[Damn f**king stylo ...]

you should take a look at one of my pal's desktop ... it is damn f**king ... good? hahaha ... here is the link ... well ... saw one of the familiar logo ... guess he must be like who love "Theme Hospital" ... one of the older games that is similiar to "Theme Park" and "Sim City 3000" ...

right ... shall head for my lunch pack ...

firstly ... sorry for the late wishing Viz and Liz ... just can't force myself to come online yesterday to drop a message or 2 ... just cannot make it ... So that's make 13 months a 1 day wishing ... the rest of the members had already taken away my lines ... but wait ... here goes "Loving for each other is not a matter of just buying each other gifts ... but a lifetime commitment for each other ... showing care, concern and love is considered true love" ...

Zoc were definitely overjoyed when she saw us yesterday at PS to celebrate her birthday ... lucky girl ... heh ... what are good friends for rite? After yesterday gathering ... it made me realise the taste of true and good friends ... the kind of spirit in the air ... that makes everyone feel like brother and sister to each other ... most of the "gang" were there ... trying to catch up with one another ... <|> Zoc, we have been friends for 3 years ... you have been there when I am down or up ... though sometime you might just forget me ... but I will be there when you need a close friend to be around ...

[Rainbow face ...]

not because of National Day that is approaching and I put those fancyful colours on my face ... have not been feeling that well since Sunday ... face turning pale at times ... or purple at the lips area ... esp after sun and rain in the open on sunday ... had a bad running nose and sore throat yesterday night ... trying to force out all the "flams" in the throat ... which din manage to do ... till this morning ... so you can imagine how I had a hard time trying to get a goodnight sleep ... but luckily got someone who SMS me to keep me entertain awhile ... till almost 2 am ... she din sleep until then and I doze off before she send me her last msg ... where only I read this morning ... feel so bad about it ... hehehe ... ning ... thanks for keeping me accompany ... hehehe

It has been a grueling week for me ... finalising my 1st phrase of the project ... and preparations for the presentation next week ...

[ Nite out ]

yes, a nite out on a blue monday turn out to be a pleasurable one.. something more rewarding than just sitting in front of a monitor clicking the mouse away .. heheh.

The ceasing of the day's work marked the start of a celebration over at Plaza Singapura. a group of us decided that this monday night should not be just another monday nite for our dear friend, zoc. whom will be engraving her 18th streak on 1st Aug. the sphere of laughters and happiness were credited to the mouth watering KFC chickens.. sincere presents.. wishings.. and the company of friends.. . heheh..

Personally, i felt the rapport sort of rekindle among us and picked up where we left off since the last session of RC.. chats and laughers flowed like river nile.. long and endlessly.. we were all embraced in the wonderous company of one another.. and drenched in total ecstasy of amity.. and of cos, my brother, Roy.. was the man of the nite (after the birthday girl of cos !).. he who came back from his lengthy but experience-of-a-lifetime tour around europe shared a comprehensive episode of ordeals and merriments... which was made even more entertaining by bok's undying curiosity.. prying like a crowbar into every elucidation.. hahah

Guess much of my emotions are still soaked in blissful moments.. any desolation and embitterness seems to have nowhere to host in my heart now.. wat a monday nite i say !!

yoz!!!!!!!!...HAPPY ANNIVERSARY LIZ and VIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... *smilez*....
wow.... it's been kinda long since I last posted yar.... yupz... school has been just wonderful!... apart from all the tests... tutorials... boring lectures...yupz.. school's been wonderful... beginning to like my class more and more...erm..yar... took me more than a term just to feel that... kinda sad right... but nvm.... as the saying goes... "better late than never" *smilez*....
next... Oreo tsk tsk... notti ger.... how can u skip tutorial!!! *shock*....heehee..... sighz.. nowadays my school cannot pon lessons liaoz... terrible... the new vice principal is ALWAYS walking ard... demanding to see people's timetable if she sees them walking ard during lesson time... haiz.... but nvm... I go for lectures to sleep... go to tutorials to slack... yupz... school's WONDERFUL...
lastly...since it's a monday........................ HAVE A GREAT WEEK EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hehe...hullo...i know that it has been realli a long time since i last posted...
Firstly, let me send moi regards to all reading this post... realli miss pple like Liz, Viz, Dan, Lava and Vogue...haven seen and realli tok to u guys n gals for a long long time...and of course the rest of the members i do too but the above mentioned are kinda _____ to me...hehe... Glad to see from the posts that you people are getting on fine... *fingers crossed*
Secondly, i wish to extend moi heartfelt congragulations to Viz and Liz. Happie 13th mth anniversary. *cheerz*
And i suppose moi "deer" daniel has found his true kitty?? hehe......
Lava> way to go!
Thirdly, probably a little update on how i am doing... Well, school has started and so has moi attachment. A 5 weeks attachment which is once a week, every wednesday full day. So i'm like stress coz have to do moi lesson plans and i'm teaching 18mths - 30mths toddlers, it sure can be tiring. As usual, projects have been bombed and prob. after moi burthdae, time to get ready moi coffin again... ;) Yeayea, and becoz life has kinda taken a turn for me and that i've been busy. Hence, unable to come on - line often and not to mention to check moi mails. Hehe...
Fourthly (tink there's no such word but heck), my health. Everything is going on fine except for moi stomach now. On medication as usual but have to go back for a review tml... n prob will have to go for stools test and blood test... Dun worry, i'm fine!!! :Þ
Fifthly, Liz.... its ok...thanx for the offer but i rather not coz me not that kind...haha....and i wldn't want Viz to come looking for me or something...hehe and yes, there's a last minute celebration on moi burthday which has been decided onli last nite but not with a guy alone.... :> Wanted it to be a low profile thing...
Lastly, i'm going now.... take care coz i care!

[Skipped class]
yes! Today is the first time i skipped a tutorial. The tutorial is simply boring therefore i decided to return home to complete my portfolio. hehehe... i'm sitting comfortably infront of my PC now while some of my classmates are in the classroom, dozing off, chatting and stoning, infront of the lecturer. I headed home not juz to complete my portfolio which is due tomorrow, but also to revise through my maths module as there will be an online test on wednesday, before rushing off to meet my fren for a buffet dinner at Westin Stamford. Is the food there nice???well, decided to go as the offer is quite good, 15 bucks person and it's a buffet. Guess i will put on a few more kilos tomorrow. *shrug* but but but.. haha.. i can't resist food. well, heck! Shall diet tomorrow then... *Grinz*

Lava.... wanna tok to me? I am willing to lend a listening ear...... take care.....

