking price list.. emailing my distributors.. hahaha.. and when all was done at 4am.. all i can do was just tossing and turning on the steaming hot bed from my fever.. I was almost witnessing the first ray of the friday morning.. literally dragged my wobbling head to the basin.. washed it up.. and it was back to my notebook.. work, till it was time for me to go church.

If there is something that i have change due to the incident.. i believe that i've learnt to humble my desire and ambition.. if that is what God like me to learn.. i believe i will work hard to learn from this lesson.. not all things in life happen in the way we want it.. and not all things we want happen. hence, it is always helpful for me to remember that Life is the matter of choice.. i choose place my trust in God and to follow the way he has planned for me... i choose not to dwell in misery but to shelf it as a valuable experience.. and if our experiences can be little candles .. i believe that the road we walk will be clearer each time we light a new experience.

i know i'm set on the road of recovery.. pray for me folks..

[ Guilt ]

Guilt is a monster that will consume you entirely.. puling you away from thinking anything rational.. making recovery difficult.. but i pray for strength and hope to shower upon me.. and may the Lord guide me through in this difficult of my life..

this is it.. i've just fallen from the edge that i have been living on.. red cross.. work.. car accident.. smashed wind screen.. damaged boot.. all these images are just repeating by itself in my mind.. consuming me.. it triggered off months of pressure and though i did not explode like an power surge oven.. but i'm crumbling from within now..

the most difficult task now is probably to pick up the pieces and strive positively ahead.. with my fatigue physical self.. it is questionable towards a speedy recovery.. but i know and i believe that the Lord will stay with me in all storms and weather.. as for every storm.. there is something beautiful to those who wait, believe and survive..

today is Good Friday.. a day where Christ died for us on the cross.. to me, this is my first Good Friday as a catholic.. it meant even more to me now with the turmoils i'm going through.. and hope that i will 'live' to witness the resurrection of Jesus.. knowing his glory will never die and live for eternity..

I will survive.. i will..

[ Last post before I disappear... again??? ]

just had a discussion with my mum over some stuffs... due to my calmness in the mind & soft/gentle voice... the discussion did not turn into an argument... hehe... well... I know my mum is worried bout me esp when I am the only child... but pls try to give me tat bit of trust tat I deserved... I mean... I am old enough to think & decide wats right for me... wats more... I am a guy... not trying to be sexist here... so I would really appreciate if I was not given this type of childish treatment... I know some of u may disagree with me... but long exposure to this kind of treatment will make a person get irritated... trust me... I also know tat my mum have my interests in her heart... but wat bout the interests in my heart? For this point... I guess both of us have to give & take for a win win situation... tats wat the discussion is for... sad to say its a win-lose situation even though I tried my best to convince & reassure her... anyway... I will stick to my decision... tats the stubborn part of me... hehe... tats all... wun be seeing me for these 2 days again... byeee

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[ Study...... ]

okie... exams are coming in bout 3 weeks time... with 6 subjects on hand... plus an unfavourable exam schedule... time is definitely running out for me... my study timetable have been drafted out early as usual... the problem is whether I will follow strictly to it... hmm... have to really reduce my online hrs... my posts here will be getting lesser & lesser...weekends will definitely have to be used for revision... so pls dun bother me with any other stuffs... time is precious & running out... but maybe can jio me for revision together... or some little enjoyment at nite... hehe...

"Being Heartless is difficult... unless you really dun have a heart..."

[ Efficient ]

I’m amazed at the efficiency of our very own Singapore Immigration and Registration. It was three days ago when I posted my application for passport renewal, and guess what? My passport is ready for collection tomorrow?! I thought it would take weeks to process.. but man!! its really an eye opener..

today is pay day. the day where i'm paying everybody else expect myself.. hahaha.. with my pocket PC.. i'm now better equipped in monitoring my expenses.. though sometimes i really wonder why i do it since i'm spending the money anyway.. hahaha.. but then.. it really gives me the prior knowledge of my financial status whenever i'm about the engage in spending..

minutes later will be casting "Wind & Cloud" on U channel.. hehe.. i'm addicted.. enough said. heheh..

