i will be hang to death to let viz know that i'm actually posting instead of spending the valuable time on my studies when i'm already behind time! well, exams is three weeks away and i'm not any quarterly prepared for them. wish me luck for 5 examination subjects out of 6. just handed up two heavy projects this week and was awarded with a return of two. *freak* is this exchanging of the done projects with undone ones? sometimes i really wonder if all these projects are so neccesary.. do we really benefit from them? who knows. do i bother with the insights of these work? well, there's no point interogating for win or lose, i have to accomplish all of them. ok the rest, please study hard and take care of yourself. studying S14(3) SGA, Teheran-Europe v. Belton Tractors Ltd(1968)

[ I'm back ]


yes.. the dude is back.. and wat's up ?!.. blogger was down for upgrading.. and that explain my disappearance from post.. hehehe.. hmm.. Sat morning.. it kinda weird for me to post at this time as most often than not.. i would be either sleep or out on the streets. wandering.. hahah.. hmm.. there's red cross today.. and i've decided that i should take a break or so.. so. i excused myself. hehe... good luck and have fun to those attend today's training..

*stretch... * .. ah.. it has been a long time since i've slept like last night.. how fortunate to be able to sleep till your body decides that its to much and wake up ?.. hehehe.. to me.. sleeping has been removed from my entitlement and turns into a privilege.. life is busy and always on the move.. there's no time to do almost any other thing if committments haev to be buttered across the whole surface of my life.. to those whom i may have neglected.. take care dudes.. i will be back.. :)

[Toxic in our body? ... wtf? ... yeah yeah]


well ... thanks Dan for the advertisment ... well ... don't think I will get a bottle frm you now ... cos I have been clearing my stomach ... and all the dirts around my body ... between my toes ... behind my ears ... blar blar blar ... well ... heard that it is quite expensive ... hehe ... see how lar ... if it really works ... I will get from you ... but looking at my budget now ... that's another story ... sorry dude! can't support you now ... I will try to pass around the message ...


[Wonder! ... Alice in the Wonderland]


well ... it was really a surprise for me today ... Eve called me and asked me out in the afternoon ... first time ... oh my gosh ... i was stunned ... hehe ... went with her to watch a movie ... even with her friend ... it is still okie ... i don't mind ... well ... after the movie ... her friend leave for another friend to Suntec ... so only left the 2 of us ... went to get a drink for ourself after the movie ... and sit in the Lucky Plaza for a while ... chatting anything under the sun ... asking each other how we are doing ... and so on ... before we went down the road to Hereen and Centre Point ... before we decided to find a place to sit down and talk ... well ... ended up in Istana Park ... hahaha ... you all must be thinking something else ... well ... we just sat at one of the parapet ... just beside the pool of water ... and talk again ... well ... we were there for almost 2 hrs ... i think more than ... well only the place just before 10.45 ... hehehe ... talking about my pass relationships ... when i was young and quite a lot of things ... and she was laughing all the time ... well ... somehow I just felt that the feeling between us is different ... not that tense up anymore ... able to share with each other our feelings ...


well ... talking about relationship ... suddenly she just brought up about us ... well ... not gonna talk too much about it ... cos it is between us ... well ... just told her that ... I am a straightforward person ... and that's why I let her know my feelings for her the last time ... well ... she knew it all along ... so I told her ... if I really have the chance ... the chance will surely come ... and told her that time will change for the both of us ... well ... I was really different after that ... let out all my whatever I have got to say ... hahaha ... sounds corny ... I think she understood how I felt for her ...