Viz.... thanx for ur wishes..... & time exists loh..... its running past u.... fast.....

[I am caught in a dilemma ... a spidery situation ...]

damn it folks ... really don't know how to put this ... in simply ... that I am caught in between 2 "things" ... don't really know what's with me ... I am just being confused ... lost as a matter of fact ... should I take the first path ... or the other one ... or dont take either of them ... just wondering ... I am still checking with myself for the lost clues ... and probably hints that are hiding around my brain cells and brain juices ... brain cells are being frozen by brain juices ... esp when it is left untouch for a pretty long period ... that's probably caused my problem now ... *just kidding* ...

Should I sleep over it? or consult a close friend of mine ... I guess ...

[ Time ? is it just the ticking of clock? or movement of the hour/minute hand? ]

haha.. oh ok!.. i thought of keeping it a low profile thingy.. hehe.. nah.. Happy Anniversary Liz !!.. though i told u that already .. hahah.. and ya.. i'm equally amazed by myself too. haha.. probably that's y its 13th long.. hehe.. hmm.. lets leave the rest of our conversation in the solitude.. hehe.. and as wat slacker has wished.. may us last till the end of time.. and thx God that time dun exist.. heheh.. and may i revert this wishing to Slacker.. haha..

with July expiring soon in the next few days.. it drifted to me that the year has jolly well left half the distance for watever tracking we scheduled during the time of new year's resolution.. you know? its those kinda wishes that you make it and you require a window of 365days to tell you that u cant attain it.. and some are stupid enough to make the mistake again.. hahahaha.. think its time for me to flip those old memories in hope to reveal (in dust) the resolutions i've made.. hahaha ..it will be quite a comparsion on the resolutions against the results.. hehe.. how's yours? .. yea rite!

i believe that my month of August will be rather smooth on the heels.. probably infested by countless jog and gym (f**k IPPT), charmed by Liz (hehe), gunned down by work (as usual), orgy with friends..(hahah).. volunteering in RC.. (ya.. still hanging there.. ).. i mean.. these are all i need to make my month incapable of other things.. think i will need another resolution list .. hahaha

tok is cheap.. chill.. before it becomes free.

congrats Viz & Liz for being together for 1 year plus 1 month liao.... happy for both of ya.... keep the relationship going till the end of time.... hehe.... :)

VIZ's & LIZ's 13th MTH ANNIVERSARY!!!

yep, it's our thirteen month together. thks viz for being with me through all my nonsense. appreciate that you still can tolerate such a difficult girl like me. *hugz*

anyway, have been MIA for quite some time. my school days are getting tougher... i can't comprehend what the lectuerers are trying to explain. my worst module is audit. i thought my dream was to be an auditor. looks like my dreams are disolved just like chalk and water. what a metaphor. now, who cares about my complaints except viz?

put work aside, what are you guys up with these days? posting become a chore to many except slacker, lava and of coz viz. feel the upbeat and start posting ok? in a few days time, zoc will be celebrating her 18th bird-day. wondering who will the romantic guy be to ask her out. hehe. zoc, i don't mind being a lesbian for a day. (viz will def be disturb by tis!) haha.

whatever! suxx.. got to get all tutorials done. projects overloading... beep...........

Lava...... good luck to u...... nothing to fear.... just making known ur feelings..... dun miss the chance tat u will regret in the future.... but hope tat a relationship will develop for u after expressing your feelings...... hehe..... Gambete!.....

Viz...... yah loh...... so suay nowadays? must have been doing too many bad things liao tats y ur retribution is coming.... hehe.... just joking......

Rest of the members...... take care.... good luck..... & POST MORE OFTEN..... hehe.....

bye for now..... so sianz & alone...... sigh.......

[It makes me a coward ...]

after reading the last post of slacker in his homepage ... he is right in one point ... fear being rejected is a coward ... after reading it ... it also make me realised that I should go on if there is no turnout from it ... I shall heed his post as a challenge ... give me a few days to pluck up my courage and confidence to approach her again ...

Viz ... for goodness sake ... please handle your stuffs carefully ... I do not wish to see you in plasters all over yourself when I see you soon ... heheh ... wear a safety suit man ... haha

Right ... shall sign off my post here .... *sign*

[ Healing Process ]

yes.. with my ill-fated finger and nose.. i'm carrying on the healing process as the days paint me by.. its slow but certain.. so.. the recent trojan virus.. Sircam is making my life hell in the office.. computers to be checked and prevent against this almost unstoppable virus.. network make it worse and impossible to contain to an effective level.. but lucky to those windows 2000 and NT users.. it does not replicate though it infect.. man.. so this two days of weekend is to prepare myself for massive hell to come on monday..

right.. the healing continues..

[ Fuck !! I cut my same index finger again !! ]

.enough said.

[ cut again ]

either some superior being is agressively making my day more suck than yesterday or my plain humble carelessness result in today's misery.. my left index finger temporary declare MC.. another cut that allows the escape of blood.. sigh.. two day in a row.. i'm grounded and condemned ! .. sigh.. life took me for a ride.. downwards..

and yup.. a few of the office computers are hit by the 5 day old virus.. meticulous attack that even mutates.. through blood and sweat.. it is current contained.. ladies and gentlemen.. introducing.. the latest virus with medium damage and high distribution, W32.Sircam.Worm@mm .. the automatic removal tool did shit about the virus.. all manual steps..

alrite.. gonna change the server..

[Life has been the same again ...]

I decided things has to go on ... no point getting stuck at one area and no further progress from there. Now waiting for my turn to use the bathroom. The water sure looks inviting ... hehe ... always had that can't-wait-to-jump-in feeling in the morning ... just like a small little bear playing in the water ... hah ... we shall see about that ...