[ Ting Ting Ting .. ]

I'm laying in silence fingers, pondering.. why am i here.. asorbing Bon Jovi's rock electric through my ears on this beautiful morning.. why is it beautiful, and how can it be beautiful even before it start?.. more often than not, we tend to wake up with a certain vibe and hope for the day.. if we wake up from the wrong side of the bed.. our hope reduced to dust.. like i've said.. why is it a beautiful morning? it will be only beautiful if we try.. someone even tells me.. the very first sentence that you tell yourself to wake up from that cosy bed is most critical and it often sets your attitude towards the day and eventually formulate your mood to make the day.. that is also why i always tell myself in the mirror when i'm brushing my teeth.. it gonna be a busy yet fulfilling day.. the challenges thrill me and not intimate me.. i'm powerful, i'm strong.. i will not only survive.. i will excel!!.. yup, may sound arrogant... but its all about setting positive vibe in me.. :)

i may be suffering from symptoms of stress.. my sweaty palms are back.. temper getting shorter.. i even smile less.. i'm easily distracted and focusing is certainly a challenge. My body may be tired from the daily toils.. but my mind is putting on a fight.. telling myself each day that i can make it.. the stress is manageable.. lucky that i did not break down nor cross over the edge as i've good friends and Liz who is willing to put up with me... i will survive..

Continue from above...

Reading Dan's post.. hmm.. in commenting.. i feel that it is very difficult to bring two person with total difference in beliefs together.. but of course, it has to depends on the degree of faith and the threshold in accepting the practice of different faith within their own.. its not the matter of love.. but the matter of threshold.. in terms of converting.. i believe that a lot of my friends are commenting that my conversion to catholic is because of Liz.. but little that they know i WAS already a christian.. just that i belong to the herd of lost sheeps... Liz being religious, lead me back to church.. only this time.. its a catholic church.. and i did not convert by the snap of my fingers.. i when through almost a year of RCIA, learnt about the rituals, bible, sacrement, conceptually understanding in the catholicfaith.. undergo a change of faith before i got baptism by the priest through the trinity.. but that is not the end conversion.. i have a lifelong learning and relationship building with God.. and this pursuit of faith is not something that will grow in respect to the love i have for Liz.. it will be my own struggle towards eternal life and the holiness of life..

My point is.. conversion of faith should always be within oneself and not because of love.. it may be initiate from love.. but the road of faith is walk by your own.. if two persons are too persistent in their own faith... low threshold for other religion.. it is time to decide on the see-saw.. there's nothing call the Best of both worlds.. the fact is that ..there's one world.

[ Last last post before I... you know wat... hehe ]

well... due to forseen circumstances... my disappearance act will be put on hold for bout another 4 hrs.. so in the meanwhile... shall use this extra free time to post again... hehe... tats wat a member of Vizinity should do rite? hmm... just wanna bring out a point for discussion... does religion differences act as a barrier for 2 person to be together? A person devoted to her religion may decide against a relationship with a guy who shares a different religion even though there is some feelings... unless firstly the guy is willing to convert... or secondly the gal is willing to change her mindset... or thirdly the parents of both sides do not mind... do u agree with me? I had seen cases where one party converts to another religion for their loved ones... including my mum too... hehe... but do u think the power of love is strong enough to go beyond the boundaries of religions? One of my friend was rejected cos of the differences in religion... even though he is willing to convert but the gal do not want him to... stating tat this will be unfair to him & god... so... any comments?

"Give up when there is no chance... so that another new chance can happen"

[ An email to share......]

There was this guy who loved two gals at the same time but he didn't know which one he loved more. Someone taught him. Ask yourself this question and answer it honestly: "When you are happy, which gal would you want to share your happiness with?" The one you think of is someone you love. Ask yourself another question and answer it honestly : "When you are sad, which gal you want to share your burden with?" The one you think of is also someone you love. If you think of the same gal when you are happy & sad, that's the most perfect. But if you don't think of the same gal, I would advise you to chose the one you are willing to share your sadness with. In life, there are more sorrows than happiness. There are too many people that u meet that u can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover. If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone. In sadness, however, there are not many people willing to share your burden with you. If you are willing to tell someone your happiness, I am sure that person has got to be someone close & an understanding person to you. But it shouldn't stop there. If that person only thinks of you when she is happy, but looks for someone else when she is sad, this lover is too unstable, she doesn't treat you as someone she can spend the rest of her life with. Of course, I will be very happy if I am the first person to share her happiness. But, if she is sad, I will be too willing to stay by her side & ease her pain. Only then, will I believe that I hold a very important position in her heart. If you are sad, who comes to your mind first?

