[ blood test ]

This morning was wet and cold.. and lucky me that i'm officially granted a longer sleep then usual.. heheh.. SAF called me back for a HIV test.. and so.. i'm sort of take my time.. reaching the medical centre around 9.30pm.. they took my blood.. and took a scroll to the bus stop which then i boarded the bus that brought me to yishun interchange.. a long trip from the MRT to tanjong pagar.. and i entertained myself by reading computer magazine.. something i cannot live without due to vocation requirements.. hehehe..

and now.. i'm still taped with the plaster though there was little to no blood loss...

rite.. no liao..

*ScRaTcH sCrAtCh* oh no!! think they are not jus mossie bites.. they just kept increasing and even my toes are itching now...duh!!!!!!! just wat happened??

hmm....being a family of this posting arena, no doubt that i m going through rough patches in moi life also.....having terrible mood swings....i kinda know what is missing in moi life but it doesn't come as and when u want it....sigh....tears had wanted to flow but it just can't.....grrr......aniwae.... i THOUGHT that i have finished moi common tests onli to find out just that i have one more paper to go on mon and damn...it is financial management..... suppose to turn up for a course this sun...lets hope i can make it....sigh... now i m feeling so exhausted...shall go zzzzz......

time for food confession... izzit stress or what. whatever edible in front of me disappears into my digestive system within seconds. what have i 'devoured' just for breakfast alone. erm, 2 slices of strawberry jam bread, 1 slice of peanut butter bread, 1 thin slice of sara lee all purpose pound cake and just seconds ago, i pop a kaya bun into my itchy mouth. isn't that a awesome lot of food. i have not finish yet! there are two donuts on my dinning table esp for me. but all these are just too much for me to even maintain my piggy's weight. i wanna lose weight! but but but... excuses just stop me. oh damn.

*scratch scratch scratch* yaaaa.. i'm damn itchy man!!! There are about 18 mossie bites just on my knee cap alone. argggghh..... it's damn itchy!!! grrr.. damn all mossies!!!!

looks like some of the members here are hitting some rough patch or low point..... everyone will encounter this at certain parts of their life..... the most impt thing is get over it soon & continue your life...... take care people....

[ rock bottom and.. ]

yes, like my previous post.. i've hit the bottom.. and the only way is up now.. everything is starting to fall back forming in hope a beautiful picture..

my dear Liz is stressed out by the tests.. dun worry folks.. she is doing just fine now.. :)

as for me.. that are thousand and one things on my schedule.. waiting for me to accomplish each and every one of them.. argh..

life goes on.. up or down.. it goes on..

ohh.. liz....be happy~! hope u will get will soon and best of luck for ur exams!!! Though it's hard for u.. but it will be over soon..

[ gloomy ]

was it the heat wave last nite or was it my undying brain activity that kept me up for the whole nite? i dunno.. i dunno.. al i can say is that i dunno... i dunno wat is wrong, wat is right, who is wrong or who is wrong... is that there really a need to find out.. i dunno..

i'm now trapped in yet my lowest point in life.. a situation which i'm highly incapable of handling.. out of my hands.. my control.. things may never be the same anymore.. the sun may never shine on me.. nor the moon will ever listen to my woes..

think shit just happens.. big or small.. it happens.. and it will only be the element time that will rope me out of it.. but forever with a stinky stench surrounding me.. with that.. sign off..

call me paranoid, i suspected that i have brain tumour. the trobbing headache ceases to heal no matter how much i tried to rest in bed. it has been distracting me for 3 days. this is one of the worst headaches i haf. not only for the knocking on the head pain but the prolonged illness. call it worst on this third day, i'm having a dripping nose. every 'noise' that comes out from me is a ' ah choo'. i'm feeling feverish and sore throaty too.gosh, and i'm having a test for my worst module, audit. how am i suppose to concentrate and study. god bless me and grant me your strength and love to study. *sobz*

7th Month

not to worry, this post has nothing to do with the topice. just feel like typing that for the topic for this post. now ... today is saturday ... and seeing my post at this hour of the day is a miracle ... shall not elaborate further. I just don't know what I am feeling right now at this very moment. what word should I use to describe it? I am just lost ... I just don't know about myself anymore ...