Out came my dad ... mum beckoning me to use the bathroom or else she gonna stuck there for a while ... just end this short post with a kiss ... *muackz*

[ cut ]

yes, i was just meticulously cut by a falling piece of metal rim fitting for lights.. missing my windows to the earth by ONE fucking inch ! .. dun ask me if i could see my life flash in front of me at that moment.. damn!.. all i can see is nothing but felt a hard knock on my nose bridge which allowed the blood to ozze with grace.. nothing serious and it dun even hurt much.. but it did left a rather obvious cut as if i'm trying to play brad pitt in fight club.. though it is the club that doesn't exist.. heheh..

anyway, just grateful that it was not my eye that take the punishment.. else it will be catastrophic.. hmm.. it really makes me wonder, what if it really did hit my eye??.. one eye jack.. it sent the chill down my spine by the slightest thought of it.. gonna wear goggles from now on.. hehehe..

still trapped in my office chair, juicing my brain for a method to reformat and install win 98 without a CDrom, without LAN !!.. yup.. that's challenge !.. any smart ass wanna give it a try ?.. let me know ..

[Paid to Surf? ... ]

yup ... just trying out this new thing ... that PAYS YOU TO SURF THE INTERNET ... har ... wonder if it is another hoax ... just in case you guys are interested ... it pays us $0.60 per hour of Internet you surf ... for a max of 10 hrs per mth ... that's sound pathetic ... but anyway ... just gonna try it out and see whether it works ... website > http://www.vpayu.com.sg ...

nothing much these days ... except to catch up with project work ... and music! ... you bet ... I have been downloading tonnes ... not really tonnes ... but just a lot of them - new albums and southtracks ... heh ... this is just gonna a short post as I force myself ... gonna continue with my sampling of my music ... yeah ... mp3 is free ... ~ for a while ...

[ being alive ]

yea slacker. i'm still alive. .alrite.. my recent schedule in work is dragging me bit by bit into the lethargy.. boi!.. never ending.. and yup, tomolo gonna attend some night meeting.. that blew away one more night of work out.. sigh.. think i'm sighing too much.. i'm bloated with self-pity..

think i dunno wat i'm i tokking about.. just look at the mismatch grammer and misepling.. damn!.. screw myself !

so sianz now...... HELLO ALL!!! HOW'S EVERYONE??? STILL ALIVE???...... must take care people!!!..... still so sianz..... hehe

[I Kill and Eat Animals]

Right, made a trip down to IKEA yesterday to check out the latest furnitures and little stuffs on their shelves. Practically went thru every items and that took me nearly 3 hrs ... haha ... well ... of course I don't go back empty handed ... got myself 2 shelves, 1 lamp and 3 photo frames ... will be going down today probably to get the big shelf that I wanted to buy ...

Lesson time ... so stay tune ...

[The truth ...]

not about Jane and Sam ... sighz ... not gonna mention names ... just felt that I am being cast in the shadow of someone ... unable to be given a chance to prove my sincerity. Sometime in life I know that it could be unfair, but why me? Was my approach too daring or unsincere? Anyway, I know the truth ... but I just felt sad about it ... guess I need to think about what has went wrong ... maybe there is still hope ...

[ for a while ]

yes.. this can only be for a while.. hehe.. gonna engage myself in my fourth excerise of the week!.. yes, i'm undergoing a strenous.. believe it or not.. intensive excerise to get myself back to shape for the dreadful Sep IPPT. Miraculously, i pass the previous one.. which i vivdly remembered that i was to be send for RT.. hehe.. guess the best NSman award came in rather handy.. heheh

right, i seldom recommend movie.. but this time its different.. catch "Saolin Soccer" .. yup.. i watched it and it kick ass !!.. you may think that its all old tricks in the bag of Stephen Chow.. trust me.. i thought so too.. amazingly, stephen chow straighten his thoughts and disgard the jim carrey facial acts.. hongkong movie finally married some basic graphics .. though not as fantastic as Matrix.. but its convincing and at the correct frames.. the moive is also packed with all laughter.. may be a little exaggerating.. but well.. that's where all the laughter comes from right ? .. just watch it.. kick ass ! (oh, i've said that)..

hehe.. alrite.. i gonna be late again..

[What is love ... to me ... ]

just suddenly feeling the urge to post ... so what is love? For me ... I love the girl ... is not because of her look ... but of her unique and special characters. To me, if I were to love/like her, I would make sure that I will care for her ... to show concern for her ... be her supporting pillar ... and of course taking care of her. Still trying to brace enough confidence to go up to her and let her know all these ... but I will just somehow get tongue-twisted ... should I wait for time to come? Or should I grab the opportunity when I feel that I am given one?

Well, today went back to my old school for the speech day and once again i was at mother's ground singing the school song. Somehow I am just lost of words to describe my feelings at that very moment when I started to sing the school song. The feeling was like fire - strong. Feeling proud too ...

[Unpredictable ...]

Well, sometime things can be unpredicatable as what someone just told me. Quite true in fact, but - what would happen if this word is going to describe a person? I am just speechless about that. Hopefully I am being appreciated ... watever

I just can't predict my next minute what would happen to me ... probably just fall asleep? < hey hey ... i am predicting ... hahaha ... I think I am not in the right frame to continue frm here ... I love her ...

[ all gone ]

its time of the month again.. my wallet let out it's final cry yesterday and pronouned me poor.. i'm a goner.. this weekend dun seems very much a wonder to me.. instead, i will be dread to go out.. shall just stay at home, feed my skin to the bed and get all drown in the comfort of my room..

hey! fuck! did i miss 2 days posts?? oh my god!.. damn!.. and i wasn't aware of it at all?!.. ok now.. just wat is happening to me??.. i'm running monetary impaired with a handicapped brain that can't count days.. and on two separate occasion within a day.. two person asked me for the direction to Tanjong Pagar MRT.. i dunno how that piss me off.. but now i feel like a overdue streetdirectory. .all torn up and good for the trash.. ohh!!URgH!!.. rite.. i'm turning mentally bizzare..

someone... gone.. err.. ya.. damn!.. oh.. shit.. wateveR !

[I am really lousy this time ..]

damn ... this time gonna share with you guys what had happened ... probably it is the work of the fats that is ever-bubbling out from my waist area ... well ... today ... had another session of rock climb ... this time we tried to scale the building that business students got their diploma ... everything was fine at first ... with my expert friend doing the climb leading and with me belaying at the bottom. Since I am once of those big size around and who are so called good at it, I was tasked to do it. Yup, all went smoothly. One by one all tried to scale the tallest rock wall in the campus - some fell, some managed to meet their target. Of course all thanks to me - the belayer.

