[ time's up ]

i'm squatting between my legs, typing this post.. yea.. that's becos i'm still packing stuffs for the camp that gonna stretch for the next 3 days.. lotsa stuffs to bring and print.. my printer is busy scribbling right now.. ya.

Think it will be quite a while before my next post.. but will try to poost since i'm bringing notebook to camp.. hehehe.

right.. may God bless the camp with good weather and make everyone safe :)

[ Mentally & physically drained? ]

Guess that the 4 consecutive weeks of work & red cross activities had finally taken a toll on me... the effects are bothering me now... time is not the problem... just tat the spirit is not willing... maybe I am not tat mentally & physically tough at all... or the slack nature of me had totally taken over control of my body & my mind...

this short post itself says it all...

" Mind over body or body over mind? What happens when both are not there?"

[ Classical ]

listening to an amazing cross breed of classical music and rock.. absolutely an overwhelming experience.. yeah! hehehe..

somewat, i've missed yesterday's post .. well.. in the next two weeks, i will need lots of prayers and hope to stay sane.. my exams are setting its paws.. RC is whining for attention and work is ever stacking.. there is almost no time for anything else enjoyable.. *sigh*.. "i just need to pull through" and that's wat i've been telling myself..

Liz got back for results.. and well, knowing her she will not want me to release her results within the post.. just say that she did extremely well .. hehehe.. :)

[ Live ]

Looking back all these years in RCY.. what are the gains.. wat are the losses.. it is something that i could not quantify no matter how much i try.. past two days, i began to feel a transition in myself.. I think God is telling me something.. he is guiding out of my misery... i mean, is there a need to in the very first place.. is there a need to actually to rate ourselves.. to tangibly account for wat we first started of as a Passion?..

Passion for something or for someone is intangible.. and infinite.. it is something that we can't see or touch.. but we are able to feel and it will survive through all trials because it is not bounded by physical conditions.. passion comes from the heart.. comes from the inner most yearning for something... it is unconditional and cannot be suppressed by the environment or swayed by the changes.. the passion will lead.. but will never conform to any changes that doesn't not satisfy it.. at the very start.. it is not the surroundings that formulate the passion.. passion belongs to the people.. not the conditions.

geddit? :)

May we live in love and hope for everyone..

[ Family Spirit ]

Most people will feel attached to a place where it provides a cosy family environment... a place where people of similar interest come together... working with one another towards shared goals... sharing one another's problems... helping one another through difficulties... spending happy times together... when this family spirit is being invaded by external forces... trying to change the way of work... imposing restrictions in things we normally do... as a result... interest level will be reduced... we will be faced with uncertainties & problems... the feeling of unhappiness will start to arise... in the end... the family spirit will be broken up... or maybe not.... there may still be hope... dunno whether I am making sense here... but nvm... just my personal feelings... the emotional part of me is dominating my cognitive ability now...

Tired after going through 4 consequtive weeks of work & red cross stuffs..... have to motivate myself more.... or maybe not....

"Putting all the different eggs into one basket will result in a greater mess when the basket is broken."

[ Music ]

Music never fails to sooth my soul.. be it in the morning afternoon or evening.. music has been part of my life.. playing the my background is piano classic. sometimes when i close my eyes and allow the music to come through me.. i can also see myself sitting down by that piano.. playing it.. (though i dunno how).. hehehe..

Right.. yesterday had a conversation with Dan over the icq.. yes.. some issues were brought up.. but just have to let him know that i have nothing to hold against him.. as a friend.. i will choose to support him of his decision rather then putting myself inthe shoes of wat i am in RC.. I've been through that tough and sensitive choice before.. i know it is difficult.. i do not expect you to choose the way i chose wat my life to be.. i pray that God will heal you through time and by the people around you..

Time.. is an infinite yet limited.. foreseen yet you can't grasp or hold on to any trace of it.. then, wat is time ?.. wat is the meaning of time?... does time exists only in our watch? .. wat is the purpose of time?.. wat does time have its part to play in our lives? .. wat can we learn from time ?.. i do not have any answers.. but in personal view.. i feel time exists in two forms.. in the aspect of science.. time is passive.. time does not predicts.. time does not initate anything.. nor time interfere.. time is an exclusive entity of the wonders of the world that mysteriously run and powered itself, it requires nothing to fuel its continuity.. in another form.. it is us who make time either meaningful or just being time alone by doing nothing about it.. we give time its meaning and make of value to us.. time has become a multiple tool in terms of measurement and quantifying in general.. we See history because of time.. we Plan for future because of time.. we Live by today because of time.. every moment of our lives are bonded to time.. we are able to plan.. see.. and evaluate..