just feel like shutting my eyes to the surrounding for a while ... trying to feel for something which I can't see ... I should have stayed at the cavageh bridge (near Victoria Concert Hall) or Singapore River for a while to enjoy the scenary and the breeze ... I was there for a while to listen to the jazz music by the bridge ... so ... I am trying to figure out what's bothering me ... I am running out of time already ... just a final note for here ...

tonight no topic ... dont ask ... just no topic and that's a full stop for that. Well this morning was terrible ... imagine waking up damn early to meet a group of useless people at WTC to recee Sentosa for some big event on sunday - Singapore Sport's Carnival ... it's okie with that ... but the waiting for this and that makes me even irriated ... esp with the hot blazing sun ... damn them ... screw them. upside down hopefully ... anyway that's me ... I hate to let my time go to waste for nothing ... all those waiting I could easily coded 2 pages of my projects ... damn them again. Anyway caught some pretty girls at the siloso beach suntanning and swimming ... babes ... just terrific ... okok ... can see some of you are drooling ...

came back after a long chit chat session with some friends ... talking about current issues and stuffs ... updating each other ... hehe ... came home to get some stuffs done before engaging about another of an hour chit chat session with ning ... who is complaining and praising her bf ... girls ... sometime I just don't understand. Complaining to me how bad her bf is when she needs someone to be with her .. and another time praising his bf for being nice and sweet ... sighz *shake head* ... hehehe ... so today is like being her love consultant ... it makes me think back of my previous one about 3 years back ... sad but sweet memory ... relationship of about nearly 3 years ... I think if not of some up down ... probably we will be still together ... anyway ... it's over ... I have grown out of that sadness ...

okie ... supposingly to wake up early later at about 5 ... and damn it ... I am still here. Well, trying to get this constructive post done before catching my winks ... okie I am done with it. happy?

hm.....tgif!!! But it sure makes no difference since its study week and i m suppose to study.But dun seem to have the mood coz its so hot... Sigh...feeling sad these 2 days coz my beloved Nui Nui's leg is bandaged, can't walk and is sick... suddenly i have this fear that she will leave me :< and i dun want!!! Realli wish her a speedy recovery. Tonite's progamme seems pack coz will be going for this porridge buffet dinner??? sounds farnee but i shall go check it out and keep u all updated...ciaoz!

[ sick man ]

not that i met something disgusting my i'm just sick.. not sick as in sicko.. but sick as in sick.. ok, i dunno if i can still make any cow sense out of this post.. but well.. running a fever can be a excuse for senselessness right ?.. anyway, since when my post are of intellect calibre... ya..

in life, when you woke up on the wrong side of the bed and the day seems to be a one way ticket hitting rock bottom.. running fever is just the only element of my plight.. foul mood embaced me like ham in sandwich.. i'm upset, hurt, exhuasted, hopeful, living, beaten.. and wat not?.. all in one like a big washing machine.. stirring my wobbling head and mind.. suppressing all possible light of happiness....

tomolo is another long day .. dragging on my misery.. bagged with troubles and compassion.. i'm ready to meet the yet bottom.. dun wish me luck.. dun ask.. just keep away..

i told u i'm senseless.. so why are you reading till now ??..

[I am on my way ...]

good news for me, just managed to get that stupid ASP and SQL working minutes ago. So which mean to say, the rest of the coding will be much simpler. *phew* ... what a day it has done for me ... if you are smart enough, you should guess that I am still in school ...

occy, it is a pity that your air condition is not working that well, whereas mine is doing good for my room. Enjoying the comfort of cool breeze blowing at you and confortly hugging my new precious quilt blanket ... so how? you can choose to bunk in with me for a night or 2 ... ok cut it ... I know you must be feeling piss ... hah ...

OKIE, enough of crap ... should be on my way home now ... tired and exhausted ...

[ I know ]

yea, i know i have to post.. hehehe. glad to see that vizinity is growing well.. members are posting.. (i give up).. hehehe.. my recent disappearance is very much due to the fact that i'm busy (wat else rite?) ..

heheh.. alrite.. there you go.. i'll be back..

