gosh.... moi upper jaws hurt...haha... guess these few days have been laughing too much, can u imagine??? Its such a strain feeling that whether i smile or not, it still hurts... Aniwae, gotta go to SSB again this sun, better enjoy moiself to the fullest before school reopens on Monday. This msg goes to the rest of the members who r in the same plight as me.Okok....feeling tired now but got to check a whole lot of mailz to check first before i sleep... *poofs*

[FTT ... F**k Them Too]

long story about my FTT ... not gonna talk about it. Sighz ... Had a cooling glass of green apple juice specially done by my mum. It was refreshing after a day of tiredness. Bye ... I am gone ...

*yawnz*
I'm rite now in sch, attending the Computer Familiarization Training. Haiz.. i'm damn bored and hungry... i want food i want food!!!
hahhahhhah.... my fren's phone juz rang.. hahahha.. soka's ringtone.. oh now.. the ICT club disease is spreading rapidly...
shit.. gonna ciao!! cya guys!!!

[Waking up ...]


I woke up much earlier than anyone else in the house. Somehow, there is a force to force me out of the bed, went right to the kitchen. Head for the fridge. Open the fridge, and serve myself a glass of orange juice. Gulped it down. I went back to bed after that.

wtf? I just can't believe what I have done when I woke up a second time. Damn ... it is so strange ...

Yea...today was a tour around singapore, practically went from one end to another and it was fun. However, on the verge of falling sick...having sore throat now...prob its the virus from both moi dad and moi mum.... aniwae, was just having some thoughts were on moi mind on the way home juz now... was just thinking that as we grow older, things seems to be getting more complicated unlike when we are kids. Probably it was always complicated but its just that we din understand. When we were young, we can just give the excuse that i still young or some excuses.... but now, our words are of weightage.... People's thinking are just as complez coz each of us is an individual and i m sure that that is alot of accomodation to be made... wellwell, just moi 2 cents worth of thoughts to make this post a little longer?? A quote before i leave " Pot calling kettle black. Pigs calling pork fat " ciaoz.
P/S: Congrats Viz.

[Feeling annoyed and hurt ...]

never ever feel so annoyed and hurt over a dinner. It was supposingly to be a happy-fun dinner treat to some of my friends, though I wasn't prepared to treat so many people. But, thanks to someone for covering the rest. Though I thought 70 was enough. Anyway, that's was not the point I am trying to put across. My kindness and helpfulness was being turned into like irritation to somebody else. I am sure that I mind my words over the dinner, and I gently remind this guy who is disturbing her over the dinner, not to disturb her as she is always being serious over meals. What I got was "Hey, WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM!". I am not trying to be petty, but this is not the first time from her. The kind of "pain" that no one can ever feel, just like a knife being stabbed into your heart. Anybody experience that?

You might be thinking that I am just being over-sensitive, well maybe. But I am really sure that I mind my words. Anyway, f**k it. It's over.

First, must extend my congrats to Viz for getting freedom on the road. Hopefully I am the next one, which sound pretty absurb. Hey man, waiting for your ride ...

I am hurt ...

[ God's Grace ]

The sun was baking yesterday's tarmac when my wheels were riding on it. 1.15pm, i was bagged with yet another test in my life, and this time, a lot of money was involved. my driving instructor guided me along my way to kampong ubi for my second driving test, drove a few rounds around the designated routes, ending up in the driving circuit for the second time in my whole learning phase since Jan this year. anyway, everything went on roughly smooth.

"Ng Ming Chong", i heard my name echoed by a mid-fourties man, a gradiently colored spec bridged over his nose ending at the ears, stoutly short but not overly fat, and it was his white top black bottom uniform that i deduced that he is my tester. we leaded ourselves to the car, exchanged formal pleasantries and drove off.. my first obstacle, deep slope. for those who have experienced in that will know that it require steady pair of legs along with the seamless integration of gear and accelerator. well, got off that one with a slight dip, but got it off anyway.. a right turn was issued and i find myself in the 'S' course.. vigorously contouring the car side mirror with the kerb.. a bit slow, but well, at least i got that off too.. heheh.. next was the crank course. a stupidly angled driving course testing how fast can you turn the steering wheel.. heheh.. the kerb avoided me and so again, one down. the rest of the obstacles when on rather smoothly. and i hit the road after 8 minutes of spinning in the circuit.

