I AM SO DAMN BLOODY PISSED OFF WITH MY BLOODY PC!!! ITS HAVING THE EXACT SAME PROBLEM AS TAT TIME!!! I THOUGHT I FIXED IT!!! WTF? REALLY VERY PISSED OFF NOW!!!

[ headache ]

ok.. i'm tired.. exhausted.. fatique.. watever u call it.. i need to rest.. the day's tension and challenges are shedding me thinner and thinner by the day.. but tomolo will be a better day.. just need to rest for the night .chill. .

[ the room is free ]

Today has been a heretic day.. i was the chief judge for footdrill competition (south district) and the sun was not sympathetic towards the competitors.. it was blazing hot and i guess the heat from the cement floor could have cooked an egg.. hehehe.. but anyway.. the competition went on well.. met a few old faces like.. Guohui.. some school teacher and fellow volunteers.. new handshakes were exchanged too.. enriching day indeed..

Roy, Dan joined Seer, Cirrus and me for a colourful dinner at chomp chomp. a food paradise.. we had red stingray, brown rojak, green kang kong, yellow hokkien mee, green sugarcane drink and satay..hehehe.. after entertaining our stomach and leave it to work on its own.. we head for 'violet 1'.. KTV.. after Roy asked around the room rates.. we somehow have an idea that after a spending of $58.. the room charge will be wavied.. but the package is for 2hr of singing. and bah bah.. so on and so fore.. we did not quite get the full picture.. but wat the heck right?.. if we need to sing.. we sing.. hahahaa..

lots of fun and laughter as the five of us take turns french kissing the microphone trying to sing.. heheh.. oh well. we did sing.. talk.. chat.. dug some fond memories to re-savour.. hahah.. we sang for 3 hrs but the billed was not called.. worrying of exceeding the charges.. we asked for the bill.. but got a pleasant surprise that our room is already free as we have spent more than 58 bucks.. and we are allow to sing till they close for the day at 12am. oh boy!!.. the guys.. specially Dan was thrilled and went insane by flipping through the catoglue.. randomly pointing at the pages.. trying to find songs to sing.. hahahah.. it was reall comical.. hahah.. and we went on singing.. till our throat screamed help and our lungs collapsed.. hehehe..

Cirrus was kind enough to send everyone of us back home and so.. all thanks to her that i'm able to post.. heheh.. tomolo will still be a long day for me as usual.. may the Lord be with you.. :)

[ PC gonna die soon...... ]

sigh... my PC had been giving me all sorts of problems these few days... & I am still trying my best to keep it alive... using the limited knowledge tat I have & asking the more professional ones... sigh... here's wat happened... my PC had been hanging for the past few days... connection speed getting slower... my norton antivirus cannot be activated & a full scan could not be done too... luckily managed to do an online scan today... & found a stupid worm! cleared the worm but now my ICQ cannot launch! sigh... gonna reinstall again... wat happened to my PC??? GRR....

tomolo will be having a mid term jap test & a presentation... wish me luck & pray for me folks... thanx... :)

[ Sad Story ]

Jenny was so happy about the house they had found.
For once in her life 'twas on the right side of town.
She unpacked her things with such great ease.
As she watched her new curtains blow in the breeze.
How wonderful it was to have her own room.
School would be starting; she'd have friends over soon.
There'd be sleep-overs, and parties; she was so happy.
It's just the way she wanted her life to be.

On the first day of school, everything went great.
She made new friends and even got a date!
She thought, "I want to be popular and I'm going to be,
Because I just got a date with the star of the team!"
To be known in this school you had to have a clout,
And dating this guy would sure help her out.
There was only one problem stopping her fate.
Her parents had said she was too young to date.
"Well, I just won't tell them the entire truth.
They won't know the difference; what's there to lose?"

Jenny asked to stay with her friends that night.
Her parents frowned but said, "All right."
Excited, she got ready for the big event
But as she rushed around like she had no sense,
She began to feel guilty about all the lies,
But what's a pizza, a party, and a moonlight ride?
Well the pizza was good, and the party was great, But
the moonlight ride would have to wait.