Sad thing is when it is my turn to go up, after figuring out different methods to go up, I didn't even made it to the 2nd storey of the rock wall. Encouragement from below to me to go up, I just cant seem to bring myself up, telling myself, lava - you can do it. I just can't. Feeling discouraged, but nevertheless, I shall start training for my next session. Alright, cut it off for now.

Right, going to share the happy moment that I have this morning. I managed to enjoy the sweet company of Eve on the way to school today. At first we were distanced away on the bus as it was rather packed, but we managed to exchange smile with each other - 2 times to be exact! hehe ... after a while, I managed to move nearer to her after squeezing past some passengers with my big back pack and a laptop. So we tried to catch up with each other's life. Though the moment with her was short, but it was alright. Bid farewell to each other when we alighted, with me waiting for another bus and while she walked to her school building. Catch a glimpse of her walking before I board the bus. Next came my flying kiss ... opps ... hope other girls didnt get the signal ... heh

Enough for today post ... TGIF ... nothing happening gonna happen tonight ... just gonna pack up my saddness and happiness and leave for home ... isn't that a better idea?

[Really wireless ... look no cables attached ...]

Right, you could have guess it correctly what the hell am I doing. Well, for those IT illiterate or non-wireless freak, here goes - arming with my laptop with a wireless PCMCIA LAN card, I am right now in the midst of my practical surfing net and at the same time doing this post. With 1 computer and 1 laptop in front of me, you must be thinking that I am a freak. Yes, I am one - lecturer had just blocked off the port for surfing for my networking lab, so - with a laptop given to us and with a wireless LAN card that connects to the campus backbone, might as well use it right?

Haven't been posting for days when I look back at my last post. Sorry for that as I was real busy with sch stuffs and other committements. No sweat with that.

Will be going for my run later after this class and ensure that tyre are kept to the minimum. Damn ...

Eve has promise to bring me around her school when both of us are free ... hehehe ... can't wait for that time to come ... alright ... gonna continue with my practical work - Red Hat stuffs ... doing some firewall installation ... with that ... *screw you guys ... I am going off*

[ Blur eyes ]

at this moment.. my eyes are exhausted.. days after days my eyes have been enduring the harmful radiation emitting from the computer monitors.. that's vocation hazard they say.. *sigh*.. anyway.. a lot of stuffs are up my mind now.. can't seem to shake off RC stuffs even though the courses have ended.. there are still photos to be developed.. cards to print.. email to email.. events to plan.. accounts to settle.. fuck shit!!.. i gonna die..

and yep.. this miserable life of mine, withering from the beating of modern society.. aged by the never ending activities railing in everywhere.. i used to be a happy guy.. yea.. used too..

an old friend called up this morning.. and i mean really old friend.. heheh.. upon hearing her name.. i went.. "who??" .. fuck!.. the good old secondary school life really distant itself from my already half-screwed brain.. anyway.. recalled her.. and well.. the gist of the conversation was that some other old friends wanna meet up.. and as usual.. i'm not in the perfect schedule to say yes.. *ahhhh*.. things just get busier each and everyday eh?..

alrite.. think i gonna live with it.. or live out of it.. damn!

heylooooooooooooo all ... *hops* ... have been busy with my school work ... *hops* ... have been busy with my bunny girl ... *hops* ... have been busy running away from the irritating hunter ... *hops* ... have been busy with my family ... *hops* ... have been busy looking for more fat juicy carrots ... *hops* ... so I am really very busy recently! ... so I do not have any free time to post ... so I should end my post now ... *hops* *hops* *hops* ...

[Maybe I should change nick ...]

was thinking whether I should change my posting nick to "adam" ... I think it will suit me better ... "Adam & Eve". Just a though that worth considering ...

[I am scare ...]

never been so frightened again ... sheer frightening in myself ... I am just don't know whether this kind of feeling is true ... I am trying to ignore someone ... rem my previous posts? damn ... it is just so scary ... esp when you see the number/name flashing on the handphone ... but I can't just bear not to ans it ... what's wrong with me? If I really do that ... it will show that I am trying to avoid her ...

so wtf? Anyone got any remedies? I know that slacker's one will not help in my case ... but I shall try ... maybe it works? SOS ...

*yawnz* yesterday was a tiring day of RC activities and i was burnt by the sun!!! I hate the weather recently. It's juz sooo hot, with ocassionally wind only.*yawnz* my eyes are really shutting now. Old pple normally can't stay up too late, therefore.. i gonna hit my bed after this post. good nitezzz all...zZZzzz z

[ kinda late.. err ]

yes.. i know tis kinda late.. and i ought to get some rest after a long and stretching day in RC.. and yes, i'm at least 'free' for the next few weeks.. or maybe not so yet... sigh.. hehehe.. things just keep on coming.. anywya.. as i was saying.. its late in the nite.. and i just got back from Ros house.. watching 'SWORDFISH' .. the 'version' is so much embraced by conservative intentions that there's no 'fuck' in it.. i mean.. wat's a movie.. 'fuck' is not a graded entitlement ??.. well.. with that.. it concludes so much for the naked scene.. hehehe..

ok.. its kinda late.. (izzit the third time ??).. ya.. and tomolo is a long day.. chio.. and chill for Sunday..

[It is raining stars ...]


ahem ... folded stars I mean ... I was so sad ... someone just knock my bag, and the bottle of folded stars given to me by Eve was knocked open! Oh dear, when BMW was telling me that she found a star just below my desk, my immediate reaction was to check whether does it belonged to me. AND IT DOES! Holy mama! I open up my pouch and search for the painfully folded stars by Eve. The cock for the bottle is deliberetely knocked open! Oh my oh my, I almost put myself on four and scan for any lost stars on the floor. To my dismay, I couldn't find any. Sadly, when all the people left the place, I went to search again. No luck ... I didn't lose a lot out of from the hundreds ... but every stars that she folded meant everything to me ...

now in my bottle, there is a small gap in between the cock and the stars ... The stars are very special to me ... hopefully any kind soul who found it ... please return to me ... sighz ... I am so sad ... think she will be very upset if she got to know about this ... anyway, I have told her thru SMS ... awaiting for her to reply ... right ... I better start searching my bags again ...

