[ Back on track ]

This is an early post, a post that i failed to publish last night due to my splitting headache. i had a early night, as a matter of fact, it is the earliest night that i've turned in on a weekday ever since i started work-i think.. 10pm!!.. Gosh.. hahaha. but i just cant figure out why i'm still yawning this morning on the train.. hehehe..

hmmm, today is Wednesday, and according to the Catholic Calendar, it is All Saints Day, a day celebrated on the first week of Nov, to honour all the known and unknown saints.. it is also a day of obligation.. anyway, will be attending the mass at 8.00pm this evening..

Ladies and gentlemen, very soon, we will welcome back one of our ex-member.. stay tune.. alright, time is reminding me to do some work.. or i mean lotsa work.. hahaa..

Liz, may the lord bless you.. :) and time to get off the net for some studying.. hahaha.. Love ya!

[ I've cried ]

yes, *sniff sniff* it is one of those night that my Mum and sister decided to let emotions out, spearing at each other.. lotsa emotions from within are exchanged.. telephone was slammed.. doors were slammed.. but dun imagine all was chaotic.. nope.. in fact, i felt God's love showering upon me.. and my family.. During the time when my mum and sis were not ready to talk face to face.. my dad and i have to run about between two rooms.. trying to calm them down.. anyway.. for me.. it was the first time i felt the magic of touch... how much a touch can make a difference to a situation.

As i was in my mother's room.. she was lying down on her bed.. exhausted from the day's work and from the commotion.. it was not easy for her.. i know.. having to work everyday before the sun wakes up.. and only able to rest when everyone else is about to sleep.. making all the money to tide the family through this difficult time.. she was weeping.. and i lie down beside her as if i'm still small.. cuddling near her.. talking to her.. suddenly i realised how much i've failed to notice.. the wrinkles around her tired eyes.. the aging marks around the neck .. somehow, she looked older from the last time i actually see her.. it was a close up which i hvae not done so for so many many years.. her tears crossed the cheek soaking silently the pillow below.. and i wonder how much of the silent tears has the pillow swallowed .. and for the very first time, i felt compelling and i held her by her arm like a small boy holding on to his mother afraid of getting lost in a crowd.. and i said to her, "Mum, i know.. " (her miseries).. the very moment as my hands laid on her.. her tears flowed profusiously.. i know, God has his hands on me.. and on my mother.. no other words were exchanged.. and i left the room shortly..

then i find myself in my sister's room.. a stubborn gal still .. mad at my mother.. refusing to apologise.. i really dunno wat to say at that moment.. well, i sat beside her.. looking at her.. and i said, "still not apologising?".. (obvious body language followed) .. again.. i laid my hands on my sis.. at that very moment.. she cried.. then it came.. God spoke through me to my sister.. i was not lecturing my sister.. but merely just said wat God wanted me to say.. really.. i was so overwhelmed, that my tears flowed uncontrollably.. at the end of it all... my sis relent and went over to my mum's room and ask for forgiveness..

-the end-

more often than not.. we raised our voices at our parents without knowing that it is not right.. we have always shown disrespect under the impression of "fairness".. (my parents can shout at me, so can i").. think again.. how true is that.. giving our parents the due respect is not just by giving them 50% of our pay.. but ask ourselves how many times have we dismiss their presence by concentrating on whatever we have prioritised over them??.. Internet??.. Telephone call with boyfriend or girlfriend?? ..food ??.. chat? Are we able to give them the full attention when they talk to us?.. look at them straight in the eyes and communicate through the heart ??.. We will be surprise how many parents yield a minute of chat with their children more than anything.. but we, as children.. are we giving them enough.. its not about how much they have given us.. but how much we can give them.. This.. is a challenge.. a challenge even to myself.. and yes.. God will give me strength.. Amen.

p/s: Offer tonight's prayer to our parents.