[Chance for the both of us?]


of course I will not rule out whether I have chance to be together ... well ... I will just let nature take its course ... and moreover she is just not ready for one ... cos she told me that she is not too sure at times ... well ... true enough ... we are still young ... it is always good to stay at our current status - close friends ... and good friends too ... once a while call each other ... i think that's very sweet already ... well ... she still sometime don't want me to send her to her doorsteps ... I understand ... anyway she assure me that she will be safe though the time is already 11 plus ...


well ... just now after she left ... I called her ... well ... I picked up enough courage to call you to tell you that I still you .... hahaha ... when she picked up the phone ... I just become speechless ... and say "take care" instead ... hahaha ... i think she is still laughing ... <|> is that part of courtship? ... hehehe ... I think I will not be able to sleep later ... hehehehe


[Who's Eve btw? ...]


alright ... she saw the posts that I have wrote ... and felt that some time it was too mushy ... well ... I will try not to post too much about her ... and moreover ... the sweet moments ... should only be shared between the both of us ... I think I agree with her ... not to talk too much about the both of us ... hahaha ... until she gets more comfortable ... only my close friends who knows me by lava ... may only know who is Eve ... if you are more observant ... well ... so far I wasn't with her when my other friends are around ... so not too bad ... cos she want to be like a lost soul ... hmm ... something similiar to Liz <|> well ... good news to share with u all is that she got into a local college ... congrats dear! hehehe ... opps ... not suppose to be mushy here ... hahaha ... okok *slap my face* ... well ... one more thing!!! no matter what happened ... Eve, I will still love you ... :) "I will be loving you forever ... deep inside my heart you live ... "

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Ok, hehe.. my dear Liz finally posted.. hehe.. out of her stressful moments under the tons of notes.. she wrote a post that crossed between a complain letter and a letter of love.. (not loveletter har..) hehehe.. hmm.. this is one of the poorest anniversary we celebrated... hehe.. no good food.. no movies.. no presents.. hehe.. maybe all those are not that important anymore.. hehehe.. hmm.. as for sports.. no problem.. hehehe.. save money also .. hahah..


hmm.. the recent weather has been rather APR.. mmm.. in the monring, the sun would shy as the sky moisted the soil.. afternoon will be a blazing experience from the scrotching sun as the arrows of rays baked the surface of the earth... the night would be warm and humid.. making impossible to sleep without fan or my aircon on.. hehehe.. right.. think i should get back to work and format some computers.. hehehe..

viz who complains that i'm not expressive enough, now show you what i can express... happy anniversary(won't mention how many months or years to give us room of privacy). yeah, and thanks for being there when i needed you most and thanks for letting me now how irritating you could get when i didn't need you. haha! expressive enough? expressive in the wrong way huh? ok lah, really appreciate your support for all my projects especially when you actually stayed up to help me although many a times you doze off leaving me working diligently. sometimes understandable but sometimes not. cos u never fail to doze off! haha. and taking time off from work to help me in my project more than my grp mates do that i feel the urge to include your name down in my group contribution list but i can't. and and and..(cracking the stress brain who's having test tomm but not yet 100% prepared).able to provide that big heart for me to distress when i feel stress gets beyond me. thanks for being as active and spontaneous(in sports lah. what do you think?!?) as i wanted to get. may we continue this kind of lifestyle rather than slacking like most couples do(watch movie, shop). ok its getting too long and i don't want to boast the ego man, viz. goodnight guys and gonez for studying now...

[Sukiyaki ...]


untouchable memory ... this song is a very sad song ... well ... not gonna continue to sing ... well ... just happened that I am listening to it ... okie ... so what's up? back for the 2nd time for the day ... rarely you can find me doing this ... so I guess you are in LUCK! ... well ... for some of you ... who have showed concern ... thanks ... I am a bit much better now ... at least I can think properly now ... :) thanks for the encouragement emails and cards ... :)


[Princess Eve just woke up the toad ... and turn into a prince ...]


you must be thinking that I am the toad ... hahaha ... no lar ... can't think of anything ... so just put that in ... well ... she called ... chatted with her for 1 hr plus ... you make my day ... light up my day ... you gave me hope ... sometime I just don't understand ... never mind ... I don't even understand what I am talking about ...


ok ... better get back to my work ... thanks dear for calling me ... :) *muackz* ... well ... sound mushy ... but thanks for everything

[Nightmares ... and worse of all ...]


my nightmares will come approaching in 2 days time ... don't ask me why ... I am really sadden by it .. more sch work are piling ... and things don't seem to get on smoothly ... but my tears do ... without fail ... trying hard to control my emotions for these few days ... trying to hide away from my friends ... that's why some of you all might have notice my mood swings ... feel very bad for neglecting you people ... especially my classmates ... who are busy doing projects ... while I trying to solve my problems ... problem with a "s" ... that's make it more than 1 ... can I put more "s" behind? well ... if I were to do that ... I have actually failed my english ...


wonder how's Eve is getting on ... last see her over the weekend ... and I miss her again ... some how I felt it is quite true that when one is down ... you tend to feel more lonely ... especially when things go wrong all the time ... probably I need some attention ... that's why I could have over do it ... sorry dear ... *muackz* ...