[ - - - - ]

i'm hogging on the last few minutes that i can spare for the day.. before my day get drown in RC activities till late in the evening.. just packed my bag.. or.. half-packed.. got my uniform flatten out.. hmm.. wat else.. ?? think that's all.. heheh

rite.. just a simple post to start my day.. chill ..

sianz....... sianz......... sianz..........

Let me forget the hurt and pain
Found along life's way;
Let me remember kindnesses
Given to me day by day.

sign off....
viz's only love

[Breathe harder ... come mon ...harder harder ...]

don't think otherwise what am I doing. Well, been tied up with schook work and other committments and I don't really have the chance to breathe in some fresh air. Been breathing in the hot air that is generating from the computer. Damn! I have been sitting in front of the computer for the whole day, doing my work and other stuffs. This saturday is gonna be a big project for me. Very stressed and worried, hopefully can sailed thru it with minimise problems. *hopefully grin*

Well, tired but still have to continue working. It is not because of last minute work, it is just that it is some last minute cock-up. That's normal, just that I should have ANTICIPATE it. But at least not ANCITIPATE by somebody. ANCITIPATE reminds me of 1 incident that went back to last year. Not gonna talk about it since it is over. Just blew it!

Okie, guess it is time-out for me after a short break ... be good alright? I will be back over the weekend ...

[ ZzZzZ ]

yes, i'm tired.. tired of almost every single thing.. my my. . i dun even have time to post.. of cos.. excluding now.. ok.. i'm lost of words.. just feeling kinda fuck up.. but its normal.. k.. ya.. rite.. k..

sad....... sad....... sad.......

i felt the urge to post something. it goes like this...

on my way home from the usual wednesday spiritual gathering, the boredom on the bus, the loneliness walking to my doorstep set me pondering the aspects of a fulfilling life. have you come to notice how many people around you are constantly showering you love, care and concern? now, ask yourself, have you been appreciative to these loved ones or did you take them for granted? in guilt to mentioned, i am one of those whom seldom show appreciation. now set your minds to wonder, what if this people are no longer there to shower you with attention? will the sense of remorse and regret of not cherishing them be over-powering what your heart can take?

i know i will not be able to tolerate regrets. an advice from someone who i looked up to with awesome respect; rev fr bosco,"when someone knocks on your door, don't reject him. instead cheirsh this loved one with open arms..."

yoz..hihi everyone..now my screen kinda slanted..the screen's now this ( ) shape...instead of regular rectangular shape..hehe..anywae..that's not the point of today's post....heee...VERY busy these few days..over school work...got automatically enrolled into the Remedial Club coz of lousy common tests marks..the first time in my life that i actually failed my exams...sobsob...partly my fault..coz my attitude towards the whole tests was rather slack..din care much abt the whole thing...the whole mood before common tests was happy-go-lucky..until the difficult maths C paper "hit" me real hard...and made me realise that i need to study. Nevertheless..last min studying doesn't help (as usual)...which explains the O8 grades that i'm getting for 2 sciences so far..with one pathetic C grade for Maths C surprisingly..Pray and hope that i get 'E'lectrifying grades for the rest of the subjects... Why call it "common tests". and not Mid-Yr exams...dun understand the sch system nowadays.

Besides that...as usual my STAR thingy program...gotta do lots of research on genes..and work on my techniques to knockout genes, conduct polymerase chain rxn etcetc. Not only all these, i'm involved with the Racial Harmony Day performance as well..got saboed...to CAT-walk...in one of the costumes...i guess pig-walk more likely..sheesh...they really no yan3 guang1...choose someone who's short, grotesque looking *haha* and one who walks like a duck and behaves like a pig...hahaha.=] also got involved with National Day celebrations...was made the reserve for parade comman., flag raiser, flag bearer..so basically i'm the 3-in-1 reserve..haha..all these means....no time for study...sheesh..gotta work on time mangement...before...my grades continue to decline...arghh..not a good sign...okok i better go off to make use of all the time that i have to study.before i doze off (as usual ) again....take care everyone...taz ;)

[ heat wave ]

i wonder if the world is coming to an end.. unpredictable weather condition.. earthquakes and other catastrophic happenings.. but in singapore.. i'm only concern about the recent heat wave.. it doesnt matter whether is it day or night.. the heat is still sings the same line, "Unbearable". i just cant fall asleep in an oven condition.. as such.. the fan or aircon in my room has became very good friends recently.. they chatter in the night while i bathed in their delightful breeze. . damn the heat..

finished reading a new book from John Grisham, "The Brethren" .. revolves around a gay scam and how it crossed with the politics of presidential election.. kinda profound and have to be followed very closely in order to make any logical sense.. not a bad book though.. and i'm now.. half way through "The Sky Is Falling" by Sidney Sheldon.. the incredible male coated with the advocacy of woman's rights.. the novel kick ass and its definitely a page turner.. the story escalates faster than you can even read it!.. heheh.. yup.. always like his books anyway.. hmm..

yup.. numerous tasks await for me with open arms.. and i'm gonna fall in it.. *weee!!*

[Cool breeze ... thru my noserils out from my mouth ...]

just got back from a short cycling trip with 2 good friends. Never experience should wonderful moment again on my bike. Though it was a short one, but nevertheless I still enjoyed it, esp all the fun that me and my friends had along the way. Promise myself to do this more often, will be going on one again 2 weeks from now. Was still thinking whether I should visit the gym tomorrow. If I do, it is going to be a committment, or else things will turn out ugly, esp my tire *rubbing the fats hanging out*. Before I do that, probably have to discipline myself to get myself into the momentum in running, as gym will only build up my muscles. Anyway thursday will be another Tennis session follow by another round of rock climbing on friday. Probably will scale the Business block this friday. hehe ... Do I look like another spiderman?

This thing has been floating round and round my head. Before it get worse, I had better do something. In my previous posts, I mentioned that I got some weird feeling that someone is esp showing extra concern for me. Seems to me that it is getting worse. Just got a present frm her, I just don't know what to say. Sighz ... any advise on that from the love experts out there? I just don't want to hurt her feeling ... damn it ... I am caught in another dilemma again ...

Right, before I end my post today ... Love is just like a spider web, either you going to be the victim of the spider or be the enemy of the spider ... can't we just stay neutral?