For Jeff was half drunk by this time.
But he kissed her and said that he was just fine.
Then the room filled with smoked and Jeff took a puff.
Jenny couldn't believe he was smoking that stuff.
Now Jeff was ready to ride to the point
But only after he'd smoked another joint.
They jumped in the car for the moonlight ride,
Not thinking that he was too drunk to drive.
They finally made it to the point at last,

And Jeff started trying to make a pass.
A pass is not what Jenny wanted at all
(And by a pass, I don't mean playing football.)
"Perhaps my parents were right....maybe I am too young.
Boy, how could I ever, ever be so dumb."
With all of her might, she pushed Jeff stay away:
"Please take me home, I don't want to stay."
Jeff cranked up the engine and floored the gas.
In a matter of seconds they were going too fast.
As Jeff drove on in a fit of wild anger,

Jenny knew that her life was in danger.
She begged and pleaded for him to slow down,
But he just got faster as they neared the town.
"Just let me get home! I'll confess that I lied.
I really went out for a moonlight ride."
Then all of a sudden, she saw a big flash.
"Oh God, Please help us! We're going to crash!!!"
She doesn't remember the force of impact.
Just that everything all of a sudden went black.
She felt someone remove her from the twisted rubble,
And heard, "call an ambulance!
These kids are in trouble!
Voices she heard...a few words at best.
But she knew there were two cars involved in the wreck.
Then wondered to herself if Jeff was all right,
And if the people in the other car was alive.

She awoke in the hospital to faces so sad.
"You've been in a wreck and it looks pretty bad."
These voices echoed inside her head,
As they gently told her that Jeff was dead.
They said "Jenny, we've done all we can do.
But it looks as if we'll lose you too."
"But the people in the other car!? "Jenny cried.
"We're sorry, Jenny, they also died."
Jenny prayed, "God, forgive me for what I've done
I only wanted to have just one night of fun."
"Tell those people's family, I've made their lives dim,
And wish I could return their families to them."

"Tell Mom and Dad I'm sorry I lied,
And that it's my fault so many have died.
Oh, nurse, won't you please tell them that for me?"
The nurse just stood there-she never agreed.
But took Jenny's hand with tears in her eyes.
And a few moments later Jenny died.
A man asked the nurse, "Why didn't you do your best
To bid that girl her one last request?"
She looked at the man with eyes so sad.
"Because the people in the other car were her mom and dad."

This story is sad and unpleasant but true,

So young people take heed, it could have been you.

[ Compelling to post ]

Just read Lava's post and once again.. i would like to feed everyone with my 2 cents worth..

this is what was posted..

so what's true love? ... i myself are not really in the position to define and explain the actual meaning of true love ... it could mean caring and doing anything for her/him ... it could also means engaging in sexual activity? ... i decided to leave it to everyone of us to determine and explain ... you have your own definitions, i have my own.

2 cents worth..

Basically, i'm only addressing the issue of love and sexual activity.. i embrace the faith that Love does NOT embrace the physical act of sex.. yes.. as unconvincing as it may be.. but it true.. in fact.. from the time of past.. sex has never been part of love, but part of marriage.. the physical act of love in todays context has very much influence by the things around us... i mean.. how many times in the movie do you see lovers making love? or even strangers who have just met and "love at first sight" making out at some dark corners of the pub.. *sigh*.. our lives are steered by the scriptwriters, directors, actors and actresses.. who try to portray a "liberal" sense in sex which was intended to be a sacred gift from GOD that can only be engaged by the vow of marriage.

Think about it.. how do you (if you) get the idea that pre-martial sex is fine with you??.. is it the movies that all of us us taken for granted??.. our moral values which has been warped by the porn magazines and porn websites??.. since when our "open" attitude towards sex can be explained by "liberal" thinking? Let's mark a difference between liberal in thoughts in its real sense and not what the society want it to be..

yup.. that's all folks!