[Simply dark rings goes with eye ... ]


well ... dark eye bags has been spreading to the rest of my face ... okie now ... that's a bit Exaggerating ... well ... have been sleeping late and woek up early almost every day ... sighz ... well ... you might be wondering ... could be that I can't sleep because I have a lot of problems to solve ... well .. part of it is correct ... but most importantly ... I have no choice ... just got tonnes of things to do ... and waiting for my attention ...


think I better get back to my class ... just finish burning my CD ... South Park Season 3 ... completed Seasons 3 and 4 ... soon gonna complete the rest ... okie ... while you guys continue to read the post ... me got to go ...

[Nightmares ... and worse of all ...]


my nightmares will come approaching in 2 days time ... don't ask me why ... I am really sadden by it .. more sch work are piling ... and things don't seem to get on smoothly ... but my tears do ... without fail ... trying hard to control my emotions for these few days ... trying to hide away from my friends ... that's why some of you all might have notice my mood swings ... feel very bad for neglecting you people ... especially my classmates ... who are busy doing projects ... while I trying to solve my problems ... problem with a "s" ... that's make it more than 1 ... can I put more "s" behind? well ... if I were to do that ... I have actually failed my english ...


wonder how's Eve is getting on ... last see her over the weekend ... and I miss her again ... some how I felt it is quite true that when one is down ... you tend to feel more lonely ... especially when things go wrong all the time ... probably I need some attention ... that's why I could have over do it ... sorry dear ... *muackz* ...


[Simply dark rings goes with eye ... ]


well ... dark eye bags has been spreading to the rest of my face ... okie now ... that's a bit Exaggerating ... well ... have been sleeping late and woek up early almost every day ... sighz ... well ... you might be wondering ... could be that I can't sleep because I have a lot of problems to solve ... well .. part of it is correct ... but most importantly ... I have no choice ... just got tonnes of things to do ... and waiting for my attention ...


think I better get back to my class ... just finish burning my CD ... South Park Season 3 ... completed Seasons 3 and 4 ... soon gonna complete the rest ... okie ... why you guys continue to read the post ... me got to go ...

hey my heart's thumping rapidly. in a few hours time, i will be having my presentation for oral communication. urgh.. now cooking some instant noodles for brunch. and after my last meal before going school, i will have to practise again and again. its only a five mins speech and i can't help it but to use more than the 5mins. sigh.. sorry, haven't been posting. real busy. exams coming and i seem to have stopped studying for more than 1.5weeks. worried, stress and what esle?

yup!!!starhub's customer service reali sux!!!i onli finally get to call thru the service hotline 2 days later after numerous tries and all the operator told me were craps...and duh!!!i ended up calling them again and waited for a day b4 i get to speak to the operator again...damm!!!wat are the operators doing??can't they juz pick up the call???sighz..wasted all my money and time...arghz......when will they improve their services???

pig>>thanx alot!!!sweet dreams for me tonitez..heheh...hopefully!

[ starhub sucks! ]



yea.. not that i hate the connection .. at least not yet.. but its the fucking service they provide.. ok.. the story goes like this, my dad had his handphone swimming and of cos, as a son.. i volunteered to get it to the service centre and see if any form of revivial the poor device.. so.. i'ev made a point to travel from my work place, shenton way, to orchard. starhub centre during my lunch break.. i reached starhub centre at 1pm and was greeted by an automated quene numbering.. fine!.. i took the quene which was meant for repair and stuffs.. and i was 10 spaces away from the current quene number in service ??.. that doesnt bothers me as there's a young and bubbly service gal who took down numbers of those far in quene and would give us a call once our number gets near.. hence, i went for a scroll down centrepoint.. .. at around 2.00pm (which my lunch break should end) .. i returned to starhub centre (heck!).. and boi!.. the freaking queue crept by 3-4 numbers ?!??!.. time crawled and crept me by .. i waited.. determined to wait till the end.. but at 2.45pm.. i give up.. damn!.. i waited my lunch time and nothing was done..


that's all i can conclude about starhub service.. sucks!

end of story.. and wat are you looking at!