[ Humming ]

i am still counting down viciously to my knock off time. today has indeed make my pay worth to the cents! my seat did not have a chance to get warm.. well.. every minute i am somewhere else attending to computers stuffs.. urgh.. i need to breathe now.. that's y i'm here!.. hehehe..

right.. my desk look as if a hurricane just swept pass for the second time.. tangling CAT5 cables..strayed harddisks.. papers.. faxes.. sponges.. plastics.. oh boi!.. think i shall just keep my vision to the monitor.. see no evil.. hahah..

think its time for me to bid my cubicle goodbye and head for another session of meeting in RC HQ..

[When the aeroplane went flying ...]

Yup ... just sent off a group of my friends from Indonesia who was on a 3 days visit. Well, just brought them around shopping in Singapore's Shopping Paradise and Chinatown. Well, got myself a bright red shirt for just 5 bucks. 2 of my other friends got the same one. hehehe ... that will be interesting to identify who is Lava when me and my other 2 friends wear the same one out one day ...

Basically nothing much except that I met a old friend of 7 years after sending my friends at the airport. She still looked the same as when I first knew her. Haven't seen her for a long time since I graduate from my secondary school. A sentence that is still floating in my mind - "I saw you grow up". Damn what's that suppose to mean? Grow wider she mean? hahaha ... probably. So gave her my namecard and exchange farewell and I board my bus.

Gonna stop here already, just chatted with a close senior of mine. Got some work to do now ... or else I will get screwed ... if things don't work as it is suppose to do ... so me gonna cross my fingers for this week ...

[ Open up my heart ]

the topic is just some line extracted from the westlife song i'm listening to right now.. feeling kinda blue in fact.. i dunno why .. but it just felt that way.. hmm.. wonder where it comes from.. my life is active.. and that's probably the reason why.. i got a hunch that i'm driving myself on a road of fire.. getting burnt..

ok.. checking myself out..

[At least there are some kind soul out there ...]

well, guess what I saw just 1 bus stop away from my stop when I was on the bus. I believe you will not guess it correctly - When my usual bus pull up just 1 stop before mine, I was thinking why it was stopping so long. To my discovery, the bus driver was waiting for the disabled man to get up properly and onto his seat before he moves off. Well, that's not all. To my 2nd discovery, 1 of his slipper is missing. The bus conductor who happened to finish inspecting the bus tickets, brought up his slipper who got left behind at the steps of the bus and put beside his leg. Well, WAIT! That's not all again. A kind lady with golden heart, put on the slipper for him. I was like stunned for a while. To think that there are still kind souls out there ...

Had a fruitful and tired day in school. After our only lecture of the day, me and my group of friends went rock climbing. It was not that easy as you think. Yeah, I have to do more training, that's for sure. But still managed to climb complete 1 wall. Next friday another round for us. Thanks to my rock climber friend, who WAS the deputy president of the the Rock Climbing club in my school. Cheers! You are the man!

Yesterday was a bit disappointed as I didn't get to watch the movie - Moulin Rouge. But watched Mr. Dolittle 2 instead. Another stupid yet funny show. Not much comment about that. Got a treat from my friend at the Edo Sushi bar. The taste is as normal as those you found at those supermarket's sushi corner. J, thank you for that treat :)

So that's about it ... life in Singapore is just as boring ... no life ... 4 words in what you can do over the weekend ... - Sitting, Walking, Poking and Singing. Sit down with friends and chit chat ... Walk down anywhere you like with your friends ... Go poke at the balls on the table ... and probably singing out your lungs at KTV ... so what's new?

[ bumpy bee ]
Since my eyes touched the light this morning, i have not sat around doing nothing. the day was lined up with activities after activites.. my time is measured in minutes and seconds.. and to make things more primitive, my handphone was left at home, charging.. probably flooded with 1000 missed calls and sms.. hehehe..

Met up with my dear friend, Ros last night.. a simple dinner in yishun.. nothing fanciful. it occured to me that it was around 3 mths since i last met up with her in person.. shit!.. where have i been?.. miss occy and partner too.. guys.. i'm trying.. ( ok ok .. ) .. hehe.. will meet up soon eh?.. :)

Gonna rush for a dinner wif my dear Liz later in the evening, which then i will leave for RC meeting and her for the church activities.. sigh.. nowadays.. time is so stingy on us.. :(

I was actually hatching an idea of revamping Vizinity (again).. somehow, the strength and determination could not be summon.. heheh.. tied down by lots of work on the desk.. in RC.. and all sort of relationships.. think i'm missing out on most of my friends.. time.. oh well.. wtf..

chill...

Hello!!!

Oreo Cookie is here again!!!

Juz drop by to say hi and i'm off for my WebP practical now...

Take care ,frens!!!byebye!!=]

hiyaz!
results results... why do they affect so many people? sighz... what's wrong with the singapore education system?? *ponder* got to know some sad news yesterday.. shan't elaborate abt it... but the JC people should have heard of it lah... aniway.. got back my chem papers todae... first paper I flunked... :(

YOz! how's everyone...me hav been really busy really busy ever since sch starts..busy failing tests...busy with my STAR program...gotta go down NUS-IMCB (for info, it stands for National University of Singapore - Institute of Molecular Cell Biology..i think..heee) almost 1/2 of the week..and reaching home 9pm everyday...busy with proj work...busy with tutorials...practically no time for breathing ....time is so precious..tokking abt time... i gotta rush off to do my chim proposal (Does Cell Type affect gene targetting via chimeric oligonucleotides for Caspase-6 gene) now..trying to make out the reviews which my mentor frm IMCB (- Dr Alexander Urbano..his nick is Gudo..funny eh..) gave me...gotta burn midnight oil again today..okie dokie..i better go do now..will try to post as often as possible..sorry VIz..cool down yah..i'm sure all members will try to post whenever they can! =]

[I love to sway with the wind ...]

*shake*

*sway*

Come mon everybody let's hit the floor. *shake* Music pumping, heart jumping ... jumpin' ...

Nothing much except I am just stuck with this stupid shit thing ... the palm sync ... damn it ...