Continue from above..

But it also drop us into a constraint.. a time dilemma.. conformity to time.. we are controlled and motivated by time.. more often then not, we say.. "Sorry, no time.. " .. we have forgotten that it is us who Give time its meaning.. we are the ones who make them count.. it is what we do and choose to react makes time valuable to us.. in Faith.. time is road that God gave us in grace.. in our breathing soul.. a chance to learn His love for us and everyone.. Time is a very limited uncontrolled element for us to do wat we can to follow Jesus before our time is up (on earth).. and in time of such..in eternally and grace. we live..

May we treasure and make OUR time counts.. do God's will and let it be done.. May the Lord be with you all.. Amen.

[ Signs .. fore-telling ]

Signs are visible symbols of wat is otherwise invisible emotions.. living without the light of emotional realisation.. we are not able to manage the way the signs affect us.. certain point in life, we will ask ourselves why are we here?.. where am i on this earth?.. in Singapore?.. living with my parents?.. why this and why that.. more often then not, we disregard this haunting and carrying on with our lives.. BUT.. a question without an answer will always and as unanticipated hit us from time to time.. till the answer that is able to satisfy our mind and soul is revealed, understood, and lived by..

In my faith.. i understand that we are here on earth for a reason.. a mission!.. a mission to proclaim God's love.. a mission to work towards the Eternal life and on this earthly soil walk the footsteps of Jesus and holiness .. yes. the world is very much different from the way God first intended it to be.. but through the love and grace from Jesus.. we found the way.. i'm not saying that i'm holy or i'm sinless.. but that is for the very fact that we are not.. it make our journey worthwhile and meaningful. Many will fight against this faith in persude of the worldly desires and pleasures.. live in the life where temptations dwell.. yes.. I recognise that and yes.. we are flesh and blood.. temptations are inevitable and we sinned.. but grace and choices are always available..

As human we fall.. and God recognised that.. that is why we have Jesus as our lamb and the Holy spirit as our guide.. God's gave us free will to those who believe and not believe.. it is us who must realised that this gift of eternal life and how important is our role on earth in will and hope to attain it.. We can choose the easlier way out by pushing it away and carry on with wat the society believes, wat the society accepts and wat the society practice.. OR.. we can reflect on our lives.. our values, our moral and our principles.. and believe in wat God want for us.. able to listen and let Him work through us.. from the basics.. we shall form the root.. and from the root.. with constant nurturing, love, passion and through God's grace.. may this root grow strong and grow into a tree of love which will provide the shelter to those whom we touch.. we may live the life and walk the steps of Jesus.. Amen.

[ Signs of Burnout? ]

Have quite a few things on hand to settle... but just cannot get the momentum going... no motivation at all... not because of slackness... normally I would be quite enthusiastic when handling such stuffs... well... could it be signs of burnout? had been quite tired these few days... should be due to the consequtive burnt weekends... but not to worry... I shall bounce back with a bang soon... I hope...

What exactly do I want in life? Had been asking myself this question recently... & dun really have any idea & direction... What kind of career do I wanna have in the future? Am I studying just for the sake of studying? What are my interests? Should I spend my time more effectively? What kind of gals do I really like? What kind of person am I? I mean will the real me please stand up? Why am I having mixed emotional feelings? sigh... sigh... sigh...

Anyway dun get affected by what I said... its just one of those days when I get moody... yes... u never hear it wrongly... I do get moody sometimes... its just tat no one knows...

"Your own life is in your control. Do not just let life drags you along"

[ posting from office ]

yup, i'm still toasting the black cushioned office chair.. finishing some miscellaneous stuffs.. lingering in the backgroud is Gregorian Chants MP3.. hehehe.. indeed.. very chanting..

tomorrow (and today has not end yet).. will be a busy day.. yes.. it is not a foresee situation but a deliberate plan.. with have mass faxes to send and phones calls to make.. think i'm complaining too much these days about my job... hmm.. well.. heheh..

who dun?!

[ mouse back ]

my mouse is finally back in tune.. well.. a replacement of the old one always work right? hehehe. yup. today could not be easily pass off as effective day at work.. well.. my lunch started early with my buddy roy at 11am.. and from then.. i have been wandering around orchard and sim lim area in acquiring some computer stuffs... and waiting to meet up with my distributor.. who later on cancel our meeting 5 min before we were suppose to meet.. *speechless*..

anyway, today at school.. got back my programming test.. and by God's grace.. i finally managed to bag 70% for the test!!!.. hahaha.. it has been long time since i pass any test.. hahaha... but anyway.. i must thank my Liz too.. she's the one who had to sacrifice by amputating her time alway from me so that i can (no choice) concentrate in my studies.. hehehe.. thank dear.. :)

alrite, the time has come for me to plan my next few weeks of miserable effort in battle against the up and coming examinations.. pray for me..

p/s: it was long since i've give thanks.. take nothing for granted and be glad that God place them there (or not).