Ahhh.. the road is my heaven, somehow, being a private learner, i'm always more comfortable on the road than in the cramped circuit where every car trys to get their wheels in those obstacle. anyway, back to the road.. right turns.. U turns.. left turns.. lane change.. the usual stuffs which i've practised.. and conversation with my tester starts to build up during the 10 minutes i'm on road.. from economic downturn.. PUB bills.. jobs.. to computers.. we hit off quite well that i even pass him a few namecards of mine after he announed i pass the driving test !!.. yeah !!.. i screamed from inside.. my happiness was written across the whole of my face.. paid a fee of 20 bucks after a 45 minutes of antipation and waiting.. i'm now a proud owner of a class 3 driving license... hehehe.. finally !!!.. hehe..

drawing back and review the whole ordeal.. god was on my side yesterday.. the road was sparsely consumed by cars .. no inconsiderate drivers or pedestrians cutting across my path.. no hitting of kerbs.. not tested on E-Brake, Wall.. a easy-going tester.. and may even be blessed with a few deals in computer.. hahahaha.. amen !

[Mix Feelings ...]

Waking up to greet the brand new week, but just as I do that, I am lost in a whole world of love. Entangled I must say, I am just like a small little insect that is being trapped by the spider of love. Argh ...

Another whole week of emptiness before school starts. Other than lessons in the evening, VCDs in the afternoon, guess that life is just as boring as a sotong swimming in the sea. But at least the sotong swims to catch fishes. Damn ... wtf?

Alright, shall seek for food, just like the sotong ...

ohhhhh....my stomach is giving me some problems now... nvm.. shall visit the ladies after this post. It's monday, a brand new week and the last week of my holidays.This last week of holidays will be a busy one. Gonna go for orientation programmes, chalets and gatherings before school reopens. School will be starting next week,got my 1st tertiary bus stamp, and tat's all. Wat shld i prepare for my new sch term???anybody have any suggestion for this blur ger over here???hMMm... was looking through the list of CCAs which my poly is offering.There are soooooo many of them and it's kinda difficult to choose.Gonna think of my commitments outside and my time-table. Life is like tat... u gonna make choices. Guess, tat's about it... will be back posting again and sorry for not posting tat regularly now. Just got my comp fixed and everything is in a mess now. Forgive me if you don't see my post in the next few days.tAke care and miss you guys!

[ Tomorrow Never Dies ]
yeap, finally wrapped up a personal FREE project for my pal, Slackerz, who is obviously not posting very often. hehe. designed a simple layout which he can then explore and edit on his reference.. heheh.. well sometimes i can have some time on my hands and do all these free services.. let me know if u need one too.. hahaha.. i will just asked for a logo to be placed on your first page of your webpage.. :) .. hehehe... look something like this..



.. heheh..so slacker.. u should know wat to do rite ?.. hahaha.. ;) just COPY and PASTE the codes below onto a NOTEPAD and transfer to your HTML.

<a href="http://www.arc.com.sg/vizinity" target="_blank"><img src="http://www.arc.com.sg/vizinity/images/anivizdesigz.gif" width="88" height="31" alt="Viz Design @ Vizinity" border="0"></a>

To all vizinity members.. just a note, if you need paragraphing.. you will not be required to add in those html codes that insert a break. just hit ENTER like the way you do it in MS WORD... :)

So, wat does today's posting got to do with the subject ??.. hmmm..

[1 am ...]


1 am ... and I am still not sleeping ... just cant get to sleep, so I came online. Been tossing a while before I decide to come here. Feeling stressed? Maybe.


All the studious pigs out there must be feeling anxious about first day in school later after their vacation. I had this sheer feeling a few years back. But good grief that I have grown out of that time. Just put on a plaster on my burnt feet. Just don't understand how my skin will peel when I just rubbed them. Plently of corns growing under my toes, which is enough to make and to fill up a bag of popcorns for movie-goers out there. Damn.


As for me, school is scheduling to start in about 1 week time. So what's new? Probably getting a new bag for my new year in school. Hah, sound like a happy little boy going to school with everything new. Just that I don't have to put on uniform.


Gonna continue with my emails and stuffs. Be sure to catch us online here.

hullo, hullo, hullo!!!! Back here posting again... Hmm...went to Sunset Bay today, saw lotsa pple and familiar faces. I very happie...hehe....coz it was so much fun today, much better than the last time i went as there was nothing to see :Þ This week was realli a relaxing week for me, haven experienced this for a long time, realli enjoyed it. Liz> timetable shld be out tml...dun forget to check it and miss you!!! Realli tired now...gotta stone for a while b4 i rest coz i slept at 3+ this morn and it has been a realli long day.... To those who starts school tml, have an early nite rest and all the best for ur tests!!! Take care and tataz.....

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[Missing ...]


no no ... not me again. Was wondering what happened to the rest of the team members where they should be posting at least. Now, just in case their impression of posting disappear from you, the rest of the members, for god sake, start posting. Viz already hinted closing down our posting and turn back like what it is like last time.