[The power of waking up at 12 am ...]

yes your eyes is not playing a trick on you on my topic. 12 am instead of 12 pm ... slept thru the night and here I am here posting ... was too tired to do anything and I just doze off on my comfortable bed with my new quilt blanket after reading the papers ...

have been forcing myself to do the scripting part of ASP and my head is almost spinning ... just can't seem to get it working with my SQL server ... okok ... I ought to be shot here for talking about this nonsense here ... esp for those who know nuts about what I am talking ... but still ... hai ...

time is moving real fast ... was talking about 3rd day of the week and now it is the 4th ... oh my. weekend is approaching and hope to catch up with friends ... I better proceed to my "dinner" ... or you call it supper before my mum nag at me ...

Spiritual choices

Choices. Choices make the difference. 2 people are in the same accident and severely wounded. They did not choose to be in the accident. It happened to them. But one of them chose to live the experience in bitterness, the other in gratitude. These choices radically influence their lives and the lives of their families and friends. We have very little control over what happens in our lives, but we have a lot of control over how we integrate and remember what happens. It is precisely these spiritual choices that determine whether we live our lives with dignity.

way to go cdino, never gets regretted over your last move. take it at your own stride. and you will get what you wanted ...

moving on to the 3rd day of the week, it is just too fast ... too fast that I have lost count of how many breaths i have taken in ... will be off for a short camp soon to de-stress myself ... on some island near singapore ... not Sentosa for goodness sake (if that's what you are thinking) ...

I can turn back the hour of the clock, but I can't turn back the reality ... how I wish I am given 48 hrs a day ... *looking back* ... slept for only less than almost 6 to 7 hrs just to spend more time on my work ... sometime I wonder ... though it claims that working hard is for my future ... yet my future still lies misty as usual ... enough of complains of life and I shall get on to my work ...

wah... how long was it since I last posted??? erm.. not a mth yet right?? I hope... heehee.. sorry Viz... heehee... yupz yupz.. it's been a bz week... well first half of the week at least... rushing tutorials... studying for tests... the norm lah... guess that's what a usual student has to go thru... right?? and they keep on telling us to de-stress... relax... don't be so tensed up... all b*** s***... bleah... the same pple that say these stuff give us the huge pile of tutorials and the endless tests... don't know what's wrong with them.. okok.. I shan't grumble anymore... ladida.... hee.. signed up for a bio competition today.. so I guess that's the end of my nov/dec hols... did I make a wrong decision??? hmm.. since I wanted it for the experience.. guess I'll not regret my decision.......enuff crap 'bout me...so.. how's everione??? some people here gonna have exams soon right?? here's wishing all of you... ALL THE VERY VERY BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a sudden craving for oreos now. hehe, oero better take care ok, good luck! anyway, its my second time connecting to the internet. waiting for an important email to come but he doesn't seem to remember to send it. urgh. ok, back to revision or sleep or eat. this is how bored studying can be. *go look for food now*

busy busy busy... i'm too busy to even breathe this week. Datelines for assigments, portfolios, and tests are all due this week. Oh no... but nvm, i will be able to enjoy a little next week cos it's holiday! Today was quite happening for me.. ehz.. or shld i say, today is the most interesting day eversince sch starts. Well, early in the morning, i found "Honey" on my jeans.. oh no!!! It's super sticky and i had a hard time getting it out. hahaha.. all thanx to my frens.. and from there, it shows who r the true frens... the next incident was when i'm going for my tutorial. 2 guys was fooling around with another guys and guess what??They were pulling down his pants in the middle of the foyer... hahahhahahha.. the whole incident was sooo funny man... and the poor malay guy was left wif only his shirt and boxers.. haha.. oh no.. tat was very embarrassing.. and we had a great time luffing!!! hahahha.a.. the final incident was in the bus .The pole in which i'm holding, came lose and fall off the holder.... hahahhaha.. oh no oh no.. it's soo embarrassing man.. ahhaha.. i better finish up my portfolio and practise on my oral for tomorrow. Wish me luck, pple! Hopefully i won't be tongue tied tomorrow... =)

[ back ]

yes, i'm back ! welling in my chair.. trying to motivate myself (miserably) to start work. the trip was indeed fun-pack, but of cos, the best part was that all expenses are paid for..