[ back for good ]

yes, today has been a refreshing day at Red Cross, good to see those young and hippie back into our arms.. hahaha. nah, wat thrill me most is the chance to see lotsa familar faces and working together like a big family again. there's a larger mass of people still mugging for their examinations and therefore was not present today, nonetheless, we pull through today.. hehehe. today's training went on rather smoothly, everyone played their part in every possible way, glad to have these folks to work with.. :)

As the matter of fact, i just came home from my friends Bubble tea shop. chat up for a little.. running after some loose strings.. catching up with one another.. though i'm already dead-beaten.. all the good conversation made everything worthwhile..

I miss my Liz, yes.. and i know she should be reading my post now as she has been anticipating.. hahaha.. so Here I Am.. hahah.. you man is pounding with a splitting headache and gonna rest soon after a short guitar revision.. hehehe.. the neck of my guitar has already given way to its aging process.. visible cracks are drawing longer and longer each day.. its the matter of time that it might just drop me a death note. hehehe.. ok, where am i, aren't i suppose to talk about Liz?.. hehe.. right, dear.. endure and focus.. though it can be better related to shitting.. hehe.. err. anyway, ust working hard, the fruit of tomorrow is the seed you plant today. :) ..

p/s: Have you pray to God today?

[ good friends, good day ]

good friends and good food is the prefect ingredients for a perfect gathering.. yes, spend a night with good friends like, ezee, elaine, law, dan, roy over at ros place yesterday.. lotsa fun and conversation.. really enjoyed myself as i felt released from my daily work.. hahaha..

Miss my Liz dearly though i manage to grab a little time with her this evening.. but time is always short in such occasion, she has to study hard for her exams still.. May God give her the concentration and health she needs to tide her through all these examination stress..

hmm, tomorrow will start early for me, church in the morning.. RC for the rest of the day.. and time is not on my side.. alright.. till then.. chill.

[ reading ]

this will be an early post as i've missed yesterday post and i'm in the process of driving my day through the loads of work. listening to class 95 and missing my dear Liz tremendously as i have been calling her for the past 1 day?!.. hehe. yes, we are a pair sweet and weird couple.. well, the reason for our "discommunciation" is due to her examination focus.. she require time for preparation and best to be left undisturbed.

So in the duration of her temporary absence i'm munching into the buzziness of work, studies and red cross.. in fact, i'm already overwhelmed by the amount of stuffs that i really need to accomplish in such short time.. anyway.. gonna let her know if she is taking this short break from the books.. i miss you Liz !!!

alrite.. enough said.. till then.. chill

p/s: Have you done your morning prayer?

[ Ideas ]

Ideas and lotsa of thoughts are rushing through my already conjested brain wave.. business concept.. selling point.. marketing edge.. argh!.. Do not misunderstood that i'm in tremendous torment.. yes, undeniable stress but positive in everyway..

Now, i feel life in the things i do.. chores at work no longer seems boring.. everyday i have tons of job to do.. and i feel good.. i'm glad to find myself standing on my feet again.. striving towards excellence !.. (i hope).. heheh.. but of course.. i really pray that in the process of my pursuit, somethings will still remain their priorities in my life..

hmm, just some updates about my Liz. hehe. most probably she is studying, either that she is slacking online.. hahaha.. she is the one that is under the tremendous stress as exams will commence in 2 days time?.. May God be with her.. :) .. "JIA YOU !!!"

is it the weather or just me ??.. my room seems to be infested with mosquitoes !

[ Hey Hey! ]

Hey hey! yes.. the man is back. by God's grace, my gloomy days are temporary over. hehe.and today has been a very fulfilling day at work. Answering phone calls and such. never ending work but somehow i seems to find myself indulging in it. i enjoy my work! haha. to alot of people. Monday morning is a blue day of the week, but for me, i like my job, i enjoy it and therefore i find it interesting to come to work even to work longer. hehehe. Thank God that i've made the right choice leaving engineering in Poly. haha. well, at least i did not regret still.