Nothing to do ...

[ Evening workouts the best, say researchers ]

CHICAGO - No point in waking up to pump iron in the morning - you're better off working out later in the day.
Two hormones – which build up muscle and burn fat – respond much more strongly to exercise in the evening and night, shows a Chicago University study.
“Cortisol which is involved in fat metabolism and thyrotropin which is important for muscle repair rise sharply at night or in the evening,” said Orfeu Buxton, a researcher.
He was part of the team at the university’s Clinical Research Centre who studies 40 men to see how their bodies responded to exercise at different times of the day.
The study showed that the body’s response to exercise fluctuated depending on the men’s internal body clock, which governs the secretion of hormones.
For example” blood tests showed that men who did one hour of vigorous exercise in the morning, and a group who were resting at the same time produced similar levels of cortisol and thyrotropin.
In contrast, the increased observed in the levels of these hormones in men who did the sane exercise at 7pm and 1 am was greater.
“it’s too soon to say whether one time is better than another for exercising, but we were very surprised at the large variation in hormonal response depending on the time of the day,” said Mr Buxton.
Previous studies have suggested that morning exercise was best for weight loss.

( watever )

[bloop bloop ...]


that's the sound of a fish for your information. And you are right again, I am back from my short trip. I must say it was really a relaxation one though the journey was long and tiring. But nevertheless, the feeling was great with my 2 "buddies", who went thru "perspire" and "shit" with me. hahahaha ... well ... you all must be wondering what's that "perspire" and "shit" all about. I shall share with you people some of it frm my trip.


Well, this trip is basically for us to relax, like what I have mentioned. Looking for the best food in that island and ended up eating the not-that-tasty-food is like "shit". hehehe. It was some sort of experience to us. Really, at times, looks really show how good the food is - ya ... at times. First night in that tiny island, which is no larger that half of Singapore, we went around one of the part of that island to look for the best food. 3 restaurants we went, ironically, it was just nice from the worst to the best. hahaha, with each one getting more and more scandalous and romantic. Not going to tell you guys what we had, in case you are starting to drool in front of your monitor. Just good food, I must say. BBQ kampong chicken, Pineapple Fried Rice ... woh woh ... enough enough ... a bit too much. hehehe ... Went to a pub by the beach before we head back to our house.


Not much of activities on the 2nd day of the trip, except forced to sunbath at the beach. Why? The water was rather choppy for us to snokel and ended up cuts here and there by the rocks. Our Mrs. Shy-Pig-To-Be was complaining that the place that we snokel was rather a bad experience because she was carasss by some weird looking seaweeds. Hah ... Well, I guess it was not worth the money that we paid for it. At least we tried, what about you? *grin*

Of course our last night at that island, we have the scupulous dinner that we can ever had in that island. Seafood lar! And of course some other dishes. The so-call-the most hip pub in that island is our next stop after dinner, comparing to the pub that we went on the first night, it was much better and with better music. We were thinking whether is it the owner who sang those songs in the first pub that we went ... a big question mark "?". SPTB was complaining the huge quantity of burgers that I took during our trip. hahaha .. to be exact - 8 burgers. That's a scary figure right? Well, the burgers were great, which I took in one almost after every meal we had.


It was sad to leave that beautiful place, good thing must come to an end eventually. So we accepted the fact, and decided to shop till our wallet run dry. *looking at myself* ... a bit burnt and red ... but was good ... Sorry for not asking the rest to come ... it is a bit difficult to coordinate this trip if the group gets big. You know and understand lah.


Alright, gonna munch on some of the goodies that I bought back ...
[Long post ... that's why have to split into 2 ...]

[ Friday ? Friday ]

Wearily, I tore myself away from my bed reluctantly when my nokia screamed the hour at me this morning. I dragged my feet across the living room to the kitchen for a wash up.. as I was sleepily brushing my array of teeth, I was thinking to myself, “how I wish today is Friday, sigh..” .. and so the process of rinsing and washing continues.. till.. out of any apparent reason.. in my own brink of consciousness, it hit me right in my face that today IS Friday !!.. *urgh* .. wat the fuck?!.. I dazed for a moment, scanned through the calendar to affirm the fact that today IS really Friday.. heheh.. and of cos, that you can already guess and experiencing, yes, today is Friday. *bish* !!

And so.. I’m happy mushroom now, knowing that its TGIF is here.. work dun seems to be such a chore anymore.. hehehe.. oh yes, to my friend occy, shake out of the curse and get well dude !! enjoy !!

(wat the fuck with friday anyway?)