Oreo>> poor thing...hope u hav sweet dreams in future instead yah....Sweet dreams...sweet dreams..hehhee...and YES! let's do meet up someday....
to the rest: take care yah! :)

[Bad Dreams...]

2am++ morning, i woke up in fright due to a bad dreams.I felt sooo breathless tat i couldn't even breath properly.It seems like i'm going to die and the feeling was really terrible.I didn't dare to go back to sleep but slowly...everything was fine.It had been years since i last had my bad dreams.I dunno y i'm suddenly having them again.Issit becos i slept too much in the day???or was it trying to tell me tat something bad is going to happen???Hopefully not.
Once again, i'm back in my office after a day break.It's a brand new day for me and hopes it ends well todae.sighz...posting results will be out tomorrow and soon, it will be April.Another new month of 2001 and it's juz 3 mths away b4 i start my new sch.HmMm..time flies.I better resume my work b4 my lady boss came back frm her presentation. So,take care folks!


hey heypig! oh deah..u can be blur in other things, but definitely not in crossing the road. U r lucky tat the car actually stopped and looked at u. Dun stone in the middle of the road next time... it's dangerous!Well, i got sun burnt too,infact everybody got it. Hehe..not bad... dun even have to go to the beach to get a tan.Well, take care ger and get well soon. Let's meet up somedays...

hihi..how's everyone..gotta send something before someone complains that "i too pig" to post anything here coz i've got cable...heheee...couldn't post for the past few weeks becoz my internet explorer wasn't working and finally after much persuasion...my computer literate brother finally did something..ta da..here i am. Actually posted a long one during March hols, but screen suddenly went blank..and there goes my effort ;(..tired so din want to try post again...soo....here i am. I have become much blurer..nowadays..esp. when it comes to crossing the road..heehee...example yesterday. Stood in the middle of the road. I looked at the car the car looked at me. Until finally my friend pulled me back. Really wondered wat happened to me at that point of time...but the car was damn chio!.. must agree..hahaha Got sun burnt! *arghh*. and today's lessons were very sian nearly fell asleep and i failed my chem test..boohoohoo..why?..coz i din study..hehee..ironic right. sad and happy at the same time.
okok i gotta go..all of u must take care yah...dun fall sick like me..ate 80 tablets in one month and now sitll on medication becoz of my poor stomach..took so many MCs..suddenly feel so sick and weak..............................

[What is the world coming to ... ]


getting on with life seem like is no longer an urge in me ... take for example this morning ... i woke up at about 8 ... and I don't feel the urget to get myself prepared for school ... I just took my own sweet time and surf some websites ... send some emails ... and then leave home for sch at about 10.30 ... lesson starts at 10 today ... <|> spirit is low i guess ... just dont have any mood for anything ...


mentality that is controling my body ... I just can't seem to fight it off ... I guess energy is draining badly ... need a good break ... yes ... no Kit Kat can help ... I am now "swimming" in my own world of lost thoughts ... just like the movie "Lost Souls" ... haven't got a chance to watch that yet ... no time ... no energy ... just read the synopsis ...


[Apology ... ]
would like to apologies to all my friends who is with me in the project team ... sorry for not making enough effort to contribute as a team member ... please forgive me ... but I doubt you are reading this ... anyway ... hope you all will understand ... thanks Oreo for the encouraging words ...

lava,take a break...but dun neglect ur studies.Try to leave ur probs,unhappiness aside now... dun be too sad.smile!Dun worry, be happy~!