"I'm no saint, but its never too late to change"

[ busy busy ]

Yes, i'm forking this 5 min from my office hours to fulfill my posting desire which has been delayed for quite a while.

and yes again, as the subject may have indicated, i gonna be busy today.. largely due to office work.. RC is tying my down on some administrative stuffs too.. but oh well.. like wat Dan has posted in one of his quotes.. "Attitude is the mind's paintbrush, it can colour any situation.".. i'm still holding my attitude up and vigilant..positive..

yesterday night attended a talk in church.. talking about the season of Lent.. a time for reflection.. a time to get closer with the relationship with God our Father.. set me thinking quite a bit of my doings.. ahh.. how far have i lost myself in the concrete world.. guess this season of Lent will be a time for repentance for me..

And i believe my dear Liz will be reading this post of mine.. dear.. be a good girl and get back to your studies once you reach this full stop.

[ Back from MIA ]

wow... never post for bout one whole week... hehe... sorry fellas for being MIA here... well... I am back now... but still nothing interesting or thought provoking to mention here... hmm... let me think... spent valentine's day alone walking ard at JP & saw galez... after tat went home to catch the last episode of the jap serial... sat was tricked to go down for courses cos Viz forgot to bring his uniform... GRR... went to Zoc's house after course for an overnite mahjong session... & the unlucky me lost $44... sigh... had another one of those chats with Cirrus yesterday... oh yah... her birthday is tomolo... & her birthday present is still not ready... opps...

Some nice quotes that I got from a friend......

1) Attitude is the mind's paintbrush, it can colour any situation.

2) A true friend never demands that you do not change but remembers the way you are.

3) Yesterday is a cancelled check. Tomorrow is a promisory note. Today is cash... Spend it wisely.

4) Success is not defined by obtaining everything you want but by appreciating everything you have.

[ There you go ]

Yesterday have been a very rewarding day.. it was the first day of the training courses and it is always nice tosee everyone back working together again.. but was more interesting is the conversation in the ambulance as we made our to HQ.. we were talking about the differences between "Man and Woman".. a topic of ancient era still never fails to entertain us.. ther was lots of exchange of perceptions between the two sexes. hahaha.. but do not worry.. lives goes on as usual and as normal.. nothing has changed due to our conversation.. i mean.. wat's new right?.. hehehe

and yes.. the night was spend at Rochelle's place as part of our New Year crusade.. Ang Baos were received.. and the rest of the guys were playing mahjong while i left early for home as church was early today.. had my favourite big breakfast with Liz before she embark her New Year visiting to her lecturers' house.

Listening to Bon Jovi now as my fingers are numbed from the hour long guitar playing.. gonna go jogging soon and my grandma's place for dinner.. chill everyone! till tomolo starts the week again.. may every have a good rest of body.. :)

[ Valentine's Day.. again ]

It the time of the year again where all couples (more or less) renouns their love for their partners. for me, today is another day whereby i can get an excuse to go out with my ever busy Liz.. hehehe.. no posh place for the both of us.. its not that i'm a cheap skate.. but my dear Liz always has a thought for my wallet, for wat's in it belongs to her too. hahaha..

Oh well, still in office, waiting for the clock to end my day's work.. i thought i will be quite lax today but reality is often unpredictable.. tons of work to do as usual.. looks like no luck for me on this third day of new year.

talking about luck.. i was right down and utter dry from luck yesterday as i lost 27 bucks through mahjong and 40 on cards.. somehow, it explain the smiling face on some of my friends.. hahahah.. but i'm not complaining.. for me.. gambling is just a passing time game which i only play heavily once a year. hehe.. someone just have better luck then me.. hahaha..

ok.. time for me to leave the office.. chill.. and to everyone.. Happy Valentine's Day.