Its thursday; the monotony of life still goes on. what about you, zoc? haven't contacted you for quite sometime. still doing fine? i'm sure so. life will be a turmoil once school reopens. looked through the coming semesters module.. it totally suxx. although i'm done with biz law, the 6 new modules are dull. who cares now? worries come later.

guess today is the 1st or 15th of the lunar calendar, devotees are marking their offerings. the burning of the 'paper' just piss me off. every breathe i inhale is accompanied by the smoke.

*looking ard my room* soooooo messy. nah, don't expect me to clear up cos i hate dust. the effects are too painful for me. yawning again. back to dreamland or get a life? life just stale away when u have no money.

[ Busy ]

After my constant whining of complains against the insipid life I’m leading recently. God finally decided to intervene and entwine my fate a little.. hehe.. yes, I’m finally getting on the road.. riding a faster pace and getting busier each day. Not that I’m complaining again.. but I’m in fact HAPPY !!.. ok.. kill me to those slackerz out there.. hehe.. yup.. well.. just hope that everything will go on well..

And its time again to get hectic with RC stuffs too.. lotsa things to catch up and take control.. endure !!.. a few weeks more will see the light of PO and then hey!! Holidays !!.. haha.. probably plan a mountain climbing trip during that time.. hehe.. which the event was already postponed for months. Hahaha..

[ What ? ]

yes, i know i've missed my post yesterday.. well.. sitting in my office again.. wondering wat is the fuck wrong with the PIII that i was trying to get it up yesterday.. it just goes on "beep beep... beep beep".. no display.. no weird moaning.. just "beep beep... beep beep".. maybe out of its own fantasy.. it behaves like a over grown pager.. damn!!.. will screw it later .. *armed with spanner and screwdriver* ..

[The lava returns ...]


long life for lava *bow bow* ... alright ... I am back from my ever longest camp this holiday. Before you catch a wink for the day, read on.


Right, probably after reading this message, I will be away again. Will be on my short trip tomorrow. So be good of course. Feeling pretty tired after the camp, but had a good sleep today. Things went on smoothly ...


Short post for this ... again. I suppose every time I came back, it is like always a short post to keep you guys update. Next one, I promise. Before I end this post abruptly, I just want to say "Take care everybody out there", of course, I miss her ...

....................................

hello *oink oink*...promised my bro that i wun stay long...so juz a few sec...precious..secs...to wish everyone well and take care! =)

[ Whiskey in the Jar ]

Oh yea.. it rocks!!!.. kick ass.. though its not some new song.. it rocks the speaker juice out of my Midiland 4050 .. hehehe.. yea.. screwing my speakers and neighbours with this piece of song from Metallica, "Whiskey in theJar".. and yea.. following up on the song list is "One" .. by the same old band.. oh boy.. listening to the every picking of the electric guitar sent the morning perk through my stupor brain.. heheh.. yoo yea.. tokking about guitar.. it has be months and seems like years that i've touched my guitar.. maybe becuase my guitar is no longer able to serve the purpose ?.. the frets were too shallow.. strings too hard.. ok.. am i giving excuses?? .. heheh.. the thought of buying a new guitar has lingered in my mind for a few years.. but failed to surface as reality.. hahaha.. oh no.. listening to the song just rekindler my upmost graving in buying one now.. ahhh!!!!...

*calming the fucking down*

holy shit !!!.. i'm late for my church !!.. Liz goinna kill me.. .

helloOo...it's the 2nd day of camp and everything was quite alrite.Juz finished FitnessYoga and breakfast.The weather isn't nice today... it's raining meowmeow and woof woof.Well, i better get going now b4 the rest of the campers ciaoz w/o me.Take care dudes and i will be back on mon.Adios!!!

was just looking at the photos that viz just put on the graphiz....at here i m!!! Hm...call me toot or something, din knoe that each slide had a few photos....hehe.... Hey Viz, the photos were nice but me dun have it (which i want :>)...maybe can pass the negatives over then i develop?? Well well, have been bz these few days slacking, meetin up with lotsa pple and of course not forgetting friend that just went for their manhood training=army... hm, nothing much these days except that the fear of school reopening's kept haunting moi mind......... sigh, shall just make the best out of it??!!?? Tataz.....