[ Trickster alert!]

Spent my afternoon walking on the streets of Orchard... from Orchard Point all the way to Lucky Plaza... & all the way to Plaza Singapura... bought some sushi... yam milk tea with pearls & iced lemon tea to gobble on the way... hehe... was tasked to trick cadets of their hard earned money during this activity which is named Exercise VS... hehe... not real money of cos... but monopoly money... only managed to trick 2 groups but compared to Viz... at least its not zero... haha... met 2 of my JC friends in Orchard too... LW & QF... they are still as crappy & crazy... hehe...

So I guess its a successful meet the parents session for Viz? It must have been real difficult for u to maintain your table manners... hehe... so I supposed I will receive the red invitation card soon? haha... All the best to u & Liz... My most sincere wishings for the both of ya...

Weekends are over as fast as the lightning strikes the ground so its back to work again for the rest of the week... sigh... real tired & sleepy now...

"Do not do to others what you do not want them to do to you."

[ Burppp ]

yes, you heard it right.. i'm bloated and satisfed with my dinner... had my dinner with Liz family over at lemon grass earlier this evening.. it is my second time seeing Liz's mother and my first dinner with her.. man!.. i swear that my heart was pumping so hard that i could almost hear it myself.. heheh.. it was those kind of mysterious form of anxiety that engulfed you and you would hope that someone or something will save you from the restlessness and uncertainty.. heheh.. Nonetheless, the dinner was fine and tried to display my best table manners.. and probably just being polite.. Liz's mum wasn't difficult on me.. hehehe.. let's hope that it stays this way .. :) .. hehehe..

my mouse seems to have a life of its own.. something is bothering the left click.. everytime i try to click once.. it automatically register a double click... *ahhh* wat a nut to crack.. hehe... think i gonna burn another hole for a new mouse.. and yes to those helpful soul.. i tried changing the driver and all those dissection stuffs.. it does not work.

today is an exhausive day at red cross.. breaking beyond the boundaries of a classroom.. the course cadets and instructors hit the streets today.. and i was positioned at Raffles City.. long awaiting only to see no group at all.. but i had time for myself.. which was quite uncommon on a Sunday.. i had time to look around at the passing crowd while i was sipping through my ice blend from starbucks.. it was surprising to discover that in the rythm of fast moving footsteps.. there is a certain form of peace.. yes.. the crowd was moving.. but i'm still.. my mind is clear and alert.. the crowd doesnt bothers me.. nor i'm part of the crowd.. when everything is flashing and moving so fast.. i'm able to see everything is slow motion.. it is soo. .soo.. *speechless* you get my drift.. ?.. hehe

alright.. tomorrow is another day of challenge and saw sharpening process.. hehehe.. may God bless Liz on this birthday.. grant her wishes and let her live a life closer to our oord Jesus.. :)

[ Pain in the ass ]

Well... I am not scolding anyone... just tat my ass is painful from the cycling in Pulau Ubin... not to forget the cramps on my leg too... spent bout 4 hrs overcoming slopes & difficuit terrains in Pulau Ubin today... quite a good exercise for me... appropriate time to get rid of some excess fats round my tummy too... haha... went to campsite after tat with Bubbles to see see look look... kind of regretted going there... hehe... joined Viz, Roy, Shili & Andy at night for a game of pool followed by supper that consisted of Tian Ji Zhou & BBQ chicken wings... hehe... yum yum... the session with them was quite enjoyable as the few of us kept bringing out old stories to suan each other... my famous bombing in Mandai... Viz's shitting & vomitting experience in Ponggol... Roy's leg fracture... this one is new... Andy's aiming of the black ball during today's pool session... hehe... there are many other interesting stories bout us & other friends too... but thats for us to know & for you to find out... hehe... okie heres another story bout me... the Xiao Qiang joke... hehe...

Should go catch my sleep now... before I go... let me wish Liz a Happy Birthday...