[Lost thoughts ...]


has been thinking a lot for the past 2 nights while I was away from Home ... thanks to some who have show concern ... really appreciate that I have such friends ... :) I think I need a break already ... energy draining badly ... I can't concentrate on my exams ... a lot of things have been happening lately ... was really uncertain sometime oh how to approach them ... was taught once to analyse the situation ... I just cant seem to do it this time ...


Time to let my wits out already ... I have been thinking of going for another outdoor camp again ... havent decide the date yet ... should be going to the same "Rehabilitation" place ... quite helpful since the last time I went there ... thinking of leaving this Tuesday nite ... shall see about it ...


[Rope's Bright waiting ...]


if you know what it means ... then that is good ... thinking of going thru ... life seem not to worth anything at all ... where tears drip down your face like nobody business ... what's that for? ... was thinking of ending it with a simple rope ... don't worry ... I am sensible enough to think ... just a thought ...


think I better sleep ... and not think too much ... or else my imagnation will go wild again ... life goes on with a brand new week ...

[ 3.30am Post ]


i mean wtf rite?.. its hell long since any of my post was this wee.. but anyway.. its not that i'm suffering from insomnia.. but that I’m f**king drilling my printer to print a stack of 50 program sheets, which will be used on Sunday.. and I gonna damn anyone who complain about it later this evening.. hehehe.. hmm.. anyway.. this morning gonna kick off with lotsa activities.. gonna go for a little morning jog around the neighborhood.. meeting up with my insurance agent.. meetings.. and probably my night will be nothing fancy but a peaceful rest.. :)


1..2..3.4…5.. oh my god.. another 45 more printing to go.. think I gonna sleep with with the lullaby sang by the printer.. oh boy.. my eyes are getting sore.. my ass is getting flat… and my brain is moaning with fatique.. that’s all folks..


[ screen goes blank ]

[Will the Fake Fat Lava please stand up ... I repeat ... will the Fake Fat Lava please stand up ... ]


well ... we gonna have a "problem" here ... don't make me stand ... don't feel like standing up ... so heck it ... and I am getting frustrated after my system hang for 3 times while trying to get some chinese program to work ... adding to my saddness ... disappointment and frustration ... well guess you all missed my first 2 big paragraphs that I have wrote here ... me not gonna repeat ...


[Amazed ... ]


amazed by the always-changing-to-worse life ... sighz ... "Forever in Love - by Kenny G" ... one of my favourite saxaphone player ... I used to hope to learn one when I was young ... but I guess that is a dream ... dream is always a dream ... maybe not when I amstarting to slow down and pave my way to the graveyard ... target is to learn to play one when I retire from this miserable world ... and play it to my love one ... the only one that I love in this world ... well ... loyal supporter ... if this blogger still exist by then ... you will know why ...


[Life "Falls Apart" ... ]


life is not falling apart ... seem that I have been mentioning life and life ... hope that I can be like Sugar Ray in his song "Abracadabra" ... the magic word to disappear from this world ... hope I can get away a while ... should be able to ... was thinking to get away from it forever ... at this very moment ...


[Love poem ... a way to express my love ... ]


"Tears is slowly seeping away where you can't see it

Heart break is the sound that you can't hear it

A gentle invisible flying kiss that you can't feel it

Breathing hard enough but you can't really feel it"


I think this poem is kind of funny ... and less mention unromantic ... my first love poem that took me a while to write ... and you guys are the first to see it ... my love will always be my love ... -=Forever Love=- ... time change a person ... but will not change my love for you ... instead ... it is getting stronger everyday ... <|> it is just a matter of time to prove my love to you ... my hope and love will not be lost ... unless you don't give me a chance ... hope my "warm" way of showing my love will melt the ice around your heart ... <|> it took just seconds to like a person ... it will take forever to forget you ...


Seem that I am getting nowhere here ... whenever I am in here ... my mind will just flow freely ... writing whatever is in my mind ... "my life will go on ... love for you will continue to grow - by the day, hrs, mins, seconds ..." ... and finally before I end here for the morning ... *muackz* - a kiss for you, Eve ... *sniff*

[ What's up? ]


yo dudes.. ahh.. the Friday is finally here.. and though my weekends are already sandwiched with fillet of red cross and creamed with meetings.. somehow, things are looking fine and i'm sort of anticipating with excitement and vibe.. :) .. good sign?.. i dunno.. hehehe anyway.. its those lull period of posting time again.. everyone is busy conquering every day’s stacks of notes.. for those lucky ones would be drowning themselves in the warm tonic pig brain soup.. hahaha.. hmm.. so much for exams.