[ My Pie Posted ]

hehe.. oh yes, maybe that's y i have nothing to post recently.. hehe.. the disappearance of my cutie pie Liz.. hahaha.. anyway, guess that the post below will be her complimentary post again.. haha.. another length of time before the next one.. hehehe.. din went to work this morning.. end up in some Linux Seminar.. enriching.. and tempting in enrolling for the courses.. only if the monetary element can be satisfy first.. hahaha.. shall see about that.. hehehe

TGIF.. was just wondering if there's any purpose in rejoicing.. err.. *thinking*.. Nope !.. it just another day to lead through the weekends and blast into the weekdays again.. heheh.. ok.. taking a look around me.. there's tons of work to be done... and so.. hey!!.. wat the fuck am i doing here ?!??!..

yes, i've neglected this awesome place. the sheer weariness of not moving my fingers and generating my thoughts into black and white. that halted all posts from me. no one will yearn my every little post anyway, not like lava. haha. anyway, schools reopening in a few weeks time. right now, i'm gonna make the full use of what i have now. you know making full use of holidays conflicted the interest of cost saving. when you wanna play to the fullest you have to indulge to great spendings. how to archive both? anyway free to enlighten me?

[Just a note ...]


things doing well for me ... and I am off for my next camp again ... longest of all the camps I had this time. Well, don't miss me, which I doubt anyone will do that. Once camp is over, I will be away for a short trip. Probably you will only get to see my post at least 1 1/2 weeks from now. Don't be sad.


Seem that Occy is happy once again. With a 20 GB monster boosting his ego, that should keep him happy for a while, at least. Hey dude, will be asking you guys out after my trip for a small celebration for my birthday.


Looking at my schedule, I should be off now. One more minute, and my driver will be probably nagging at me. Eve, sorry for not answering your calls and I didn't want to call back ... *door bang*

[ damn ! ]

I've been trying to come up with something clever for the post.. but my juice just failed me. and that sucks !!.. i've been sitting down here for the past few hours.. typing.. backspacing.. typing and backspacing.. and the limited interllect of mine just wouldn't budge. *sigh*.. i give up.. think its time for me to start reading some books again.. hehehe..hmm.. it has been quite a while since i close my last book shut.. ahhh!!!..

Recently, my life is just too flat.. too bland.. nothing interest me.. nothing interested in me.. i'm left alone in the vasity of Vizinity.. posting alone.. i'm bored ? tired ? deranged ? disturbed ? depressed ?.. ah.. i dunno !! maybe i'm just plain typing without sense..

hmm.. for those who do not know.. Graphiz has additional of 6 pictures.. not a lot but hey!! at least my butt moved.. heheh.. will be digging up more into the history... maybe my childhood ?? or should i dig into the future ?.. err.. i really have no idea wat the fuck is this post about .. u know ?? har ??.. u know ?? wat ?? say louder ??..

*AHHAHAHHhhhhhhhhh*

(last known information about Viz.. dragged away by the nurses and doctors from Woodbridge.)

heyoz......oink oink oink oinkoinkoinkoinkoink.....oinkoink.....oink oink....oink......hihihi....<-- different forms of pig language to say hi..haha... *feeling boh-liaoz* coz i becoming insane due to the loads of work that i hav to do everyday!!!..foolish me went to join STAR program..and now..i gotta do so much stuffs..writing lab reports..meeting up with my mentor at IMCB...haven even started with my common tests revision...how i wish i'm some genius..so that i dun have to worry for not studying...and at least pass my tests...sobsob...okok how's everyone? my hols is totally burnt...and guess wat..today is the first day of the hols that i'm actually at home for the whole day..i dun hav to go anywhere..felt so happy...then best thing is .the whole house belongs to me temporarily for these 2 days coz my whole family is at malaysia..except poor me =(. So i'm home alone for 2 days..and 3 days if tomorrow is included....consolation is at least i can do my work peacefully and hav the whole big TV to myself....hehehehe...and computer as well..hiak hiak...okok i betta go off to rush my lab reports...*sigh* *sianz*...tata...take care yah everyone!!

[My thoughts...]
Sitting on the comfortable green arm chair, i look ard, feeling happy, yet sad,The office,the collegues,the computer, the desk, the air-con,the pantry,etc... tat i spent 111 days wif, will soon be history.Five hours later, will be the usual time for me to knock off.But, everything seems different today.I wun be going back anymore... and tat marks the end of my first job, the longest temp ger in D-Link Intl.Shld i be happy tat everything is over???or shld i be sad cos i wun be seeing them anymore.Well, i shall leave it to my heart.Everything has a start, and an end.Once it's over, life will still have to move on and tat will be the beginning of another journey,my new sch life.