"Humans are spoilt for choices... they also spoil their choice"

[ Appointment ]

Appointment here and appointment there, my life has moved from an easy paced, happy-go-lucky, wondering-wat-next to a hyper paced, appointment after appointment, and trying to keep up with them.. hehe.. the challenges that i have to face in order to climb up that ladder of career path.. endless seminars to attend and clients to meet up with.. hopefully i'm on the right track and will not lose my mind.. hehehe.. at least i have this post to keep me sane and God to show me the way..

this evening will be another appointment with my dear Liz... tonight will roll on a planned schedule from dinner to coffee and etc.. heheh..

shit!.. i forgot to post this.. hehehe.. i started typing this post early this morning and went out for a seminar.. forgotten all abt this.. heheh.. alrite.. posting time.. heheh

[ Another treat ]

After getting so many treats... an average of 3 times a week... I really felt so paiseh... but I really cannot do anything... they are the one who kept insisting... guess tat it pays to be the youngest, newest & poorest in the company... hehe... today's treat is by Joreyl again... haha... dined in at this small cafe where there is a pool table... so the 2 of us plus Julian played a game in between lunch... with the blur Michael watching... hehe...today had a feel of working in a rush... the few of us... Jane, Joo Lee & Joreyl were rushing to finish some dispatch work... the dispatch man was not happy with us & kept on reminding us to hurry up... quite irritating... waited for an hour after work to accompany Viz to a store nearby to get some stuffs... followed by a dinner & some chats... tat marks the end of my day...

"The one that you missed the most is the one that you had lost"

[ limit ? ]

hmm.. today is a very fulfilling time well spend with my dear Liz.. we were dressed casually and hit the streets early in the afternoon.. we walked.. and we walked.. left our foot prints from Wisma to Novena to Suntec to Sim Lim Sq to Bugis.. you name it.. we were there.. hehehe.. enjoyed the day throughly as it was quite a time since the both of us have time for each other.. studies.. red cross and work are the main reasons that we were unable to meet up.. anyway, she got herself some new gadgets and stuffs.. and hope that she will use them with good intentions.. heheh.. dun worry.. they dun bite. :)

and to Dan .. yes.. i would like to chip in.. justlike me the price i need to chip in and let me know wat is it that we gonna buy.. heheh.. Nov seems to be a happy month lots of birthday gals and boys.. looks like my pocket is gonna burn.. real charred.. hahahah.. hmm.. Dan seems to end his daily pst with a quote.. hmm.. limits.. if one do not push itself to the limit and beyond.. how does one know where is the limit ??

and btw, i think Deepavali is celebrated by Hindus.. not indians.. :) heheh

[ Happy Deepavali ]

This message is for all Indians out there... Happy Deepavali... hmm... I thought I was a racist? hehe... anyway spent today's holiday on a meeting... followed by a pool session with Lava, Roy & Shili... sian... had a good sleep since yesterday nite... think my cough is slowly going away... it had been quite some time since I last slept for about 10 hrs... haha... yah... today is my buddy Tristan's birthday... did not celebrate with him cos he will be with some gal I think... haha... have not got him a present yet... anyone wanna chip in? Viz wanna chip in?

Back to work tomolo... sigh...

"Push yourself to the limit only when you know where the limit is"

Had been coughing for quite some time... doesnt seem to get better... it gets worse at night... making me unable to sleep... so in the end felt quite sleepy at work... went for another long lunch break today with Joreyl & Julian... followed by a pool session with them... hehe... good life rite? lunch was on Julian this time... hehe... another treat... cab fare all by him too... but this time I managed to pay for the pool session... hehe... hmm... was quite amused by Joreyl's chinese name... shall not reveal here... hehe... anyway enjoy your holiday tomolo... finally a day for me to rest... or maybe not... take care people...

"Love can change a person but will you still love a changed person?"

[ classic ]

yes, this is another classic post.. why did i say i ? i dunno. anyway.. as usual today will be yet another busy at work.. with a few locations to run about.. so i will find myself in Sim Lim, Orchard, Paya Lebar.. Shenton Way.. everywhere.. hehe.. should I drop by Novena? hahaha..

My brain juice ran out of wordy elements for this classic post.. hehe..

[ Monday Blues? ]

Hmm... missed quite a few days of posts... hehe... sorry all... well... after a weekend full of activities which I shall not elaborate.... First Aid Competition... hike... the dreaded Monday blues sets in again for most of the people who are working... tat includes me of cos... but luckily its only for a short while... had to drag myself out of the bed again this morning... had to find work to do so tat I will not fall asleep in the office... anyway... there will definitely be things for me to do... the usual shifting of chairs & tables... keying of data... other admin stuffs... accompanied Joreyl to Orchard during the lunch break to shop for her shoes & skirt... gave ourselves an extra one hour lunch break... hehe... got another treat from her after tat... hehe... this time its dim sum at Crystal Jade... hehe... yum yum... I really wanted to pay for this meal cos was feeling real bad bout letting her treat me again... but her persistence won in the end... chatted bout many stuffs & got to know her even more... promised to give her a treat when I start work in the future... provided she will still be working at the same company or never changed her handphone number... haha... but think I will give her a treat when my attachment is coming to an end... was supposed to meet up with Kitty for dinner but did not as she had some last minute things to settle... was quite disappointed bout it... fly my aeroplane... hehe... so the poor me had to eat dinner alone... sigh...

have not started on my attachment report.... shit...