Anyway.. there seems to be a rising trend of bubble tea.. yes.. the weird combination of tea and pearls have hit singapore like an earthquake (again) and this time.. it moved out of Basar Malam.. and invaded the streets of local hotspots.. with more choices.. this tea wave will probably dig themselves into our pocket.. hehehe.. not only the menu has improved, but the packaging greatly differs from it ancestors.. with considerate sealing of the cup, ensure that you can play runaway James bond without spilling drops of tea.. large and color straw that make you wish that your car’s exhaust pipe could be less dull.. anyway.. to those who have not try it.. I mean, why not rite ?..and one of them even imitated Coffee Bean reward card.. for every 10 drinks.. u get one for drink.. god damn it.. they are even online.. hahaha..



So I guess I’ve spoke enough to made up for my miss posts.. hehehe.. till then..

[Everyday Sunday? I don't think so ...]

bet all of you will agree with me on this ... been really really tired ... stressed and frustrated ... well ... because of school projects ... and more are coming ... damn damn damn! ... I can't complain to my love ones ... so gonna do it here ... sighz ...


Exams are flying towards me like aeroplane ... gonna reach in 1 mths time ... exactly! ... I am still not prepared ... well ... good news is that I will be touching on 1 topic later ... that should give me some encouragement and motivation ... at least ... I am 1 topic faster from the rest ... of course those *KIASU one have already started ... but ... I will take it at my own stride ... own pace ... why do I have to compare with them? and damn them for goodness sake ...


Miserable life at this moment will end in 1 and a half mths time! ... I will be a free man agaiN! ... yeah man! ... alright ... gonna get away from here first ... or else ... you should know ... NO TIME! "I have no time ... no time ... no time!"


* KIASU - it means in Hokkien for "afraid to lose".

*looking at the date today* ... damn ... seriously I have been missing this place ... 4 days ... don't blame me for not being regular ... blame my tests and projects ... blame my lecturers ... blame my pets ... damn you if u blame them! ... hahaha ... well ... just cleared 2 tests in 2 days ... stressed man ... well ... don't think the results will look good ... gonna buck up for my exams! ... Promised myself to start preparing this week ... but it seem that I can't do it ... still juggling between exams and projects and 1 more test! ... sighz ... when it gonna end? soon soon ... 1st week of May and I will be like a jailbird with wings ... that will be cool right?


just hit the mid of the week ... time flew past when one is busy ... cannot escape from reality ... sometime I was thinking what on earth am I doing here ... to suffer? sighz ... anyway ... planning to "escape" this place for a while ... will let you know the details soon ... for those who are interested ... email me when I put up the details ... :) ... u will probably find me in mask ... cos I still don't want other people to know who am I ...


[A MASK TO COVER MY FACE]

why why? you must be pondering why ... well ... simple ... my identity are slowly leaking out ... anyway ... me previewing some trailers .. will get back when I finished them ... today is my short-rest-day ... let me have peace! ... "I have Peace by the river ... I have Peace by the riverrrrrrrr .... "

alrite.. by the power of Pentium 4.. from cold boot to windows 98 fully loaded.. it took me ..err..15seconds ??.. hehehe.. weee !!!.. but of cos.. it the computer in my office.. the thunderbird over here still soar.. hehehe.. hmm.. vizinity has not been very vocal recently.. but its ok.. guess the exams fever is still burning in everyone.. hehe.. ahh.. exams.. seems to be a far away legend for me.. hahaha.. but not for long.. hehe.. my studies is gonna resume real soon.. and with the amount of job load i'm currently bathed in.. exams is more than just reading notes.. argh..


hmmm.. running out of topics. .