[ Looking Back ]

15 minutes countdown to the day's work in the office. Life has been merciful on me today.. nothing dramatic staged.. nothing is done .. just plain boring stuffs around the desk.. really wonder how long can i keep the job.. heheh.. will be going for a jog later on in the evening.. and the night will be delegated to Vizinity.. screwing my beloved scanner to give birth to some pictures to be placed on Vizinity.. heheh.. and before you fools go "finally.. ", the avaliability of the pictures will highly depend on my butt, if it really moves that it.. hehehe.. occy will be able to prove that point.. (sorry dude.. still trying to find the photos.. *ouch*)

Really cant find a topic to crap about recently.. life is just too bland, someone inject some spice in me!!.. surprise me !!.. i cant take it anymore !! .. *calmed the fuck down* .. ok, let me flip through some useless news from the press and crap about it tomolo.. but then again.. my butt .. chill..

[Driving on the highway ...]


Driven me back to my comfortable bed after a series of 'highway' in camp. Right, just got back frm another camp. Tiring but fun camp. Not to mention, the food was great. Anyway, me recuperating now for the next camp, which will be the longest in this holiday - 5 days 4 nights. It is basic courtesy to come online here to inform you guys that I am still alive. Good grief, thanks occy for the encouragment SMS. Right man, I will just f**k it and get on with life. I will be on a trip for next 3 days after the camp, trying to tire myself out and get away from reality for a while. So don't miss it ... which I doubt ...


Reality has forced me to this end. I am not surprised to see more people jumping off their flats. I am positively sure of that. Frankly speaking, my life seem to have change when someone in my life suddenly show concern for me, who constantly check on me to see whether I am alright. Starting, I was scare that my intution was wrong, which turn out to be other way. Being trapped between 2 'stones', I am just afraid. Hope that time will bestow me the daylight thru the tunnel of love.


Last message before I left this miserable place for a while. Time changes a person, but for me, it does, but not my heart. Though the feeling maybe getting weaker, but I tell myself to hold on till the end ...

movies on dino??????? heehee.... my cousins!!!!!! *grinz*....

hi guyz!!It's monday again...the day which i hate.. cos it marks the starting day of work for the week... *yawnz* I'm trying very hard to keep myself awake... though i went to the loo once in a while,to catch some winks.*yawnz*... Zombie, tat's the word to descriibe me now.No matter where i am now, i can juz fell asleep.Sleep is the most impt thingy in my life now.Yesh!!I need to sleep!!!haiz.. the camp was a good learning experience for me,though there r lotsa chores to do, but... its good!I'm a few kg lighter now.. and my pants r lose.. yeay!!tat's a good piece of news for me.Today will be a long day again, cos i will be joining my bunch of poly frens for steamboat... juz hope tat i dun fell asleep while eating..like wat i did when i was sms-ing last nite.*yawnz*... had my lunch, so it's time to catch a few winks b4 my lunch break ends.Take care dudes!i'll be back.. tomorrow.. or the day after tomorrow.

had 12 hrs of sleep and yet i m still tired...looking at moi window outside, its raining, maybe i shall go back and hirbernate again....hm...watched a movie "Shrek" last nite .. something light-hearted and farnee... if you find that you life have been down and haven realli been laughing, probably this is the show!!! Did you notice something??? The movies tat are coming out soon, 2 of them are on dinosaurs...hm....

[ yawn.. ]

its after a three day two night camp that i'm sitting down here in my office again.. humming vibrato from the computers and the growling of photocopy/fax machine make my monday even more blue than any other.. i'm tired.. dead beaten.. losing my concenration through the yawnings by the minute.. constant pounding within my head which is seriously sending me into a state of unwilling-to-work. not to mention the ever so cold aircon reminding me that i should be hibernating.

anyway.. a fulfilling camp indeed.. i mean.. at least i've tried a new recipe this year during the BBQ night.. chicken in orange.. dun really enjoy the taste but at least it was edible.. haha.. some instructors tell me is not bad.. haha.. proabably dun wan to hurt my feelings but hurting their taste buds.. hahaha.. hmm.. will be coming up with other creative way of cooking.. check it out soon in SWOC.. heheh..

this camp gained a new experience, that is being a judge for a footdrill competition.. has always been in the planning phase of it.. but never as a judge.. oh well.. its just not as breezy as wat i used to think.. got 'bullied' the the other two judges to present the judges comment.. a breath-taking sight from the elevated platform.. sent the ice down my spine.. but oh well.. din do it too bad afterall .. hahaha.. indeed an experience..

thanx shirley for signing vizinity guestbook.. impressed that you have your own journal running.. will try to kick my butt moving by adding your URL in the links.. hehehe.. :) ..

yaberyaberdoo !! ..