[ Last post before I disappear from Singapore for 2 days... ]

hmm... this is one of the rare friday nites tat I am at home this hr... hehe... none of my good friends jio me out for pool or movie or late nite out or chit chat session... guess tat they r busy with their own lifes... going on dates... or they r just sick of going out with me... sigh... anyway... went for a short pool session with a friend J... followed by a chit chat session over a supper of fries & satay... we tok bout the past... when we were still students in Pri, Sec Sch & JC... those carefree times when we were still young & innocent... each day was spent in fun & laughter... remembered those times when we tease one another over a rumoured crush... carrying out science experiments with excitement... staying behind to play after sch... etc etc... but sad to say... those days were over & will remain as memories to be cherished... as we moved on to another phase of our lifes... everything just changes... responsibilities start to come... there is a need to plan for our future... will encounter many different challenges & problems in life... etc etc... in other words... we have grown... there will be times when u hope tat u r still young & in sch rite? so do I... at least I will not have so much troubles... & I will not think so much... haha............

[ ok, i'm here ]

but that is just about all i can talk about it. it did not occur to me that i've already missed so many days of post.. probably my days swifted me by.. i was so occuiped by my work that i'm almost working in the night.. hence, the post will have to take on a lower priority.. i mean.. i dun even have the chance to surf my site!.. can you imagine that?!..

hmm..but anyway, i'm getting on fine.. work is fine.. love is fine.. family is fine.. RC is fine.. everything is fine.. just fine..

Lots of interesting happenings for the past few days.. but dun think it will be any interesting if i'm posting historical events here.. hehehe.. anyway.. time to get on the ride.. my work awaits..

[ Surrounded by rowdy Malays... ]

not tat I am racist here... just tat this incident happened when I was on the bus to sch this morning... as I was trying to read & digest the notes for my project discussion... a bunch of bout 10 Malays board the bus & spread themselves on the seats around me... there were 2 couples who were hanky pankying throughout the journey... disturbed my concentration as a result... u cant blame me for not noticing their public display of affection rite? hehe... there was also this guy who took off his shirt & cross-dressed as a female... with fake boobs too... looked kinda gross... but of cos all his friends including myself were amused... hehe...then there was this girl who threw her socks out of the bus window... twice somemore... I pity the unlucky passerby who might get these lucky socks landing on his/her face... haha... well... at least this small incident on the bus lighten my mood abit... & I have to repeat again tat I am not racist... am I?

"Where's Viz?"

[ Imouto no tanjoubi ni purezento o kaimashita ]

hehe... dunno the structure of my topic is correct anot... my Jap still suxs big time man... haha... well... today went for a short shopping trip at Jurong Point after my tutorial... after walking around aimlessly for 45 mins... browsing through some gift shops... looking at different gifts & their prices... finally got something for her... phew... just hope tat she will like it & appreciate my efforts... hehe... anyway... *looks at calender* .... my birthday is coming soon too... haha... next month... got a junior whose birthday fall on the same date as mine... & she is inviting me to her chalet... cos its her 21st bdae... hmm... still considering whether to go... provided no one is going to date me out or celebrate with me... anyway quite funny to celebrate her bdae & singing her the birthday song when its also my bdae... hehe... & I made her promise not to reveal my birthday on tat day if I decide to go... if not... I might be thrown into the water with her as well... haha...

"Watashi wa dona hito desu ka. Hansamu desu ka. Soshite omoshiroi desu ka."

[ Let me Die ]

just a sudden thought & urge to post... dun be mistaken... I am not thinking of jumping down from my home even though I only lived on the second storey... or cutting my wrist for fun... or popping hundreds of panadols thinking tat the more it is the faster my fever will go down... hehe... just tat I had just heard a song by Nic Tse with this title... an English song... quite nice... but wierd name for a song? haha... but if u look around you... how many times had you heard this phrase coming out from your friends? Some may just say jokingly out of frustration or stress... while the more serious ones are those really troubled by relationship or financial problems... dying can be seen as an easy way out to solve or relieve their problems/depression... but shouldnt they spare a thought for those around them? izzit easy for these people to get over the lost of a loved one? The main thing is that your life is not only governed by yourself... it is also the property of your parents, friends & other loved ones... & nothing in this whole damn world cannot be solved... so the next time you decide to jump down the building... do not only consider how mashed up your body will be... also think of how the hearts of those pple around you will be like...a watermelon being smashed onto the ground... hehe... luckily my heart is still very intact... dun wish to encounter such situations... so do you pple out there rite?