Though i like my job, i do not enjoy my studies. hahaha. well, i think i can hear a lot of corresponding responses.. hahaha. yes, i dun like to study.. but i'm left with no choice right? just hope that i can made it through and clear all my repeat modules by next year April.. till then.. i can only keep on mugging.. and working and mugging .. (you get the idea)

hmm.. I've 'unwrapped' my guitar from its protective cover recently.. trying painfully to pick up whatever i've once remembered... songs like 'Now and Forever' and 'Tears in Heaven'.. i need time to relearn them.. hehe.. picking up a few hymns too .. Liz gave me so many links on that.. haha.. ok dear, when you finish your exams.. (and mine too).. and after buy my new guitar.. i will play for you k?.. hahaha..

alright.. time to go for my studies !!!

p/s: Have you give thanks to God to all the good and bad that happen today?

[ But ]

I felt the urge to post, but i know i have nothing to talk about.. this morning was a busy day in the office. My boss was in, and wat was initally a quick work and get away ended up stretched over lunch hour. well, at least the stuffs are done.

My afternoon was spent in Ros house along with Law, Evelyn and Suhana.. the time was enjoyable.. they are good folks.. but somehow, the knot in my heart was still in a fix. yes, i tried to laugh.. but i was not happy. it was not their fault.. i know. i is me.. something is bothering me.

at times, i really dunno wat to do is the correct solution to things.. i've asked God, and i believe that he will show me the way..

[ Good Morning ]

This morning is not a chippy morning for me, neither is it wonderous.. i dun feel happy.. i'm consumed by disappointment and guilt.. a weird combination.

Nonetheless, I gonna pray that God give show me the way.. *silence*..

this morning after this post, i will be making my way to office, starting my day's work.. after which a series of chores to help Ros in her cooking.. well, it is gonnabe an ordinary day i hope.. nothing extraordinary.. i hope..

Simple is the theme for my day today.. Healing is the silent cry from within.

[ Quiet Moment ]

First of all, let me thank those who have signed my guestbook, thank you very much for the encouragement.

Today there are two incident that i felt compelling to share with everyone. let's start right early in the morning. I woke up as usual at 7am, went through the basic hygenic process.. slotted myself into my working wear, as i was about to leave the house. my dear sis offered to give me a lift to Bugis MRT as she has already booked for a cab the night before.. I was thinking.. ok, why not? So we set off at 8.10am as the cab was suppose to be waiting for us at 8.15am.. We waited.. and waited.. 10 mins pass 8.15am.. (mind you, my sis appointment is at 8.40am and my working hour start at 8.45am) .. we decided to give grace and called comfort. the operator was helpful and checked the status of the cab for us.. return to us an assurance of 1-2mins. OK then, we thought.. wrong!.. time was 8.30am.. still, no sign of our cab no. 6522.. I was really astonished by the term called, Advanced Booking.. shame on them as to call for $5 extra charges.. My sis and i decided to call Comfort (again).. but this time is to give them a piece of our mind and agony.. then we were blessed by an empty cab stopping right in front of us due to the traffic light.. its a sign i assume.. so, we hopped on and arrived at our individual destination.. late.. *sigh*..

Story 2.. hehe.. had lunch with my insurance friend, Mike.. a brief introduction.. he is a successful AIA insurance agent, he ability to personalise every approach makes you feel pampered and comfortable.. i mean, even though he knew that its also impossible to get any deal from me at the moment, he offered to help me to sort out my financial status.. well, of cos i know that it may be a sales technique... but somehow, i felt sincerity.. as the matter of fact, we were the best of friends in those army days.. we used to chat late into the night on our (separate, side-by-side) beds it will be really eb amazing to know that we can continue this relationship beyond attaining vocational benefits.. I certainly hope so.. :)

so, nothing unusual.. just some common daily happenings.. but give praise to the lord for the strength and energy for the day and that we will have the confidence to face tomorrow's challenge.

p/s: Have you pray for someone in need?

[ Mid Week ]

The week has reached its waist and my legs are aching from yesterday's evening jog to Serangoon. it was not a very long distance but it almost take my breath away, which i term it as breathtaking experience!.. hahaha.. you may ask why the sudden urge to do that run. well, excerise is something that i always been wanted to do but due to other committments.. basically round down to studies and work.. time in the evening has since become valuable and scarce for me.

anyway, my purpose to make my way to serangoon is hitting two birdies with one stone. you see, two of my friends, RN & ZQ opened their very own bubble tea shop over in serangoon.. somewhere near the rear exit of NYJC. It has been months since i last saw them and i've always wanted to visit his shop. it took me 10 mins to find myself at the shop.. its spacious compared to the rest of the bubbletea shops around. the shop is a franchise of COCO .. and every drink is selling at $2 only!..