"Some things just dun change, like a leopard that can never change its spots"

[ Sunday .. mmm ]

Sunday, just like any other day.. I have RC stuffs to meddle with.. just after i've finished typing all these, i should be on my way to meet up with the guys for breakfast before we set off for my hile.. hmm.. pray that God will bless us by a good weather and a safe hike.

yesterday nite was dinner at bugis junction.. has not been back there ever since the renovation took place.. no the place look so much spacious and classy.. so did the jacked up price.. can't believe that during such time.. the prices could actually good p.. but anyway.. got myself Yong Tua Who.. who?.. hahaha.. *corny* latest the nite was a disappointing wait for pool session.. we were at the back of the quene with 11 before us.. *argh*.. after waiting for around 30min or so.. we decided to give up and head for "chat-over-coffee" session at Mr Bean instead.. the crowd was small and we managed to get a good seat though the parking was challenging.. heheh..

the nite ended early and i took a bus with Dan and Lava.. this economy crisis did hit us.. hahah.. anyway, i was dead beaten and the only thing i could remember doing was sleep. hahah.. and i was not even trying to.heheh.

[ Good Morning ]

I start to wonder if i could actually speel beyond 7am.. my psycho clock seems to be soldered in this fix way.. *mmmm*.. anyway, gonna sit for a test later today and hope that i will have a chance to play pool which i have been neglecting for so so many months.. hahah.. kinda itchy at the tip of my fingers.. heheh..

On my computer background is the mp3 of Power Station .. morning rock.. hahaha.. ok, i think my mind is still in a subdue state. will post later.. ya. i think.. hehehe.. oh yes.. prayer's time. . :)

[ Jazz ]

lingering the office silence is my computer's MP3 of Smooth Jazz.. it is almost make me feel like licking a glass of red wine in a cool pub.. i dunno when i start Jazz but hey!.. i never like Jazz before. but alrite.. it rather good music.. and in fact there are a lot of different categories of Jazz.. Smooth Jazz.. Acid Jazz.. just to name a few.. but i think its the Smooth Jazz that i like most as it gives me a good sense of relaxation.. sexy.. soothing... the gracefulness of piano.. low piping of saxophone.. the light dizzling of drums ..Ahhhhh.. .heheh...

Today will be busy over books and office stuffs.. oh ya, this reminded me to call one of my distributors.. hehe.. hmm.. free lunch in the afternoon by one of my distributors again.. hmm.. and the night will me revision for my tomolo's test.. argh.. i never like test.. but well.. it is the way the system goes.. hahaha..

ok, the light and love of God shine on everyone!

[ A message ]

i know some may find dreams mysterious.. but i find dreams especially dreams that repeat themselves are Signs. The signs can mean anything.. it is us who decide what to extract and place our faith on it.

well, i had a dream last night.. a deep and somehow a repeated one.. but the 'storyline' is slightly different at the back.. it was a very disturbing dream.. and i find my heart pounding like a jackdrill when i broke out of it.. but as soon as i closed my eyes.. my dream continue itself.. i shalln't reveal what my dream was about but i did got a very strong message that i felt so compelling to pray..

the message to me in what i believe in faith of God was that in my everyday life.. i'm still tempted and consumed by the evil one in some way or another.. my efforts in breaking away has not been sincere and indeed causing me to slide further and further.. i need help.. i need a helping hand... i need to break away.. it will not be successful if the fight to holiness is an alone path.. but pray that in prayers and devotion i will break away soon and fast.

For those who knew me, know that i was a methodist long time ago which ever since broke away from the light of faith.. but somehow, God called me again.. God did not call in like over the phone or sms me.. but he placed friends and love ones around me to show me the way and guided me back.. but this time round.. he guided me through the Catholic Faith.. this new found faith of mine gave me the strongest of all faith that i've ever place in the pursuit of eternal life. The road of holiness is not easy and will need lots of prayers, faith and determination to stay in that road again.. there will be sacrifices to make in order to leave our body of flesh and feed our soul with grace..