Star Cruise Virgo was the ship that house my 3D 2N stay.. awesomely seer in size and every corner spell the word, posh. the cornice run by gold colored lining marrying with polished dark wood, think and brillantly colored carpet concealed the shy naked floor from corner to corner.. to the cabins.. amazing clean and tidy like those in 5 star hotels.. equipped with TV, phone, adjustable airconditioning, attached toilet, safe, cabinet.. an accomondation for 4 fellas.. but well, the company was generous enuff to house 2 of us in one cabin.. it was pure luxury..

first meal on the ship was a japanese food.. authentic japanese menu, and even the waitresses wore japan traditional clothes which i dunno what they call... anyway.. the food was delicious and the amount was just right.. :) .. the rest of the night was karaoke, casino and disco.. 3.30 am.. lights out.

day two breakfast was chinese cruisine.. porridge with small dishes like, char siew bao, shui jiao, you tiao, dark sauced bitter gourd..and a few other dishes.. but of cos, its within the package.. hence, free !.. haha.. went for a walk on the deck.. pass the swimming pool and jazuzzi.. played basketball ..and eventually found myself pumping iron in the gym.. and the feeling working out facing the sea is absolutely breathtaking.. hahaha.. and so.. the rest of the day was games.. company gathering.. food.. karaoke.. disco.. and the gang of us stick to my cabin till 5.30am playing pub games... 5.45am.. knock out!.. .

day three was much simpler.. breakfast western style.. and joining the crowd and depart the ship by 11.00am.. exhausted and all... a benefical trip which allow me and my collegue to get to know each other more.. no sex.. but pure fun.

ok.. think i should get a moment or two .. .ZzzZz.z..

[Look here ...]

slacker on the other side has started to warn his members about irregular posting ... but hey ... don't be dispair if you are one of them ... *LOOK HERE* ... we welcome you people with our open arms ... hahaha ... a bit sound like poaching ... but ... who cares ...

now ... that's been a very quiet weekend ... just don't have the energy to post ... tired and very tired! today had to drag myself up from my comfortable bed with my new quilt blanket ... okie ... now in sch ... project discussion supposingly to start at 10 ... and now it is still not yet started ... all thanks to our ever-late coming group leader ... damn him ...

anyway ... shall continue with my surfing of net ...

["Long" lost friend ...]

haha ... not exactly that very long ... maybe about half a year or something. manage to met up with her on the net, trying to catch up with one another. we still tease other by calling each other nickname ... she call me bb and I call her xyz ... hehe ... not gonna elaborate what does the letters stand for ... she still busy as what she is suppose to ... with major papers coming up ... all the best to you :)

as usual ... this is not gonna be long as I am not feeling that awake. gonna doze off in any moment ... until probably when my brain juice stopped flowing ... so when the post suddenly come to a pause ... you know why ...

had a long day outside ... out for more than 12 hrs ... well ... 16 hrs to be exact ... that's tiring ... okok ... I better sign this post gracefully rather than seeing a string of same letters... (that's my finger on one of the keys probably just in case) ...

[ on sea ]

in the matter of hours, i will be away for the next few days, embacing myself on a cruise to nowhere.. it is generously sponsored by my company.. and i dun even have to pay a dime for it.. hehe.. rite.. i will be leaving behind more than just my work.. i gonna miss my dear Liz.. who is very much in the state of stress, attributed to her commmon tests preparation and tutorials.. hope that with my absence, she will be able to concentrate better..

hmm.. so for those guys out there.. keep this posting arena alive !! bye and chill !

[I am feeling sad too ..]

I am not sad in the first place, just that I am feeling sad to see ning feeling so upset. Some problems that is bugging her I guess. Just gave her a call when she din replied my SMS (cos I promised to call her tonight, SMS to check whether she is available to talk), but she sound really very bad. Well she's busy and will return my call in a while. So I shall make this a short one before she calls.