"Watashi no tomadachi wa ii desu soshite omoshiroi desu."

[ They say, it is the same shit everyday; I say, it is the same day different shit ]

yo!.. i'm back on the post dressing myself in a hype vibe.. seems to be raelly for everything that gonna blast my ass.. hehehe.. but anyway.. today is Saturday.. a day that gives weekdays their meaning.. hahaha.. of well.. dun ask me why am i so happy.. i just dunno.. probably it happens when u have enough enough sleep? hahaha.. and of course.. no work!.. hahahah...

today will be rather busy in the afternoon with the usual RC stuffs.. can't really make out why am i still going.. but then.. like wat Dan has said.. probably it the friends over there... heheh..

hmm.. my mind seems to have run dry on words... see wat i mean?

[ Back into the arms of RC?]

Deadlines for my various projects are getting nearer & nearer... exams coming in just about one months time... sigh... feel that I will not have enuff time to revise my subjects... will be helping out in RC activites for the weekends that are near to my exams... thought I am supposed to be on leave? well... its really difficult to abandon my good friends over there... blame it on my helpfulness... hehe... anyway its one of the way to keep myself busy & free myself from thinking bout other stuffs... hope to have more challenges to re-ignite the dying fire in me... hmm... we shall see wat happens... in the meantime... I shall remain on "leave"... hehe... dun bother me!

gtg... have to settle some project stuffs tomolo... oyasumi nasai... :)

"How does she feel bout me? You wun know if you dun ask rite?"

[ Yes, i have not been posting ]

It is kinda weird for me to post now.. office hours.. but anyway, missing post for too long isn't really healthy for my mind.. heheh..

my mind is loaded with tons of thoughts about everything around me that is keeping me busy.. i feel as if i'm living on the edge.. toppling over just require a fly parking on the wrong side. Suddenly, my career path seems to have blurred.. i start to question myself.. are the things i'm doing today gonna fetch me where i wanna be tomorrow?.. the answer is somewhat yes.. somewhat no.. i don't know too.. maybe only time can tell.. Nonetheless, it is not an excuse for not working hard enough..

My emotions have been acting like waves.. i can't seems to manage it very well nowadays.. is this a sign of stress? am i under the pressure to perform till the extend i fail to see that i'm burning from inside out?.. mmm.. can't seems to make any sense out now.. but i believe i will.. my days will continue as usual.. my goals and ambitions will still be valid.. my determination to work and do it well will endure.. everything gonna be positive and alright.. i'm just weird i think..

[ Do I need a reason to be sad? ]

Some things are just not the same anymore... People changes... Feelings change... Environment changes... Sometimes I do really hate myself for thinking so much... cannot stop my imagination from running wild whenever my thoughts are not occupied with work... why? Am I pessimistic in nature? Putting feelings into action is also a mountain to climb for me... why? Am I tat cowardy & shy in nature? I am confused by what I really am sometimes... & I wonder how do people actually see me as... the joker?... slacker?... crapper?... suanner?... meanie?... thinker?... psycho?... or? ... Do I sometimes put on a mask to hide the real me? If tat is so... can the real me pls stand up? I really wish for someone special to be there for me sometimes... who will tat person be? will she be waiting for me too? I am really curious to find out... Love strikes u when u least expects it... but it will not strike u if u wait for it & do not take action... I knew tat... but there r other things that can hold someone back too...

Just feeling moody... dunno wat I am saying too... & there r no hidden meanings... just being emotional here... dun worry I will be alright when the sun rises tomolo... its just one of those days...

[ Am i back or what? ]

Yes! Yes! finally unload tons of information from my brain.. all the psychology.. science.. biology.. stuffs.. finally!.. hehehe.. but not for long though.. i've just completed my test and my exam is one month from now.. *sigh*.. hehehe..

anyway, thanks for all the luck and wishes from those who did and thanks to those who prayed for me.. and thank God!.. the paper wasn't too difficult.. though i have no confident i would pass with flying colours.. i'm easily contented.. hehehe.

so for at least this week, i will be actively involved in my work.. and Red Cross stuffs which i have placed on hold for the past one week..

hmmm.. and yes.. i'm back!