Saw a few of my secondary sch friends too.. that place has become a gathering place for our seconday school's gang. kinda miss those days in secondary school.. 'O' levels dun seems to be that stressful compared to what i have to face now.. hahaha.. anyway, that's life.. we just have to continue our trust in God and believe that we will be able to conquer all obstacles with Him and in Him. we did quite a bit of catching up on each others lives.. brieftly discuss the current economic and dreams.. time really flies when the conversation is good.. it was a short stay but i could really feel fulfilled.. life isn't just about rushing through daily's shits.. in doing so.. we fail to see the beautiful people and surrounding around us...

how many one of us take a pause and notice of how birds sing in the morning ?.. how brilliant the flowers have blossom ? .. how the ants build their nests ? .. how the trees sway by the caressing wind ? how long has it been since the last time you call a friend just to chat up? .. just how many hows are we willing to deny before we realised they are not there anymore ?..

[ Still Breathing ]

Yes I am, I'm still breathing... something we thought that we can actually control .. our life, the breathe of life. little that we know that the very breathe that we take is God's gift.. the every moment we are still alive is already a miracle! .. the privilege of being alive should move us into doing what is right.

last evening met up with lawrence and we had quite a talk over KFC at Plaza Singapura. it was then i noticed that how much, really how much i have neglected the part that i once given myself to their company.. have not meet up with friends for about 2 months or so.. upon reflection.. it occur to me that its not my friends that forget about me.. but it was me so neglected them.. they often ask me out for game of pool or coffee which i'm unable to make it.. and now, most of them are in furious preparation for exams.. even for slacker.. heheh.. the possibility of meeting up has just decrease by another level.

really.. too often a time, we keep ourselves occupied by things that we believe that it more important.. example, 2 hrs over internet over 2 min face-to-face communication with our parents .. 2hr movie over 2 min prayer.. our lives are so distracted that we seems to do so much but so little.

Yes, I will be open to members to this posting arena.. new or old.. as long as you think you are willing to look at life in a total changed perpective.. where love exist for everyone.. just email me.

[ do not be alarm ]

warnings were given so so many times but things were taken for granted.. things are changing ladies and gentlemen.. i'm not trying to be a hardnut to crack.. i did not force a gun to make you register in the first place.. and now, wat i can say to all ex-members.. thank you for your participation ..

yes, i know that even loyal members like Lava is removed.. i'm left with no choice.. this is the only way to renew the relationship with us and vizinity.. if you guys are really interested.. the email link is not far away.. but dun worry.. this kind of big sweeping motion of removing members will only happen once and for all .. in the future (if there is a need).. members will be removed individually..

i'm vision of vizinity was very simple in the beginning.. i'm not aiming for global domination or stuffs like that.. i'm not bothered about how many people visit the site.. i dun give a damn to who think about wat shit i post.. vizinity started of as a personal but public diary.. a place where i can write my feelings about some issues that i think i can share with everyone.. i hope to post with feelings, love, hate, emotions and sentiments in life.. the challenges we face in life and hope we choose to overcome or consumed by them.. this idea spreaded.. and the members grew.. good time where vizinity are always filled with post of truth.. we know that we've somehow drifted away from the vision we've once lived by. .. but today.. things are gonna change.. for the better.. or worse.. this is a be a post of emotions let-out.. a place of sharing.. a place where love exist and embaces everyone who read it.. i certainly hope so..