Nothing much to update you guys. Life still the same, no spice at all. Wait!! gonna wish this happy couple - occy and rraine a happy 1 year and 10 mth anniversary. okok ... better leave here ... from my computer to my nearest phone is about "10 seconds" run ... haha ...

[ speechless ]

you know wat? life has been rather bumpy these days.. not that i'm feel down.. but people around me are depressed.. it hurts to see people you care for in a state of self-destruction. life wasnt a bed of roses from the start we were born.. that's maybe why we cry when we were born.. anyway.. in the nutshell of my limited experience.. i experienced life as in living through everyday with hope and love.. just wat is hope and love??.. hope is the power of believe.. the privilege of believing that any obstacle can be conquered and every sadness can be washed away.. as such, maybe that's why i'm generally a happy man.. now, wat is love ? days will seems to be lighter and more joyful if we keep in our minds the people whom we love.. our partners, family.. friends.. there is no need to doubt the existence of love even though shit happens around you.. its like a light.. in the mist of our misery.. it touches us life a warm helping hand.. delivering us the hope in hoping for the better.. pulling us bit by bit to the end of that misery.. but in real life.. shit doesnt just happens once.. it happens everyday.. it the continual faith of believing in hope and love that will bring you out of it though not prevent it.. misery do not pass us by if you are going to bathe ourselves in it even more.. emotions can be controlled and that, most of the time.. lack of determination to control it is the worst enemy.. stand, wash your face and turn the table around.. life dun just stop or pass away just because we dun intend to face it.. believe in hope and love.. no one can save you unless you allow them to.. open up and get well !

fuck i'm speechless

[dreadful morning ...]

lesson supposingly to start at 11, I knew that ... but I just don't understand why I will be 15 mins late when I woke up at 9? Probably is because of the past 2 days when I am suppose to reach sch by 12, that's why got the momentum ... damn it ... anyway the lecturer was nice ... she never say anything ... just did the practical right for her and she smile at me ... haha ... going for lunch now ... bye

[It has been a quiet week ...]

2nd day of the new week, and it seems that this arena is rather empty. firstly I guess that everyone here is busy with their committement, not mentioning me ... who is on the toe watching out for my project leader ... who is breathing down our neck ... nah ... not really that ... just trying to exaggerate a bit here ... <|> trying to do my part here as the posting member ... so what is the rest waiting for? I can see the emptiness feeling of our readers when they comes in here and find that there is no new posts ... that's pretty sad ...

right ... 7th weeks into my new year in school ... kind of fast ... scary not to mention ... with project on our mind all day long ... sighz ... what a way to sail thru this year ... <|> a big full stop for this part on my school ... nothing much about it except sick of it ...

Eve had been on my mind all day long ... missing her ... but I just can't do much. Hope she is doing fine, probably give her a call tonight? I guess I have not put in effort at all ... but what can I do? OKIE ... I am running out of things to write here ... sO?

[ why ]
the mass of you human living cells must be wondering wtf am i doing decent at this hour?? .. yea.. beats me too.. heheh.. i'm looking at a 15" LCD screen for the past 2 hours.. filling its harddisk with all the basic nutrients so as to deliver them later this morning..

my bones are cracking on me.. and somehow.. i'm still holding on..

my Liz is peaceful asleep now..

rite.. back to the screen..

*yawn* .... feeling tired..... but shall post before i sleep .... hm, these 2 days i met up with some of moi old times good friends (hehe), was realli happie to see them again. It sure has been a long long time... and some people that i met up with kinda changed. For example, there was this bo1 si1 mao1 who kept squabbling with me and this had never happened to us before. Hahaha, hope moi pinch din leave a mark behind, hehe. :Þ
Sigh, time seems to be running even faster with me now, got a deadline to meet on tues and thurs.... arghhhhh....... its been almoz a mth half since school reopened and i still seem to be lagging behind alot of stuffs and with common tests coming up.....suddenly feel that 24 hours dun seem to be enough. Feel like an ant running in a hot wok.... till i post againz.
P/S: miss u liz.

this slackerz is always like that ... just make do with a short sentence ... and always goes "sian sian ... and very the sian ..." ... hahaha ... put in more time in posting can?

today no topic to describe the post ... anyway my previous topics doesn't even describe the post ... so wtf? anyway ... just got back home from a tiring meeting and "work" ... thanks to my friend to drop me home as we are on the same route ... along the way ... I was smsing ning who suddenly got bored ... well ... she initiate the SMS chat ... telling me how she never eat for 3 days ... oh my god ... ning, please don't do that ... that is bad okie? anyway doubt she is reading this ...