[ Back at 5am... ]

Fri & Sat were happening days for me... only returned home at ard 5am plus for both days... cos I went to visit some nice places through the wee hours of the nite... Fri nite was spent with good friends like Viz, Lava, Roy, Ros, Occy & Rraine... places tat we left our footprints behind included Sembawang Park, Changi Village, Pasir Ris Beach, Tanah Merah etc... tried a drink called "Dinosaur"... nice drink with a special name... shall not elaborate more on the drink here... haha... go imagine wat its like... hehe... Sat nite was spent with Lava, Ros, Seer, Cirrus, Evelyn & Sue... places conquered this time included Lover's Bridge, Mount Faber, Jalan Kayu, Geylang etc... tried strawberry prata & doustick with soya bean curd... not bad too... hehe... yah... special thanx to Lava for being the "ahmad" who make all these possible... thanx for driving us ard & sending all of us back... really a great friend to have... will be looking forward to such activities again during the weekends if there is any... cos its one of those times where good friends can gather, crap, joke, chat & suan one another... to release some of the accumulated stress due to studies or work... & to further bond together... hehe... :)

"Which is more important? Friends or Love?"

[ Back at work .. ]

yup. on this quiet sat afternoon.. i'm back in my office.. but not really back to work.. i'm studying for my monday test.. heheh.. i mean, this place is quiet.. away from distraction (internet not included).. hehe.. i'm able to revise a rather lot of notes..

last night was another night out with the usual gin gang.. we went to out till late night.. or should i say early morning.. the same old lava send us back home again.. so considerate of him.. bet he din get enough sleep.. but anyway.. he's young!.. hahah.. thx dude.

and well.. if i'm posting right here in office.. i'm definitely away from the RC activities at Unity Sec. hehe.. hope that the guys are doing well.. :)

ok.. back to work.. chill..

[ Visit to old school ]

Today is a joyful day for me.. perhaps the most passionate moment would be my short visitation to my secondary school.. it's in the stage of transition from old building to the newly built, partially completed premises.. everything would be new and trendy.. but sadly, i could hardly visualised those days and years i've spend there.. but anyway, spoke to some good old teachers who are now more like friends.. hahaha.. just how much life have changed.. looking at the young kids wearing uniform.. school badge.. really emotionally stirring.. i'm missing my secondary school days.. those carefree days.. everyday was just lessons after lessons.. *ahhh* or is it the fear of getting no younger by the days.. hahaha.. but anyway.. it was indeed an heartfelt moment of stepping back into a new place.. and ond old memories.. *sigh*.. those were the days..

the rest of the days were of course slogging like mad dog.. furiously chewing on the keyboards.. mind breaking proposals.. marketing ideas.. sales targets.. profits.. loss.. *argh*.. stress!.. but well.. there are Good stress and Bad stress.. good stress will motivate me to work harder for a desirable result.. but bad stress can only hinder the process of positive pursuit.. so, i would always choose to be stress.. and make the stress good.. hehehe.. :)

and to Dan!.. c'mon.. cheer up.. computer dead is not the end of the world.. no date too!.. you still have lotsa friends.. JC lar.. NTU lar.. Red Cross lar! (always here for u!).. hehehe.. look around.. maye in the mist of seraching.. someone is searching for you too.. :)

[ Nice Quotes ]

Just some nice quotes tat I received from a friend through email... Read each one carefully and think about it for a second or two... I sort of agree with some of them... how bout ya? hehe... enjoy...

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

[ embarassed... ]

sigh... flung my Jap test as expected... sigh... made a fool out of myself during the Jap class today too... answered my tutor wrongly & made the whole class luff... hehe... anyway its not often u will see me getting embarassed so its okie... hehe... tat irritating virus is still attacking my PC... hiding somewhere & disable my antivirus program... no matter how u clear the virus... it just bounces back stronger... Lava came to my house just now to try to solve the problem but... anyway... thanx a lot man... hmm... yesterday posted some stuffs asking bout why must guys be the one to make the first move in relationships... but it did not get published in the end... so too bad... tomolo will be having a rare off day from sch... hehe... maybe I should go on a date?

All the best to all who are getting back their A level results tomolo... University awaits u... hehe...