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nothing significant to make a speech out of this post.. but well, just my normal self.. sitting among the tower of computers.. thinking of what to do next.. not that i'm very free.. as the matter of fact, this morning i've just made a decision to keep myself busy for the rest of my working life..

and so you may ask, then why are you still posting when you should be working?.. hey!.. i need a break alrite.. i've been rushing everywhere .. sending out lot of letters and now, i'm just waiting for responses.. and that's the story why am i here.

hmm. will be leaving singapore tomolo evening.. but will be on the whole day leave.. hehe.. yeah!!!.. hahaha.. gonna be shopping with my mum tomolo afternoon for a new TV.. a temporary solution to an enduring problematic TV.. yes.. now my 29" is a motion picture TV.. and i mean it.. just motion.. no sound.. so this new TV gonna be our life saving grace.. hahaha..

and yes, 15 mins to knock out time.. and boss is not around.. hmm.. gonna leave on the dot.. (since when i'm not?!).. hehe.. ok. till i come back on Sunday.. pray for my safety and ya.. that's about all..

hihihihihihihihihihihihihihih ihihiihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihi hihihihihihihihihihihih!!!!!!!!!
hahaha..I'm going nuts... why? well... PROMOS ENDED TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heehee.. went for buffet lunch... hmm... that lunch... first it burnt a hole in my pocket...then.... it makes me think I've sinned... tsk tsk... all the buffet's fault..terrible thing... but hee.. nice nice nice food.... pizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa okok..I think I better end before i go really really crazy..tatazzzzz.... to everione yet to take their exams............. Good Luck!

well well, have been in a realli disastrous state the past few days.... moi whole sleeping timetable kinda went bonkers and have to use eye lotion to keep moi eyes working...gosh...it realli isnt a good feeling... Thursday marks the day of moi FIRST bomb... it is to set up a Science Learning Centre + write ups and stuffs...... sigh...

Aniwae, had moi BTT today..... kinda tricky but hope i will still make it...something happened during the exam n i was kinda shocked for a second or more but can;t say it out coz dun think its appropriate to 'publicise' it here. Was supposed to meet Miss R for dinner but cldn't...sorri.... will look u up soon.. Went for the 'Brasserie' movie tonite...and it was hilarious n cool.... laughed till moi tummyache coz it was sooooo farnee.... its best if u go watch wif a group of guys n gals... kinda enhance the effect u have on the show.......

gotta go sleep now.... long day or rather long days ahead..... adios!!!

pig> relaz for now...take a step at a time..there's nothing much you can do now.... if u need...me here yeah!!!! ??? ?!!!!

[ busy day ]

yes, i'm busy, but irony i'm posting.. yes, cos some things cannot be rush.. right? well, things just have to happen at certain time in order to prove its importance.. ok, wat am i saying? hmm.. i have no idea.. i've been so tied up with everything else that i noticed that i'm beginning to rot away from friends.. yes.. have not meet up with folks like Dan and gang.. though knowing that most of them are actually tied up with exams and stuffs.. may i wish them luck !!! and i know you guys read my post.. hehehe..

yes.. and something else.. i will be away from singapore to hold peace campaign in malaysia... hehehe.. nah!.. i will be away from singapore.. heading for a retreat in malaysia.. depending on my location, which i do not know yet!?.. i may just grap some makan stuffs for you guys.. BUT.. please do not call/fax/email/sms your orders to me.. i'm not your dear pizza boy.. haha.. and for those hardcore smokers like occy.. i make sure i wear a director jacket.. haha.. no promises k?.. haha..

in my absence starting friday... may god bless all of you and.. continue the posting spirit in vizinity.. the broom will sweep soon.. i mean it this time!.. for the time being.. i shall get busy.. chill.

hihi....oink...hehee...finally found my way back from the vast desert...ocean....jungle...mountains...how's everyone?? Hope u all doing fine....me still leading a very stressed and busy life...stressed coz still have lotsa things to do, be it academic or enrichment...sometimes quite regretted with some of the decisions that i made..but since i made them i gotta carry on right...urghh.....then getting back my promos results..this week and next week...quite disappointed with my results even though i studied very hard...why..i sometimes ask myself...chinese idioms tok abt only with hard work.. will u get results... "No pay, no gain". But how hard i worked..i still can't see the results....urgh...always asking myself wat has happened to me...dun seem to be myself anymore..someone out there pls help me...and to my spirit: Pls come back......
*haaaaa*...take care all