Hang in there people ...

oppz ... did not realised that I had not been posting for so long ... months? years? *hops* ... well ... had been busy with some project of mine in school ... rabbits do need to study & have lotsa projects, homework & exams too kay? ... so sorry Viz ... dun kick me out of this zone ... *hops* ... give you a carrot? ... *hops* ... HELLO EVERYONE! HOWS LIFE FOR YA? ... *hops* ... shall share a piece of good news with all of ya ... *hops* ... I got myself a Bunny gal! ... but wats new rite? ... the suave & macho Bunny will definitely have plenty of Bunny gals queuing up rite? ... *hops* ... but she is so pretty ... cute ... sweet ... nice ... *censored* ... okay the teacher is complaining ... gotta go ... seeya again!

yellooo.. viz,calm down calm down...
So, how's everyone???Life as a freshie is really great. School can be quite fun and boring at times... but the most important is to study hard and play hard wif frens... the 3rd day at is is rather good. Lessons ended at 12pm and i have the rest of the day to slack ard or sit down for TCS... for ur info, it's Tok Cok Session... not ehz... Television Corporation of Singapore. So, what shld i do later?? Though of going for pool today, but... no one seems to be interested. *hint Slackerz* Anyway, shld be going to cheerz my frens on Soccer later... *dance ard wif pom poms*. Alrite, i cant stand the boredom anymore. Gonna go round SP and look for frens. So, take care dudes!!! Enjoy ur lifes!!!

and ya, viz cool it. the vulgarities just shoot out, huh? yawn.. happy working and remember me. haha

my second name is late; 15mins to prepare for school if not i'll be late. i've to complain! you know, 5 out of 6 modules require me to take a 15min brisk walk from the gates of the school to the ulu lecture hall. by then i reach lecture hall, i'm already soaked with 'salt water'. this is real bad! is this the way they treat year 2 students? will the near future awaits me to take a 30min brisk walk to lecture hall? who knows! ciaoz!

[ Alright.. time's up ! ]

Interesting friends, outrageous enemies, hibernating members and all shit lingering.. heheh.. woke up this morning battling against the percing rays radiating from the fireball.. disposition of the day is customary fine, hip and balls.. but looking back in the posting arena in vizinity.. i really wonder just how many people are alive and kicking.. or will they ever wake up from that peaceful sleep.. hey!!.. there's no fucking prince or toad around to kiss ya!! so.. wake the fuck up and post !!.. *calming the fuck down*..

alright.. summons are awarded to the following members.. and if they failed to prove their delightful presence in vizinity soon.. sorry dudes.. you have to go.. thanks for dropping by .. i'm not a bitch and for all you know (or dun, because you are not here).. the demure side of me had issued numerous numbers of reminders.. well.. let all just shred through that brain.. this is a painful decision.. dun hold that knife.. put it down.. hit the keyboard and everything will be as fine as singapore.. ok dudes.. i think i've tok too much.. here goes..

.: Moron :. .: Hoover :. .: Bunny :.

ok, you have the guys.. stay around.. else you will be next.. heheh.. hate myself for the autocratic speech.. damn!

[Slam my head]

Just woke up from a call, to ask me to submit my last semester results and this semester timetable to the office. Damn that idiot, last min stuffs as usual. Sick of it. Probably gonna tender my resignation letter to strip off my appointment in school. Damn him anyway. Sound in my head ask me to calm down and think over it. It works.

Surprised with the evolution of changes in school ... well ... that's part of the growing process. Not surprised if my body gonna split into 2, I mean my brain when I am into my project. Had a meeting with my supervisor regarding the project. Seem that everything is going smoothly (hopefully). Not gonna give a damn shit about everything. Heh, shit came on coming out after watching South Park Season 5 Episode 2. Oh shit! < I just did it again. Shit happens...

Went to catch the movie "Evolution" with some friends after we declared that we have nothing to do for the rest of the afternoon. Some stupid yet funny show. Suitable for those who is missing laugh in life. Yeah, who gave a damn shit about the stupid show anyway? Opps ... I did it again ...

Gonna finish up till here and head back to bed. And hopefully knocked out by the cooling air con ...

[ Weird Reasons ]

for some strange and beyond explaination reasons.. my boredom was answered generously yesterday.. work got picked up and boi! i was working like a bee.. from drilling holes through partitions.. (yes, it's part of IT).. retunneling of cables.. hubs and router.. bathed and dried in my own perspiration till 7pm in the night.. which i quickly left for home before any more work hit me again..

Went for my usual ritual of jog and sight seeing round bishan park.. they are doing alot of changes to the scenery over there.. a new golf driving range is in sculpture.. and credit to some alien activites.. the distance marking on the running track is no longer visible.. (?!?!).. at home, consumed my dinner in chunks and haste as i was to meet up with some good old secondary school friends.. boi!.. looking back in time.. we were all bonded with 10 years of friendship.. some point in life.. you just need these friends to remind yourself that how far you have walked.. pause.. look back.. appreciate the present and yearn tomorrow..

and well !.. today is a brand new day they say.. (who?!).. heheh.. anyway.. just another day .. :)

[Opps ... I forgotten to post ...]

oh yeah, damn me for that. I was kind of lost in cyberspace, and forgotten to click on the blogger link. So forgive me for that alright? Yeah man, let's start from friday.

Friday
Had a great time with good friends - Occy, rraine and Vogue. Of course, not to mention the great food we had. Korean BBQ Steamboat. Wide variety of food and special dishes, that makes anyone drool. *hint oreo*

Hey dude and rraine, thanks for the shirt! Really love it! heh ... hope to meet up with guys soon, and of course with the new shirt! hehehe

Saturday
Not much, except lazing around in the day before joining another group of friends in town for dinner and drinks. No much comment about that except that saturday night really no life. No fresh ideas on where to go except go poking, singing, walking or sitting. All was damn tired and so after biding farewell to the group, decided to go to a friend's house and stay over.

Sunday
A lazy one I must say, lazing around again in my friend's comfortable living room. Watching all the MTVs and the making of some movies on TV. Sad, when one really has nothing to do, life turns stale. Went back home and sleep after that.

Monday
Worst! Imagining attending a short 15 minutes and that's it - School End! wtf? Well, my timetable is real good until I have average of 1 to 2 hrs of lesson per day. Kaoz, what am I suppose to do? Well, in fact there is a catch, you have a final project to do, but which you can do on your own time and pace. A project to be completed in 4 mths, what do you think?