[ I'm back ]

yes, i'm back. back from the late nights last weekend.. these few days i have not been really attentive to myself. the amount of stress at work is now pressing rather harsh on me.. i dun seems to be focus anymore.. but i really do wonder.. it was not that my boss was mean to me nor i hate the job.. as the matter of fact, i like wat i'm doing now as it is promising to lead me to where i want and wat i want to be.. and my boss at least till now seems sincere in showing me the ropes. *sigh*.. Is this a sign of burn out??

My test and assignment are due by next Monday.. Red Cross stuffs are no longer just a committment during the weekends.. meetings.. decisions.. email to reply.. members to manage.. am i shredding myself too thin?.. *sigh*.. My mental burden is guadually biting into the relationship with Liz.. making me a much less sensitive person...

this post provides me a mental parking lot.. as i'm typing as my mind read.. think i will feel better.. staying positive right?!.. *deep breath*..

I'm gonna rest early tonight... let the night heal my soul.. and pray for strength.. and hopefully by tomolo morning.. i will straighten things out and everything will be beautiful and gay..

chill.

[ Too long ]

Looking at Dan's post, it makes me realised how long have i been away from post.. ok, my excuse is,

>> My work is catching up on me at the speed of light and my everyday's evening is just a windows for recovery, sleeping is just the way to reach the next day's challenge.

yup.. that's about all i can explain about the days i'm not posting.

Yesterday, went out with a few friends till wee hours in the morning.. our night start at 10pm and dinner was at redhill hawker centre.. the array of food is simply breathtaking.. or in this case, stomach-taking. hehehe.. from BBQ chicken wings.. sting ray.. fish otah.. mee goreng.. stir fry kangkong.. onion eggs.. yummy! heheh.. we were fulled to the intestines..

and the rest of the night was plainly chilling out.. we ride the land through Jalan Kayu.. Pungol.. Changi village. Changi Airport.. and each and everyone was send right back to our door steps by my friend who drove. And by the time i lie down on my bed.. it was 4.30am.. as strange as it is, i just can't fall asleep.. *sigh*.. the night dragged like an alone cigarette withering in the wind... and i fell alseep somehow..

and now.. i'm suppose to attend a make up lesson in school.. okok, i can hear those "orhhhhhh".. hey! give me a chance.. i went to school punctually but the make up class was cancelled.. even the lecturer was not there.. and the good news is that i'm not even informed.. some system.. *sigh* but anyway.. i'm in office now.. flipping through my books.. studying at least two chapters like wat i'm promised Liz.. heheh..

hmm..Liz and I seldom meet up nowadays.. due to both our busy schedule.. *sad*... kinda miss her..

[ All goes well again... I hope... ]

My PC is working fine again... after finally being able to scan online... & its tat same irritating virus again... WORM KLEZ.E ... hope tat my PC will not have the same problem again after few days... *prays*... if not like wat Viz had said... may have to prepare some money... anyway maybe its time to upgrade or change... hehe... we shall see wat happens...

My weekends have been very free since I made tat decision to take a break from RC activities... leaving behind a wonderful group of friends... feeling quite lonely now... revising schwork & doing tutorials early are not my cup of tea... maybe I should reverse my decision? dun think so...

My horoscope state tat I will have a romance this year... even though I dun believe in such stuffs... hehe... but come to think of it... I was actually surrounded by gals in My JC & Uni life... not tat I am popular of cos... I was never popular in my life... hehe... just tat there are mostly gals & less guys in my course of study... but I was only involved in 2 relationships in my 22 years of life... hmm... am I too choosy? r the gals around me unattractive? am I tat undesirable? am I too shy? maybe the right gal is still not here yet? am I normal in the first place? hehehe...

"Taking the initiative is important... so Who should make tat very first move then?"

[ There goes my one week break...... ]

This week is my one week break... for some students... its the time where they try to catch up on watever stuffs they had lagged behind... for others... its the time for them to enjoy & have fun... & for me... had been spending the past 5 days on project & tutorial discussions... be it in school for the 1st day... at City Link's Black Tea Box on Tues... at Raffles City's Burger King for the rest of the 3 days... the point is... I DID NOT HAVE TIME TO ENJOY MYSELF DURING THIS BREAK.... sigh... 2 more days left & school will start again... but anyway... did manage to catch a movie & went to KTV though... hehe... haha...

hmm... why do some people say one thing & behave in another... esp when its so obvious tat the actions say another thing... & being left out or ignored during an outing or conversation can be so irritating...

finally got 2 days to rest, sleep, enjoy & play... just hope someone or something dun crops up again... hehe...