[ sunday ]

the week is drawing near as i sitting down here.. worrying about my assignments.. hmm.. today.. *sigh*.. today can be rated as one of my most unlucky day ever since the last time i was unlucky.. (?!?!)

ya.. can't imagine that i had actually missed 3 bus stops on three separate occasion with stupid reasons like.. overslept.. took the wrong bus.. damn!.. due to my carelessness.. i came back home twice just to get something that i've forgotten to bring .. and lot of other things.. the mischievous unluckyness just pisses me off..

anyway, today was scrambling over the keyboard.. typing and draining my brain juice till the last drop for the C assignment.. but still. it can't be finished.. hahaa.. at least i have my Liz working hard beside me too.. hehehe.. will have to strive tomorrow ..and the day after.. .and so on ..

there you go.. tomorrow will be a better day.. i really hope.. anyway.. wat can be worse right ?

and yes, i must really express my greatest gratitude to Lava for lending more than just his helping hands.. but sacrificed his sleep and time for guiding me through the shit of C coding.. thanks man!.. words can't express all of it.. :).. but really.. thanx.. :)

[ always ]

i'm sitting down here knowing that i have not been posting regularly.. due to the fat that i was tied up with work.. and i mean lotsa work.. besides my daily office problems.. i have my studies to worry about.. not that i'm complaining but things are difficult but i know none other but myself will have to walk through all these..

i dunno is it stress or what.. but i seems to be very absent mind these days.. i cant even remember things that had happen the day before.. like what i ate.. what i've said.. really.. i'm slightly depressed by this especially when Liz always complaining that i'm not sensitive to her.. hehe. well.. not that i planned or designed it as such.. but probably i really can't remember that well.. or i'm distracted by other stuffs.. but i'm trying hard nonetheless.. :)

sometimes when we start to forget things or when history just dun register themselves in our hard drive.. it may be a good thing too.. well.. wat i meant was for us to practice selective memory.. remembering the good.. and casted the bad.. somethings by leaving those memories that prick our emotions.. we live our lives happier.. maybe less wise.. but happy .. i dunno.. hehe.. i'm still holding on to not so good memories as a cane mark ... discipline myself through remembering them..

lastly, my dear Liz is currently under lotsa stress due to the perverted academic ladder.. and is falling sick.. and may her be strong and recover completely.. :)

no one has tell me how to avoid someone who had sudden grown fond of me ... no one

I am being in a lost ... lost

I just have to say sorry when it happen ... sorry

hm..in the midst of typing moi project and listening to 'Go West' by Pet Shop Boys (luv this song)now...today was kinda a terrible day...overslept but still managed to reach school in time :Þ Kena suaned the whole of today coz moi hair was in a mess and moi eyes were puffy...and they cld see moi eye bags like from far as i was walking towards the canteen?? haha....everyone that walked passed me just said i cldn;t make it but i thought it was quite a cool look...haha. Watever.....

Aniwae, today was a good day for me coz there was finalli this day where i didn't have to stay back in school for once to do project...due to various reasons, the meeting was called off. And being excited, i rushed home for a nice warm dinner with moi family which i din do so for ages and to see moi daddy whom i haven met coz of time factor and discuss how the submarine was coming along...the submarine was a success n the food tasted exceptionally great today but y this happiness can't last??!!?? It wasn't before long when something happened and moi mood was dampened immediately... ... I m so afraid history might just repeat itself again...signs n symptoms seem to be arising....sigh.... i hope not at this point where i have projects, examz n etc to worry abt...This bomb better not explode or that's the end of me too...
Shucks.......

Btw, i wld like to thank moi daddy for helping me with submarine...he had such a cute look n smile when i told him that it was a success....back to moi project....

Nevertheless, i shall continue with moi project...take care my friends...