Mini Sitcom? haha... I just love my attachment there.... but maybe its still too early to tell? hehe.... anyway... here is episode 3 of "Slacker In Office"......

Started the day doing the usual admin stuffs.... realised tat I actually could wear casual to work today.... but Joreyl dun have my number.... grrr....cos there will be manual work to be done.... shifting tables.... arranging chairs for the Seminar tomolo... Joreyl was grumbling to the rest of the guys to help out.... esp to Michael... but he need to rush for his speech tomolo.... hmm... seems tat he took the whole day to prepare for tat... hehe.... so in the end only left the 2 of us to do all the work... but its okie... needed the exercise... haha.... hmm.... got 2 treats today.... steamboat buffet lunch at a restaurant paid by Michael.... & a coffee break by Julian.... I wonder why am I always getting treats? haha.... okie I shouldnt grumble.... shall be anticipating more treats I hope... hehe.... got to know the names of the 2 pretty gals tat I mentioned.... Angela & Alicia.... both of them are cheerful & cute.... I was being teased by Jane.... asked me to tok to Angela on the phone.... hehe.... when the 2 of them came down to our office.... tat Jane teased me even more.... lucky I was doing things & refused to come out.... haha.... got to know Joreyl more today.... & she was telling me the wonderful benefits of working in the company tat tempted me to work there part time during my hols & after I graduate... hehe... well... we shall see wat happens in the future.... Kala was still protective of me.... & she was complaining to me tat she had no work to do.... hehe.... okie.... nothing much to comment on the other colleagues.....

will start work late tomolo.... but will also end late..... so those who wanna visit me tomolo.... pls do so another day... hehe.... anyway there wun be any rite?

[ Rest? What's that? ]

yes, today is a busy day.. a day which i have to scramble through pages of websites and creating one.. a day where distributors decide to be more difficult to handle.. haha.. anyway, all the challenges are coming towards me at the same time.. pray tat i can make it through.. coming saturday will be another test which i'm not yet half prepared.. and lotsa Red Cross stuffs that will keep me busy at least till the end of this year?.. *sigh*.. *endure.. en.d.d.u.r.r.e.*

Looks like Dan is staging a mini sitcom on vizinity, screening his office daily happenings.. hahaha.. we have a count of 12 actors and actresses.. and will be 'opening' our 'TV' screen, anticipating the next episode.. hahaha..

to my Liz now, she's very busy trying to get herself busy.. hehehe.. she is bored to near critical level.. anyone with a decent job to offer her??.. email me!.. hahaha..

and well.. the rest of the evening earlier was a small IT assignment for one of my officer.. and the journey back was fruitfully engaged in conversation with lava .. ahh.. good friends and shaking bus.. hehehe..

p/s: Have we pray today?

Today was a busy day at work.... never even had the time to chat with the female colleagues... hehe... all because of that stupid vice president.... gave me so many things to type.... then add in stuffs here & there when I had finished.... grr.... idiot.... but the funny thing today was tat he was scolded by the president.... right in front of me... haha... I had to act blur & keep quiet..... sitting still & looking at my paper.... hehe.... he was quite blur loh... & tried to cover up the things... but the cover up needed lots of practice... haha... kept on smiling to myself after tat & Joreyl was asking wats wrong with me.... yah... meet Joreyl... the nice gal whom I was attached to work under.... I realised tat we shared some similar taste for certain food.... hehe.... next... meet Michael the blur vice president..... other than giving me things to do & being blur... basically he is quite nice too.... Joo Lee & Jane are 2 ladies who helped me alot too.... both ofd them are married & have kids liao.... & they loved F4... haha.... Peter the president looks like a cool & stern dude... always trying to find fault at poor Michael.... Evelyn was my lunch kaki together with Joreyl.... hmm.... dun she know how to excuse herself to let us have some time alone? hahaha.... Only met Julian today.... a comical & nice guy too... but kept on calling me Ah Keong... grrrrr..... Thomas was erm.... dao? anti-social? never hear him tok... maybe I should interact with him more..... Kevin is a cool looking & comical guy.... rarely have the chance to interact with him too.... same goes to Don.... opps... forgot about Kala.... the one who asked others not to bully me.... esp when I am the youngest there.... hehe...

I like the working environment there! Anyone wanna visit me?