I don't know how to describe my feelings now. there seem to be an immerse depth of muddy water around me ... stopping me from realising and discovering the truth. that's it, I am just fed up with life. though we always told to find out ourselves and we will learn better frm it, but hey ... what if we can't? just a question for thoughts ...

I should be hitting the bed pretty soon as I need to work tomorrow morning. ning just msg me saying that she is tired and will msg me tomorrow ... so I just replied with a goodnight and a take care ... that's sound so ... nah ... forget it ... off with this first ...

Very Sianz........ Very Sianz....... Very Sianz......... :(

[Oh listen to the rythm of the falling rain ...]

saturday morning ... already a lazy day and it is raining lightly. it makes you even more lazy ... don't you agree? you must be thinking that I am cranko up there where I can continue to sleep then come online here to post ... well ... true in a way ... but I guess I have slept enough. doze off at about 9 plus last night and sleep till near 9 this morning ...

somehow I just lost touch of the magical "pen" on what to post here ... not that I am feeling down ... but in fact ... I am feeling good. heh ... someone just told me that my posts were rather down and sad ... is that so?

let's see the highlights for today in my organiser ... hmmm ... nothing much except for a meeting in the evening and a job in the afternoon ... maybe I can see whether I can meet up with ning in town ... probably she is already ... since she is so hyper and "crazy" ... not that crazy in the sense that any policeman will catch you and throw you in the mental institution ... just that she is excited and will be jumpy ... heh ...

alright ... enough of that ... shall hit my websites now ...

[ finally ]

finally, after such a long time of hibernation.. the arse has opened up for exhibition again.. hahaha. .welcome back moron to the posting family vizinity.. hehehe.. and thanx for your nearing disappearance.. haha.. may luck be on your side for the common tests.. :)

i'm rdiing on a happy vibe today.. haha.. dunno why.. just feel like smiling.. and yes.. almost nothing foul my mood.. ask something from me and it shall be granted.. hahah.

hmm.. beside moron and liz made their sneak appearance.. the rest of the members seems to be drown or got their legs struck in a toilet bowl some where.. (dun squat the next time).. hehe..

alrite.. its a warm nite.. and i gonna blast the aircon till i fall asleep.. chill dudes !

well well... look who's here after disappearing for such a long time!!!!!! it's me the MORON!!!!!!!!!! hah hah hah!!! i shall be the idiotic moron who'll mess up all your lives cause the only thing i'm good at is messing up my life. so by messing up my life, i'll mess up the lives of other people... that includes YOU ALL!!! can't believe i actually forgot how to post. been thinking for the past few weeks until a kind soul reminded me how to... heh heh gez you noe who you are....gee thanx man!!! well just wanna post so that you all noe tt the moron is still alive and still a pain in the arse!!! haha..well well.... before you noe it the moron will disappear again cause common test is juz round the corner and i haven started a single thingy... hmmm juz not as hardworking as the lizard tt's all.... k la juz bear in mind.... I'LL BE BACK....

i'm not used to wish one happy birthday early nor punctual, here i am, happy belated birthday, singapore!.

hehe... have started my revision for common test which is coming in a few weeks time. always remember what my brother always tell me, "before you know it, it's here" so started the tedious and dull studying. again. i hate audit. it's hell damn lots of memory and application work. does complaining solve the problem? nah, get down to work now.
tataz.