[I am back in 2 piece ...]


seeing this message from me ... you could have guess correctly that I have just returned from my camp. Yes, you are right. This 4 days 3 nights camp really gets me away from the 'real' world for a while. I don't even think about my Internet, E-mail and even her. I was left to stun and adjust to my original life when I break camp. The feeling was great. Somehow, all of a sudden, I don't even know where am I. Tongue-twisted when the taxi-driver ask me where I wanted to go, I was like "err ...". Anyway, glad that I was away for camp, it just make my body and mind feel more relaxed. But not after the camp, as 52 emails bestowed me. Argh.


Also, upon reading this post, I will be leaving for my next 4 days 3 nights camp, which it is gonna be more stressful and tiring. This camp requires my full attention and focus, of course not to mention alertness. It will be good for me ...


Wonder how Eve is getting on. Though sometime during my camp got her occasionally SMS, well I guess she is doing fine. She always doing fine, doesn't she? Maybe not with my calls and SMS.


Anyway, back to the topic "I am back in 2 piece ...". Not really 2 piece, just that I am burnt, with some skins dangling around my body. hahahaha ... be good all, I am leaving ...

[ Its DONE !! ]

Yes !.. finally.. after a few days of work.. the TD Cybersite is done !.. for those willing to check out the design and stuffs.. please click at the "TD Cybersite" at the beginning of this sentence.. hehe.. yes idiot.. you missed it !.. hehehe..

Right.. after i got that working.. everything seems to slow down.. today, my last day of work for the week.. will be going for my driving lesson.. and tokking abt that.. my first lesson after my return from taiwan was a scary one.. yes.. not as disastrous as you think.. just rusty.. yup.. should be getting day by day.

Tomolo marks the start of a 3D2N camp over at Kheng Cheng Pri.. and my bags are not packed yet.. and really salute those who are staying overnite in HQ.. especially people like Slacker.. hahaha.. you guys got the power of transport.. hahaha.. let you legs carry you..

Ok.. this should get slacker to post… hahah..

[ Web Web Web ]


Just got my hands off the eye straining web designing.. *phew*.. giving a new face to TD website probably in the next few days.. once i got the details up and ready.. as for vizinity.. if i can think of anything better than this design.. probably i will try.. its just too time consuming.. hehehe.. paitence is the word


anyway, back to today.. nothing much to complain except the weather.. the day is banged with strong wind and dark clouds that refuse to make themselves worth it.. the weather is still dry.. saw some review on Office XP.. hmm.. much of it are positive ones.. let's hope that microsoft for one.. come up with something more stable and useful.. heheh.. then again.. its only barely for users to start using Office 2000.. really wonder how many people are willing to upgrade to office XP.


so much for computers.. hmm.. think i shall waving my banner for those members who are not posting.. WAKE UP !!

hahaha.....looks like the post will be dominated by me these 2 days....hm... moi right butt still hurts from yesterday's hike??? sigh...it must have been the many flights of steps but too bad, my right side of the body being the dorminant side of moi whole body...just hope for the better...hm, its a wet weather today, for those who are going out later, better bring an umbrella if not, get wet loh...hehe...ok lah, think shall leave this post a short one...buoiz

*yawn*...realli exhausted after a whole day of work out and meeting....*yawn* finally can get moiself settled down properly and start posting...hehe. These few days gotta meet so many pple and do some other stuffs that it seems that 24 hrs is not enough for me...trying to accomodate each other and then squeezing form one schedule to another....sigh...if all these hrs are chalked up and i m paid...shld be richer by when this holidays end?? Hahaha... *wishful thinking* tml shld be at home resting for the day...watch a little tv n will have to be out coz a friend seems to be in need.....when i called him at 2+ am this morning after wierd poems were sms-ed to me...he started crying...gosh, never heard a guy crying so badly b4....sigh.... arrgghhh...looking at moi schedule next week, seems a little packed already somehow....sigh.....however, so many stuffs are not confirmed yet..grrrr....Aniwae, gotta rush to moi 'deer' bed now....can hear it calling liaoz...tataz

[ crap .. dun read ]



I mean, people like you and me just cant fight that curiousity.. the more a notice says, "No", the more we will like to find out.. same goes for gossips.. the more damaging the news, the further it will spread. i do not know why i picked such a dry topic to talk about.. probably i'm bored. yes, bored in the office, not that i have nothing to do.. just that i schedule them nicely.. hehehe..



Really wonder where the rest of vizinity went.. anyway, its not a problem anymore.. huh! .. heheh.. has been taking my own initiative and exercising quite a bit for the past one week.. probably its due to the fact that i soon will not be able to see little brother when i pee !!? yea.. it can be quite a motivation element.. hahah..



hmm.. applied leave on this friday due to some RC camp.. hehe.. cant wait to get my hands on those cadets.. hehehe.. hahaha.. opps !!.. ;) hmm.. gonna miss my Liz for those few days.. hmm.. why even my Liz is not posting ??!..