[ Great day ]

Haha, seems that Dan is rather happy with his office gals and the attention he is having on this first day of work.. haha.. keep up to the tune man!.. heheh

Now my turn to talk about my day. hmm.. dragged myself out of the bed too, i mean it is Monday morning.. who dun right?.. hahaha. anyway, the day was smooth as usual, busy with lotsa of stuffs that i sometimes lost focus in what i'm doing.. but well, the day gets by nonetheless.. :)

Went for my programming test today.. err.. err.. not exactly a disaster, think i should be able to get a good pass.. :) hehehe.. and have been studying from the moment i stepped out of my shower.. as you can see (opps.. sorry you can't).. my head is swollen with information.. it just need a needle prick to hear the loud bang.. hehe..

alright.. lotsa stuffs awaits for me tomolo.. take care everyone!.. big or small, tall or short.. nite and may God shower his best blessings over you!

First Day of Attachment

Actually had a lot of things to say but will just touch on some of the interesting ones... think I will just leave some headlings for u to imagine wat had happened through the day... hehe...

1) Dragged my tired body away from the cosy bed at around 645am.
2) Dressed up & ready to kill.
3) Met manager, supervisors & other colleagues.
4) Attached to work under a pretty gal who is one year older than me.
5) Stuffed with lots of information & processes.
6) Small family working environment.
7) Jap lunch treat from pretty gal.
8) F4 Fever.
9) Stapling & stapling.
10) 2 pretty gals came to the office.
11) "How come suddenly there is a shuai ge in the office?"
12) Voiceless.

Stay tune for more office politics!

[ Heavy weight ]

My day kicked off by attending morning mass.. and the rest of the day was spent with good friends and Red Cross... you may noticed that I place the company of friends before Red Cross.. and i meant it. to me, though i'm about to assume a higher position in RC, but wat matter most to me is about meeting up with friends and able to work together, hand in hand on the constant challenges we have to face. it is all about meeting friends with an option of doing volunteering work. :)

but something has been weighting in my heart.. though i know that i was forgiven, it still weigh heavily in my heart.. i do not know how to feel better.. but still.. I would like to express again, my greatest apology to a friend whom i've hurt through my unpolished speech. Wileen, I'm truely sorry about having to comment you in such a way earlier this evening and I understand that it must have hurt you deeply... there is nothing i can do to take back the words, but i hope that it will not hinder our friendship.. Sorry :(

I had a short conversation with Angela when i was on my way back home.. ahh.. it has been a long time since i've talk to her.. she is doing well, exams were over and i'm happy for her as she seems to be blessed with all the good things happening about her.. and i wish her happiness in every way possible.

It seems to me that tonight i'm a little concern about friends around me.. i don't know, i just felt that every friendship no matter how big or small or even how insignificant it may seems, it really need time and love to nurture.. there are still a lot of things for us to do, but in love and hope.. it will not have to be build at the expense of Friendship. right my friends?..

Continuation of Post...

Bash at Grease
Proceeded to Grease at night with pple like Seer, Cirrus, Lava & Tristan to attend the NTU FOC Bash... dun really enjoyed the whole event... songs were so so... DJ suxs... only one free drink... but the place is quite big... there r 3 disco rooms... one for techno music... one for retro... & one for slow music... quite many chio bus too... & met quite a few friends too...

Wonderful Shopping Experience
Today was a tired day... went for a recce followed by a session of pool... lastly followed by a wonderful shopping experience with my 2 wonderful image consultants, YW & YL ... have to buy some office wear for my attachment programme... so decided to shop today... I have to say my 2 image consultant have quite good tastes... the things that they chose for me are not bad... bought 3 shirts, 2 pants & 2 ties in the end... one of the shirt is wat I called the Porky Pig Shirt... hehe... they shared to buy me a tie too... as a gift for my attachment... thanx a lot... quite touched too... I had to go through the process of trying on whatever they choose... but they have an even diffcult process to go through... that is choosing the correct size... choosing the nice cutting... choosing nice colours... choosing the nice combination... in the end there is a heap of clothes lying around messily... haha...

Running short of time now… so gtg…

well well.... had the urge to post one very long post now...... so here goes.....

Story of Dan & Viz - My Version

Luckily I was not a cadet of yours... hehe... but I think I saw you in my year CO Course... think you were an IFC tat time... I went to your YCK sch camp before as a guest & my school demostrated footdrill for CB Sec too... Remember? Anyway, was shocked to hear from you that PS was your sister... no wonder she knew things bout me in Red Cross... grr... dunno wat did u tell her... but come to think of it... I realised tat both of u look similar... dunno who's misfortune will tat be? haha... Anyway the Dan here is still the quiet & reserve guy as before... hehe... should use the word "shy by nature" but sometimes nature just dun allow me to be shy... make sense? hehe... but hey... I do not lurk around corners... me no lizard... haha... hmm... split personality? maybe? hypocritical? of cos not... hehe... had been working with you for quite a number of projects... dunno whether its another misfortune for me... hehe... I can say that we have roughly similar thinking over certain matters & can relate to each other quite well... will sometimes pour out my feelings to him too... I can say for sure that he is also a good friend & colleague to me too... never regretted knowing him... its always fun with him around... learned pool from him... now the disciple sometimes provide a great challenge to his master on the pool table... hehe... a charismatic leader who put his heart & soul into TD... okie... enuff of these for now... hehe...