[ Back... part 2]

Beetles Attack
During the night... there will definitely be huge beetles bout the size of a cockroach that will fly around... & they will also definitely bang against the wall, fan or any barrier & will fall to the ground...facing upwards... just like a turtle being overturned... was wondering why they will behave this way & one of my uncles suggested tat they could be blind... hehe... anyway... there were so many of them flying around the house at night & u can see the kids running & screaming about... & heros like me & my uncle will go around catching those overturned ones & dumped them into a swimming pool specially for them... hehe... think tat night we caught bout 30+... these creatures can stick to your body or clothes very well... quite difficult to shake them off... hehe... was quite afraid of them when I was younger so now its time for revenge... hehe... I can still remember last time one of them flew & landed on my cousin's erm... that part... haha...

hmm... looks like these 3 days are not really as boring as wat it seems... hehe... well... Tomolo is V Day & I wish all a Happy V Day... its also a 22nd Anniversary for me... haha... go guess wat anniversary it is... haha...

Got this from a mail my friend sent...

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

[ Back... part 1]

Its nice to be back in Singapore after bout 3 days in Malaysia... back into the arms of urban life, familiar surroundings & faces... but with lotsa tutorials, presentations, projects waiting eagerly for me... hehe... hmm... there was basically nothing much for me to do in Malaysia other than watching TV & sleeping... but will kinda miss the peaceful & stressless 3 days... hehe... quite contradicting over wat I said I guess... anyway... shall share some of the interesting things now...

My Youngest Cousin TongTong
This cousin of mine is really Kawaii neh!!! But she is also damn mischievious... but still in a very cute way... hehe... the things she did to me includes... pulling my leg hair... stealing my specs... hitting me... spitting at me... complaining tat I kept on looking at her... & she do not like pple say bad things bout her... if not she will whine & whine... really cannot tahan her cuteness... haha...

Logu Feast & Rojak Mee
We had a buah logu feast on one of the days... cos there are a few logu trees around the house & my uncles plucked bout 2 pails of them!... had lots of them & most of them are sour... including those whom my uncle specially chose for me... recommending tat they will definitely taste sweet... yah... kenna cheated... also had the chance to eat rojak mee... something not really common in Singapore... its sedap!

[ Best wishes ]

Lunar New Year has just arrived and i guess it will be well time for me to wish everyone out there a Prosperous and Happy Lunar New Year.. may the singles collect more Ang Bao and the married give the singles more.. hahaha..

This year new year is a bit different for me as this is the first time in my life i give my parents Ang Bao.. heheh.. i guess i'm gradually transiting into another phase of life.. hehehe.. the joy of able to give Ang Bao is somewhat interesting and happy.. money is not the issue here but i see it as a form of showing gratitude to my parents who have worked so hard in rasing me up.. fat and strong. hehehe.. time has come for me to express gratitude (financially) hahaha...

so here goes.. tomolo.. opps.. i mean later this morning will be an "event-full" day.. House visiting and lots of food.. hehehe.. alrite.. gonna clear up my room so that it will seems more presentable.. hahaha..

[ Will be gone for Chinese New Year...... ]

just finished a written assignment for a project... now taking a short break before I continue on a second one... sigh... cannot even enjoy the weekends with all these projects... well... will be gone from Singapore for the whole of Chinese New Year... so a short post here before I bid farewell to all of ya... hehe... actually nothing much to say also lah... except to wish all of you an early HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.... Enjoy the holidays...

[ Will you do it ]

Imagine if our parents are sick.. bed ridden.. they can no longer express basic speech effectively due to a stroke.. they can no longer take care of us like the days when we were young.. nor able to give us a hug when we are in pain.. never able to nag at us when we come home late.. all these and more.. no more.. and as their age progress.. their memory deteriorate.. now, they can't even recognise you at times..

Now, the question is.. Are we able to love and take care of them for as long as they live?.. and when we talk about love.. let us also consider that for all the love and concern we can shower.. they may never able to show even the slightest form of appreciation.. now, think again.. does it stop us from loving them?..