[ yes, be forgetten ]

yes, vizinity welcomes the anonymous member.. to whom has not master the art of having a nick.. hehehe.. yes, "member".. please add in your nick in your profile .. you can click "Team" when you are at blogger, vizinity post.. hen on the top right hand corner.. you will see a evil looking buton staring at you.. naming "edit profile".. click on that.. and the rest will be sailing smooth for those IQ above average.. heheh..

right.. you guys may wonder why a post so early in the morning.. ya. not that i'm patriotic or something.. (Happy 36th Birthday Singapore).. *waving a small miserable looking singapore flag* .. but it jsut time for me to get to bed.. and after noticing that my post has not been rather constant.. i decided to sneak in for a while.. and wala !.. here i go again.. !

halo everyone...hehe...some of u may noe me but some may not...whatever it is pls keep it to urself...well...hmmm....haha..wat can i say...well..tomorrow is NATIONAL DAY...hehe....juz to wish our nation a very Happy 36th birthdae and may it stay prosperous forever....haha....people who are studying...pls study hard...exams cuming soon...esp for all my friends who are taking their 'o' and 'n' levels this year....gd luck to all of u...smilezzzzz...

[just had a strong urge to post ...]

just got back home in one piece from a movie with vogue ... it has been ages since she got me out or the other way round. had a wonderful dinner at a jap noodle restaurant ... the ambience is simple and the food wasn't that bad ... probably because of lack of the usual service charge and cess on the bill ... that made the food less tasty ... attractive? but I must say that it is a simple for 2 who haven't catch up with each other ... had a Beef Teriyaki Rahmen and a Blue Hawaii float ...

wait, I left out the movie that we watched - "Save the last dance" ... a very simple and standard type of movie where you will roughly know the storyline just by looking at the title ... those who watched "Billy Elliot" ... might find it a bit similar ...

seem that life had been very simple today? keep using that word to describe the events for today ... hmm ... I mean yesterday ... hehe ... it had already past midnight ... right ... probably will be flipping thru the newpaper in a while ... while I get this post done ... you might be thinking that this is a way of trying to end the post .. you are right then

What a boring day.... as usual, my monday is often yucky... with only one practical in the day. The rest are tutorials and lectures... Which are plain sian.. *yawnz* boring boring.. i'm bored to dealth!!! alrite, juz finished a short tok wif my fren.. oh duh!!! heard that 2nd year is the most stressful year, with lotsa projects.. etc... ehhh.. think tat's all for today! Gonna check on my neopets now. Take care, frens!!!

[I was distracted from posting ...]

look like the online games has done it again. In fact, I was about to post yesterday when suddenly my friends ask me to join in their game of bridge and hearts. That made forgotten to come here and post. Though I have already log in to blogger, but I got distracted ... haha ...

I just had a lazy weekend, no direction in life over the weekend. Just simply follow the motion and wait for things to happen. Managed to meet up with ning a while. She is as hyper as before when I saw her over the weekend. A very active girl who jumps about when she is excited ... hahaha

Right ... got myself 2 new games too ... Cossacks and Sudden Strike ... it is going to keep me occupied while I am aimlessly floating around the house ... time check ... better put on my backpack and head for school ... or I will be screw by my leader ...

[ guess ]

it might take more than just luck for you to make a guess on where am i now.. hehe.. cmon.. go ahead, winners shall stand to win 1 million dollars proundly sponsor by ali baba and the 40 theives.. hahaha..

alrite.. that's not funny.. anyway, i'm in office.. up.. on this partly cludy and rainy sunday. i'm at where most people dun.. working back in the office.. hehe.. the central aircon is away from holiday and i'm stuffed in my cubicle facing this monitor, managing other computers.. tons of work to be done.. alrite.. back to work.. :)

heylo..... today is the 4th.....kinda have a super simple and last celebration for moi b.day ??? Of course it wasn't like consecutive days :> Realli would like to thank u all for all the b.day wishes and little celebrations that you all have prepared.... realli touched coz din expect it at all.... Though the actual day wasn't good just like wat happened last year... nontheless i appreciated it.
Dan> u .... sounds like its ur b.day, hehe.....

Take care...ciaoz!

Lava..... u r implying tat I am kpo rite??? GRRRRR........!!!!! u good..... u good....... nvm...... :Þ

Cdino..... better late than never.... hehe.... but where's the present?