Powerful & Entertaining Voice?
Went KTV on Fri noon to celebrate Ah Soh's 20th Birthday... met up with a number of NTU Semester 1 classmates... its great seeing them again & having fun together... its a pity most of them came late... Ah Soh commented that my voice is powerful & entertaining... hehe... dun think so lah... but can make it lah... haha... those who hear me sing b4 can have your own comments bout tat... hehe... Yah... I hate the stupid system at the KTV Lounge... irritating... shall not comment more...

[ Welcome welcome ]

Vizinity welcomes Dan back to this seat in front of his computer sprouting posts in this face of the screen. Let's hope to see a change of him, a slacker to a 'human' devoured by love and passion for the world. May his new page to society's bash be beneficial to him and to those who love him.

ok, since i'm in the mood now, let me share my experience with you folks..

-- The story of Dan & Me --

I can't remember which year we actually met each other, dun think he was my cadet.. but we are always linked in a mysterious way.. (nothing erotic here).. I remember that he was my sister's classmate when he was still studying his secondary school.. even all the way through JC. My sister and me used to share his his funny stories, heheh. In 1996, he came into the department, the impression i have for Dan was that he was a quiet and reserve guy (note that 'was' was used) .. hehe.. really, can't recall him in action as he was always the quiet and shadowy one that lurked around the corners but always obvious enough to be seen.. and that's about all. hahaha. After so many years of friendship and working relationship, there are some noticable change in him.. he is more open now, taking on more important and demanding roles in the department, but still a reserve guy. He is sort of like a split personality. He always impress the crowd by his outgoing character, loud voice and cheerful character, but somehow, I felt that it was a certain amount of feelings that hide behind that smile. I'm not saying that he is hypocritical, but to illustrate the fact that how much more and so much deeper we can know this guy in a passionate way. Nonetheless, he is a efficient worker that i can always trust in his hands all kind of projects. (That explain why he is always so busy when attached to me) hehe.. hmm, of course he has his flaws or imperfection (I mean, who dun have right?), on the whole, he is still a good friend and good colleague to me. May God bless him.

-- The End --

Right, today will be a time for enjoyment.. movies and shopping.. hehehe.. just a form of relaxation. To everyone out there.. Enjoy !

p/s: Have we pray for God's blessing to shower on our friends?

[ DAN IS BACK! ]

Yes, I am back.... back into the arms of Vizinity.... leaving my Slackerz Arena.... just dun have the motivation to maintain the website & inject new ideas.... so I had to close down my webbie with sadness.... who knows I may re-launch Slackerz Arena again in the future.... but for now... I will just be satisfied being a member in Vizinity.... will try to add on some of my personal TOUCH in here.... & bring you down the memory ROAD with me..... btw... exams have finally ended for me today.... this semester's exam is another new experience for me.... one real difficult paper.... smoking through 2 papers..... revising only half a day for my last paper..... study plan being drawn up ages ago but failed to follow though.... guess the slacker in me is having a very strong influence on me..... attempting to take control over me.... quick someone help me before I am no longer myself.... have been slacking since I finished NS.... & the slacker in me is slowly devouring me bit by bit....

Anyway.... my attachment will start next week.... time to get used to another new life.... waking up early..... meeting new pple in a new environment.... having a new working image.... shirts & ties will be the norm..... subjected to office politics..... sigh....... hope it will be another good learning experience for me.....

gtg bye....... life goes on.... & it suxs sometimes......

[ Ah, ha ]

Yes, Liz just called me through my office phone, and boy! was so rejoice as i have not heard her since last Sunday.. we were practising the ignoring thingy due to her exams.. hehehe.. *weird*.. but well, really felt loved and ready to love again.. her sweet and playful voice fondled my heart.. hehe.. too bad we can't meet up today due to My test preparation .. But just can't wait to hold her again.. :) hehe..

and, i'm littering my presence still, walking about in the office, searching for inspiration. The inspiration for business opportunities and marketing stuffs. This is really tearing my brain apart.. haha, but think that i'm handling it quite well.. at least i did not gone bersek. hahah..

hmm, think that my dear will just log on to the net just before she go for her exams.. dear.. dun be late and get off line !!