Anyway, just make a trip down to Sim Lim Square and Tower to check out the latest products and prices. Nothing much. Off to meet up with Eve. Haven't seen her for quite some time, really miss her. We went down to Orchard, window-shopping. Got a cup of quickly for ourselves before exploring the "expensive" and posh part of shopping centres - Paragon, Promedale. Went to BreakTalk too, as usual you can see the long queue for the counters and a short queue at the corner waiting for the "Flosses" to arrive on the hot shelves. Though it is just a short time with her, but it was good enough already. Enjoying every moment with her .... woooooohhhhh

So you see, when someone's in their stale period in life, it is really bad. Taste bad probably. *bite my arm*, ekk ye ... it taste sour. Opps, the result of my perspire. heh *griN*. Anyway, hope to catch up with friends during this time and of course gonna grab a few books frm my library shelves before I turn stale further ...

( Sunday )
Haha, was a day out at Sunset Bay again.... :] playing volleyball, fezzbe, police and thief, A.E.I.O.U. coolz, it was real fun yesterday though the heat was kinda unbearable. After that was going all over Sentosa for photo take and a dramatic scene happened... was taking a photo when suddenly the clock chimed and music came out... sure was farnee (yeayea, u all might not think it was but too bad, this is the best i can describe) Yesterday was probably the happiest day i had this holidays! The blues in the morning faded off as soon as i stepped into Sentosa... had to enjoy before school starts you see, which is TODAY!!!

( Monday )
Hm, dragged moiself out of bed as usual.... when i reached school, the entrance was flooded by freshmen from various department. I saw pple wearing bermudas n thought that this week will be a good week coz prob, there will be no one to check and BOOM... the warden appeared and moi hopes were dashed. She was actualli on duty on the first day of school! Grrrrr.........
Well well, first lecture was Productivity and Quality Studies and gosh, a dumb module abt quality. Second lecture was on Financial Management and AHHH...it sure is a KILLER!!! It was accounts... and knowing me, i dislike business stuffs. This was sure a torture to me as i struggle to listen to wat moi lecturer was teaching and catching up with him. afternoon was supposed to go jogging but ended up playing basketball instead coz the track and the hall was booked for the freshmen orientation, sure spoilt moi day... :<

Feeling totally lethargic from these few days of activities... hehe... i was just beginning to enjoy the hols and school had to start, how miraculous life can be.... ZZZzzzZZZ...

[ Monday's Blue ]

Seriously lack of the motivation to work is what i'm experiencing now. hmm.. shall i call some people in hope of finding thrill and probably wash away the boredom i've been wearing for the whole of today ?.. hmm.. ok.. let me call ros.. *picking up the phone*..

(after a long doo.. doo)
Ros : "hello?"
Viz : "hello."
Ros : "wat's up?"
Viz : "Ros, wat's your office number ? so that i dun have to call you on your handphone everytime."
Ros : "Oh.. wait har.. 8.. 6..1.. err..wait har.. "
Viz : "Ros !, how can you not know your office number ? its a very bad reflection of your company u know ?"
Ros : "Oh shut up!.. i just moved today u know ?"
Viz : "Oic, but that's no reason.. wat if i'm a client ??.. Ros.. hehe.."
Ros : "Yeayea.. (follow by the rst of the numbers), so wat's up?"
Viz : "Ros, i'm bored.. "
Ros : "Bastard.. (distracted by other living being in the background).. wait.. "
Viz : (?!?!)
Ros : "wei.. i call you back.. "
Viz : "k.. bye"
(line dead.)

as you can see.. all living being on earth is busy.. that includes my dear Liz, who start her school (late) this afternoon.. hehehe.. ok.. i'm still bored.. hmm.. who shall i call ?.. hmm.. ahh. slacker!!.. he should be awake.. *dialing away.. *

Slacker : "hello ?"
Viz : "hello, (Slacker's real name, SRN).. you are outside har?"
Slacker : "ya.. wat's up"
Viz : "then nothing liao, bye"
Slacker : (?!?!) "har?. wat's up?"
Viz : "nothing, i'm bored"
Slacker : "bastard.. "
Viz : "out wif girlfriend har?"
Slacker : "no lar, where got gf?? .. friends of NTU lar"
Viz : "oh.. ok.. bye then.. "
Slacker : "k. bye"
(line dead)

as you can see.. my boredom has earned two bastards from two different person.. hehehe.. ok.. shall i continue with my list of nuisance calls.. ??.. i really wonder.. hehehe

chill ..

hiyaz.. I'm in sch now.. sighz.. so boring.. initially tot we were going to swim during PE... but instead had a 1 1/2 hr lect 'bout health.... nearly fell asleep.... zzz.... then had a double period...erm.. CHINESE!!! (?!?!?!?!) how more horrible can my morning be?? grr... aniway... to all those who started sch todae... have a great term!!!

i was 'elated' to see the horrible timetable; more than 25 hrs of lessons, 6 hours of breaks in between. this means skool from 9 to 5. gosh, how good can it get from here?!? viz was sweet enuff to tell me its not that bad. he meant well but i've to face it, its hectic!

rules for better grades: 1)plan grades for individual modules 2)focus on the goals 3)work towards it 4)most imptly, pray and have faith in god. haha. crap but its essential for success.

ponder over this quote: i think its really meaningful...
Repentance is to leave the sin
That I had loved before,
And show that I am grieved by it
By doing it no more

[ Something call Sunday ]

as you can see, i'm seriously sufferring from wat's-the-topic-of-the-day for my post.. well.. today is sunday, yes i know, hehe.. but i mean wat else ? ok.. going for church service..k wat else again ?.. hmmm..

last night was a typical night out with the usual gang.. dinner at hans has proven that peach pies were not for us.. nonetheless, we got our fill.. but the empty mind do not know where to embark our presence next... we allow our warped instinct to lead us to Rendervous hotel.. which later proven by the majority that things could have been better.. therefore, TCC is where we decide to pull in our sail.. the price was not extremely friendly but wtf right ? we were tired of moving again and damn.. the place is airconed !.. ordered a cup of cold cocolate which is a cross between the cheap versions of milo and cocolate milk.. the rest ordered shakes.. and some medicine taste-alike stuffs.. hehehe.. we did our fair share scrutinizing outdated FHM.. occasionally playing games of guessing.. and as you can see.. we were bored.. yea.. damn bored.. the night ended early .. well.. due to boredom or tireness.. no one knows.. no one mention.. anyway.. just glad that at least we stll have someone to hang loose with.. :)

and looking back to reality today.. i gonna be late for church .. or am i.. ??.. heheh..