*taking in deep breadth* ok.....sorri viz for not being able to post often.... i wld like to post as much as i can but u noe.... hehe...Aniwae, wat to do??? The bombings are going to last till 29th oct...n since last week i have been sleeping ard 3 - moz 4 hrsof sleep onli...and finalli moi eyes started hurting tonite and had to use lotsa eye-mo...n it will prob last till mth end....sigh.... going out to play and enjoy is also a chore to me now but i want!!! Coz i can't be doing projects after sch and continue doing when i reach home...i shld relzx rite??!!?? Even moi poor daddy has to help me by building a submarine... wonder how m i going to do life size tables too using cardboxes??? we'll see....

Yesterday was mid autumn festival n children's day. But there was no hols for me tough i m working i a field related to it.... went to play lanterns at a friends's house...it was kinda fun for the first few minutes and the place was nice. But spoiler... it rained. We had no choice but to proceed to the car park and we just played there...using candles to form words, friendship dance and etc.... kinda fun as compared to school work.......

Counting down to a mth......

looks like I haven't been here for quite a while ... must be the project ... and I really hope Viz will not mind ... anyway he's a nice chap ... who take it at his own stride ... had just post a post over at my website, so decided to drop one here ... before Viz declared me M.I.A ...

how I wish I have a lantern to play ... but I have mooncake to keep me accompany while watching movies ... but imagine with a lantern in your room, lights off, TV on ... and eat your mooncake while enjoying the beautiful moonview ... isn't that wonderful? it will be a complete story if you are with your love one doing that ...

having said that, I am again become a lost soul ... who have decided to wander around again ... sighz ...

honestly, I don't really know what I have been doing these days ...

HaPppY ChiLdReN'S DaY!!!!!!!!heheheh... how i wish i'm still a kid so that i wun have to worry over so many things... well, this is a boring day for me as my day was spent in school studying, rushing project... etc..
And now, i even have to rush for my port folio and mug during the Mid-Autumn Festival.. haiz.. so sad... life isn't that good after all when you begin to grow up.Anyway,
have fun eating the mooncakes and HapPPy MiD-AuTuMn FeStIvAL!!!

[ Train ]

yesterday was an eniching day.. the morning mass in church set me reflecting deeply on the way i conduct my life.. its not very pleasing to hear those gospel targeting the way of life that you assumed that it was "OK"... but somehow.. decisions need to be made in time to come.. in which what is more important in life .. our needs and our wants..

following church service was swim.. got myself a lobster tan.. heh.. and stretched my dusty bones.. and the rest fo the afternoon was contributed to the books.. which i also discovered how much i was actually behind time.. assignments are due within a week and nothing is drafted.. damn!.. but well.. at least.. i tried my best throughtout the afternoon .. with my dear Liz mugging with me too.. hehehe..

as i was on my way back home early in the evening.. i happened to overheard a conversation between a mother and her young son (10-12 years old).. i was along the north-south line towards AMK direction.. the train was heading towards Kranji .. which our turf club proudly located.. the mother and son was arguing which direction will the turf club appear .. and so.. each of them took a direction ..and pinky a bet that was if the son wins.. she will buy her a playstation.. otherwise.. the son will have to study hard.. the kid of of cos thrilled and excited over the bet..

As i knew the answer and know that the mother will most probably lose.. i waited in eagerness.. to see the continuation of the saga.. it was almost like an interesting movie.. heheh.. and as predicted.. the mother lost the bet.. and the son was excited .. well.. guess what ? the mother respond was without question.. "No lar. dun want playstation lah.. " .. and the son said with a sense of saddness, "everytime like tat one lah.. " .. *silence*

it really left me wondering.. do we really want to raise our child with lies ??.. the young and innocent do not know about the complication of adulthood, all they know is that it was a fair bet.. they won.. but the parents lied. we live in hope that our children will row up as a respectable adult of good qualities.. but on the other hand.. we are the ones that teach them how to lie and probably get away with it..

if we are not prepared to compromise anything.. then do not promise anything to the young.. they learn and they learn fast.. one day they might just use it on they friends.. and when they find out the convenience of lying.. the sense of responsiblity is lost..

you may say that i'm paranoid over peanuts.. but the root of all evil is not only money.. but lie.. its the simplest yet the deadliest of all.. worse.. it infects any age group. and remember.. "you need a lie to cover another lie."