Rest of Members..... knock knock..... anyone home???

Take care all.....

Hiyaz... OH!!! it's Zoc's bday?? or am I late? heehee... yupz.. guess I'm late...one day late... HAPPY BDAY ZOC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....

[Stop making wild guess ...]

there's had been a sudden outbreak of questioning by a few people on the identity of ning ... esp slackerz ... still harassing and questioning me about her ... saying out all the names that he can think of that is a bit related to me ... oh for goodness sake ... don't make wild guess anymore ... if there is really any outcome ... I would then share with you guys ... now now ... can I keep it a low profile? I doubt so since it is already spreading like wildfire ... damn it ...

just take it that me and ning are just good friends ... in the first place I shouldn't have say it out ... but then what is here for? for me to pour out my feelings at the very moment that I wanna share ... well ... next time I shall censor some of the stuffs that I am going to post ...

in my previous post saying that I will try to brace enough courage and confidence to approach her ... and let her make-known my feelings for her again ... if there is no outcome between us ... then I guess I will just leave it as memory ... stored in one of the slots in my brain ... I have already got that "fear-being-rejected" front out of me already ... but I shall wait till the end of my major presentation next week ... I do wish to let this drag me down ... or worse ... get me down!

Enough saying ... I shall continue with my conversation with slackerz ... keep him entertain for a while since I really seldom talk to him online ... so here goes ... *singing "pack up my trouble" ...*

[ why am i here ? ]

yup.. that's a question you would probably ask if you know that my daily kock off time strike at 5.45pm.. have i gone bonkers ? am i a hard worker ? is my watch faulty ?.. hehe.. Nope !.. i'm wasting my time on this chair because a meeting i'm going to attend at RC HQ is due at 7pm.. so.. might as well enjoy the comfort here rite ??... heheh..

really really busy... and of course i'm here for a purpose... here it goes:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZOC!

[Just a short one I promise]

day by day, I have been thinking what will I be doing the next day. Night by night, I have been thinking whether I will get to see my dream girl in the dreamland. Life still goes on. Have not been feeling well these 3 days ever since Sunday. Thank god that this girl who out of a sudden show concern for me slowly faded away. Not I am trying to be picky, but trying to be more devoted. Is it the right word to use? Our personality as a matter of fact does not really match. Though people tends to say love can change a person, but I doubt it will work for both of us ... I choose to slowly ignore her ... until she stopped calling and messaging me ... tell me truthfully, is it fair for her? Or should I brace up enough courage to tell her that both of us will do good as friends and not beyond that line?

I wonder how's Eve is getting on. Haven't been dropping her messages at her phone. Partly my fault for not really initiating a message chat. I just don't know why <|> Suddenly another girl comes into my life. I just gave her a call to encourage her for her test tomorrow because she didn't do that well for her physics paper yesterday ... <|> Wait ... in fact I am not too sure of myself ... we seem to hit off very well but this not consider love for each other ... I must really give myself more time to examine myself ... this kind of situation is just too confusing ... as I always told myself ... I will try not to get into one as I may not be ready for it ... and I may just hurt the other party should I didn't put in enough effort towards it ... but who knows it might just turn out well ... WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ... this is just too much ... I better concentrate on my work first ... shall think about it before I sleep ...

ning ... all the best for your maths test tomorrow ... don't brood over the physics test ... it's over! hehe ... you have my luck!

[ Long day ]

its a long day at work, how do i know? well, i'm still in the office even though i feel like weekend.. *looking at fingers*.. yup.. they re healing alrite.. the protein sure are doing their job.. hehe...

an ulcer sprout from nowhere and landed on my lower lip.. conveniently parked facing outside where it can get ample sunlight and rain water.. damn!.. i'm i injury prone or wat.. hmm.. anyway, this friday.. ok.. i know its still 2 days away.. *m|m* .. i mean i'm kinda free on that day.. managed to abandon my dearest Liz ..hahaha.. so.. it a chance of a lifetime.. anyone wanna make an appointment.. be fast.. hahaha.. Liz, err.. u cannot.. hehe..

alrite.. i shall seat back and waste my time away.