If your answer is NO and that you pledge your love for them even in the worse situation.. I thank God for it.. but.. what is purpose of this story? Well.. In my previous post.. hmmm. lead us into a world of scarcity.. where most of us believe that love do not exist.. or even so.. love is not free.. that trigger my mind and through of the story above.. which may not be very convincing nor touching.. hope that everyone can try to visualise ..

Many a times.. a lot of us give Love because we can foresee or expect a potential return in love.. we believe in loving someone because that someone is able to love you back.. but the essense of true love is to love even though there is no return..

But please do not quote me for your stubborness in BG relationship.. the love i'm talking about if the love for everyone.. the love even for the bus driver that fetch you to school everyday.. but please do not get me wrong again.. i'm not gonna sit in that side of courtroom justifying why you kiss the female driver.. hahahah.. wat i mean is that, try starting your day with love in your heart.. try to hang that smile on your face (i'm trying.. hehehe) when you step in that office or school gate.. but even when days were not looking that well for us.. smile and continue to love.. i'm not asking you to be a hypocrite.. but remember.. spreading love does not depend on mood, for love is a gift to share.. no one own love.. we can only pass it on.. then it will pass on back to you.. and the cycle will continue.. .:)

[ To give is to receive ]

Yes, today i realised the fact of the topic of this post.. "To give is to receive"..

This evening as i was making my way back home.. i've learnt a lesson that i believe God has shown me..

The question is.. "Would you have lend a helping hand to two delivery men struggling with pots of plants?"

Well, most people will go.."Why should I dirty my hands for their job?" .. and yes.. I for once was plant with such thoughts.. but strangely yet truely... i helped and it happen right at the lift of my block earlier this evening. I'm not saying that i'm noble or stuffs like tat.. but what i would like to share is that.. after helping them.. i can sense a very strong and overwhelming kind of happiness.. you will be surprise to know how must a kind gesture can affect the people around you.. the way you smile.. the way you speak.. the way you help.. if all these are in pure and genuine intention.. the way the people react to all your gestures can be equally or even better than you expect. Somewhat, I'm happy that i could have made their day a little better but my smile and kind act.. but they way they react with just a simple thank you and smile have definitely made mine.

I guess.. lending someone a helping hand really dun have to choose the time and place.. there is no purpose in going to hold folks homes every weekend but you refuse give up your seat in MRT or buses to someone more in need of it.. To give is from within.. to give is to receive.. we are all prepared to receive happiness and always hope that someone will make us happy.. but have we ever try to make others happy before us?.. happiness does not comes in wealth or material stuffs.. but a gentle and truthful gesture from the heart can be felt even by the coldest wind..

Oh well.. just wanna wrap up by saying that.. i've received happiness because of what i give FIRST.. and what i will/can receive is not the motivation behind my GIVE.. but the true willingness to GIVE.. is the key to true happiness to receive...

:) have you give ?

[ Small Drama today... Another Drama Tomolo... ]

something happened during my tutorial today... quite funny... a gal was preparing to present her question... she tried to pull down the OHP screen but she could not do it & said to the whole class tat she did not have the strength... but right after she said those words... the whole OHP screen was being pulled down by her... haha... now it was left dangling at one side... waiting for the repair man to do something... her reaction was also quite comical... actually she was quite slow in realizing tat she had actually pulled down the whole screen... she looked shocked & in a daze... haha... the whole class was in laughters... had a presentation today & it went quite well too... still able to crap I think... hehe... tomolo will be having another presentation... this time will be putting up a mini skit... acting as 2 different characters... one serious & one comical... hehe... wish me good luck for tomolo's drama people...

hmm... I am starting to miss someone... btw... should I go get a motorbike? Wat do u fellas think?