Anyway, new photos coming up real soon.. after i kick the teeth out of photoshop.. .

[ Colored Hair and future ]


Yes, I know I know, its kinda hard for me to make that decision especially it will cost me 80 cold hard bucks for me to get it dyed. But i did it anyway.. now, crowned with deep chestnut colored hair.. armed with my loud shades, *ahem*.. another punk has been born.. hahaha.. tomolo shall face the ultimate test in office where tradition of conservative is very much treasured and valued.. hahaha.. well.. its MY hair that matters.. hahaha..


Have been thinking about my future a lot lately.. maybe my age is gently reminding me to make something out of myself before it ripped off everything that can make it possible.. at the age of 24 ( i think) wandering in the vast arena of the competitive IT industry with a pathetic diploma.. desperately pursuing an advance dip in computer studies.. dun seems to be a hot light that is able to shine far.. have i been wasting my life drinking away at pubs or coffee houses ?.. have i put enough effort and determination into my studies ? does the word diligence and productive mean anything to me ? these are just some questions that slipped themselves into my conscious state haunting me everyday.. i dun regard myself as an under achiever (non-otherwise).. but it seems that there are more that can be done to improve on my current plight, so as to speak. there are so much more in life that worth so much more to explore, but 24hrs clock is just no enough to squeeze everything in ... it just so virtually impossible to possess the ability to enjoy extreme success in both career and maintaining good relationship with those around you.. friends and family..


should i take one step at a time ?? or did i just took a paranoid pill which i assume will go away soon ?.. time will tell..

WooOoooOOOAAAhhhh..........had 14+ hrs of sleep yesterday nite...just woke up at around 2+ pm in the noon?? Hehehe...think i deserved it lah...has been kinda lacking of a good sleep and finally had one last nite....Hm...yesterday was a nite at Orchard and gosh.... A warning to those out there who hates crowd and stuffs, now that the Great Singapore Sales is on, if you have got nothing to buy, maybe it wun be a good idea that you step into town on weekend's nite... Moi friend and i were like struggling in town, trying to wait for the bus but it didn't came...and whenever each bus came, pple will go *poom* at u and u will just be startled at that moment. Wonder y they dun have the courtesy to say ,"Excuse me." Yeayea, of course this dun imply to all Sinagporeans but at least to a certain amount of percentage. Hm... pig> well, no matter how hard times are but i know you are strong enough to get over it. Law> nothing much nothing less but to just give you a *pat*......tataz

[Lost soul ...]


do give me a pat on my shoulder if you can. it is not easy for me to decide to come back here. Will be away for my 1st camp this month. Gonna book in soon. It is gonna be a life-get-away camp. I will be putting everything behind, and focus my whole mind in this camp. I know it is difficult to get away from reality, but I shall try. Somethings are meant to forget, while somethings are meant to stay.


anyway, thanks for the emails, sms and messages, to find out how am I or console me. Really appreciate that. A big thank you to you before I end this post and leave this miserable and sad place. *kiss* ... a kiss goodbye

oops...supposed to be 3rd of june...alamak wat's happening to me...............

hihi everyone...it's 1st june! Almost half of the year has passed... realised that this is the only year where i really slacked in my sch work for half of the year...Still in the STRESSED mode though sch hols... coz of the events that i gotta plan and execute and catching up with my sch work which has been neglected for quite a while. The "used-to-be-guai1" me has now become one of those notti students who skips lectures and tutorials...hehee...hopefullly i dun fail my common tests!! *CHOIZ* Quite sad for the moment coz i accidentally broke a necklace..dun noe how come..too clumsy i guess..or is it the quality too low. Then at this critical point of time when i need to do so much things that i really hope to get some encouragement and support from my parents which any other parents wld giv their child...i received something not so pleasant from them instead...*sobsob*...there are juz so many ups and downs in life...but mine happened to be one with more downs than ups... :l *oinkz*

[ Yawn ! ]


Waking up at 7.30am on a Sat morning is the worse thing that can happen. Sat is the only day within the week that i acn sleep like a log without having to worry whether the alarm of HP will ring. But my supreme efficient pyscho clock just refuse to understand that. damn! ..


What's installed on this pitiful \ly short Saturday for me ? besides the normal RC stuffs.. probably be some makan or pool session again. hahaha..life in singapore.. sigh. dun have to eleborate further rite? with the movie tickets priced at $8.50.. which i seriously wonder why ?? but one thing for sure is that it will be quite a while before i watch movie again.


hmm.. nothing much going through my mind early this morning.. dun even know why i post. . ciao !