[ Downloading...... ]

Just finished another of my project discussions an hour ago... here I am sitting on the not so cosy chair... enjoying the cool aircon... the peaceful surroundings... with my friend Pinky beside me... & not to forget the flat screen monitor that is facing me now... hehe... yupz... I am in the school computer lab now... wtf am I doing here rite? well... I am not studying here... but I am downloading songs & burning them into CDs... haha... the stupid IRC gave me some problem just now... only managed to log in half an hour ago... hehe... well well... hope tat I can finish everything by 5pm.... got 2 presentations coming up for tomolo & friday... so wish me luck pple... okie back to my downloading... cya...

Who's free on Valentine's day? hehe...

[ Burn ]

the skin on my back is peeling off gracefully by the days due to an overdone swimming seesion last week.. hehehe.. and well.. i have been rather busy recently.. never ending work in the office is guadully robbing much of my reading and resting time.. almost every moment of my free time is conjested with thoughts of marketing... sigh.. hehehe.

This my life need a little perk soon before i become another classic example of work erosion.. hehehe..

Will be posting some food for thoughts soon i guess.. just let me get my hands on those books... hehehe..

nothing much for now.. chill.

[ Long Night Out ]

well... just woke up bout an hr ago... hehe... not tat I am a pig... just tat I had a long night out yesterday... reached home bout 5am plus... hehe... it has been a long time since I went out till so late... or should I say so early? haha... okie... shall fill all of you with some of the details now...

was very surprised & happy to receive a phone call from my good friend Jo in the afternoon... after some discussions with some other friends as well on the meeting up time & venue... finally decided to meet up at Holland Village... had dinner at NYDC & an ice cream session at Haagan Daas with friends including Jo, Viz, Liz, San Jie & Milk... catching up with one another's life & joking around with one another... the whole session was quite fun... with no particular place in mind to go after tat & after bidding farewell to San Jie... the rest of us actually decided to walk all the way to town... but Liz & Milk cannot take it halfway & decided to go home... with Viz being the usual gentleman & sent both of them home... hehe... so tat only left me & Jo for the remaining journey to town... chatted bout stuffs involving relationships along the way... when we finally reached town... we went to the flea market at Tanglin Mall for a short while before we stopped & rested at Macdonalds... started another chatting session involving studies & working this time... hehe... went to watch a midnight show after tat... Shallow Hal.... a funny show using stupid jokes... hehe... Tristan came & meet up with us after the show & we proceeded for a short pool session followed by a supper... actually it should be a breakfast instead cos the time was already 4am!... haha... Tat marked the end of a long night out & Tristan sent both of us home in his car... Thank you man... really enjoyed today & wondered when will be the next time we will have the chance to meet up with Jo again & go out till so late... hehe...

Valentine's Day is approaching... sheesh.... sigh...

[ Fast Post ]

I'm still numb with the morning plastic.. but my day has already begun. gonna gradually take control of my wobbling head and fragile body in face with today's battle. Talking about battle.. watched "Black Hawk Down" yesterday night.. practically a 2.5h of non-stop explosive movie. seeing bodies blown into pieces like a cake smashed by a hammer.. gory scene when the doctor put his hands into the thigh in search for the femoral pulse.. *eeeeii*

but one thing for sure is that War is a very real thing.. even more real then the coffee that you are drinking.. People kill and people die.. in war.. there are no innocents.. no killers.. when war happens, everyone is involved and entire either suffer the consequences or create them.

I for one is against war.. for i strongly believe that violence doesn't resolve violence, may sound idealistic but hey!.. its Logic. Like the recent saga in Singapore, when our racial harmony which was taken for granted is now tested to a new unknown limit. Paitence is NOT the answer.. but Understanding and a little bit of love and compassion for everyone are the only ways.. we have to learn why, how and appreciate other races/religion practices.. and not by meer paitence as it will only be the matter of time the paitence get worn off..

Let us begin our days with that little bit of love and compassion for everyone.. and that includes the aunties you see in the market.. the uncles that sell newspapers.. irregardless of races.. let us start by not criticising their smell, color of the skin, language and other differences from us.. learn how to stop judging people to appreciate the wonderous gift of life by God.. let the peace of the world begin with us (Me) :)