before i bounce on my revision, i just post my feelings down. its agreed that life is filled with its ups and downs. now, i experience the downs. i'm feeling very sad and stress building up as the revision cant be fulfiled for the day. I set aside my econs project for the whole of yesterday with 3 chapters of biz law and tutorials needed for today. by right i could have finish at least one of them--the project. but all i could do is to blame on the distractions of the day. such distractions irritated me to death. i balmed myself for getting distracted resulting in failure of accomplishing my project. needless to say my biz law and tutorials. i did my project till 2am however long it took, i couldn't finish at all! tears was already rolling down as i type and think. my brain couldn't function properly. tears just form pools in my eyes and rolled down my cheeks with the thought of how much work undone. how could i have retreated and left everything for the next day? this will just increase the workload of today and definately it did. the malfunctioning of my brain provided the worst work prepared for tutorials and i really couldn't help it but to call it a day. whats the point of calling it a day when i failed to sleep. the stress was beyond my control and i couldn't fall asleep the whole of last night. how i did was toss and turn, waiting for the sun to rise. i couldn't turned to anyone at this hours to shared my sorrows. i was indeed helpless and i will be more helpless if i dun end the post now
life suxx!

hiyaz
I just woke up frm my afternoon nap..heehee.... sunday mah...sleepy day.... *smilez*....nothin much to say though...tatazzzzzzz

elloz...it's Sunday, a laziest day of the week..I mostly spend my sundays sleeping and lazing ard.Today is no exception too.Wow..i'm still full from yesterday's dinner of seafood..maybe i shld start going to gym to shed off all the layers of fat..duh!!!but yesterday's dindin was the most ful-filling meal of the week...haven had a great meal for a long long time...*yawnZ*..i'm sleepy again...soo..off to my dreamland now.Take care dudeS!

what a happening week for me ... projects to clear ... movies to download ... and most importantly ... Team Members! ... YES YOU! ... glad that you all came back and post ... really miss you people ... <|> the stressful weekdays are over for a while ... and weekend wind have started blowing at me ... cool ... yes ... it was cooling and relaxing ... imagine the wind is like you are suntaning at the beach ... with the breeze blowing at you ... seem that you don't have to worry anything at all ... yeah ... even thought it is just 2 days ... I believe it is good enough <|> thanks for the concern for those team members and supporters ... you all had always been my pillars of support ... listening and reading to my posts ... that's already very good! ... half of my battle had been cleared and won ... that's leave the other ... I will try to relax and rest over the weekend ...


Got to watch Agent Red ... a very similiar-mission type movie like Mission Impossible ... got to view it before it is released ... and I got to watch Monkey Bone with Oreo ... thanks dear for watching it with me ... hehe ... too bad the rest of the people whom we asked miss this show ... hey guys and gals ... if you want to have a great laugh ... and enjoy a very different kind of movie ... this Monkey Bone is definitely for you ... though the movie is a bit short ... but it is good ...


Yes ... yes ... weekend ... I love you so much ... can't wait to meet her ... yes ... Eve ... missssssesss her really a lot ... almost everynight before I close my eyes ... I will think of her ... I was really surprised that she called me ... YES ... I was like a cow that jump over the moon ... < was that sure a phrase? hehe ... just a call from her ... it really brighten up my life ... the past few nights that I have been struggling for my projects was like turn over by her call ... I don't feel tired anymore ... *muackz*


I believe most of us are counting down to our exams ... but sorry I got to mention it ... EXAMS ARE COMING! ... well ... face it! ... I promise myself to start preparing next week ... seeing myself getting As motivate me to start ... though I am still busy with projects ... right ... I will just take it as a stroll down the street ...


[Tomorrow Will Be A Better Day]

that is what I believe ... if I feel down or depressed ... I will just sleep over it ... I guess it helps sometime ... you may not know this kind of wonder may just work ... hehe .. I guess I have posted enough ... and my pets need my attention ... so I guess I have no choice but to bid you all a good day and enjoy the weekend! TIME TO LET DOWN YOUR HAIR AND SHAKE YOUR BON BON! ... *shake your bon bon ... shake your bon bonnnnnnnnn!*

Heylooooooooooo ... *hops* ... let me see what I had missed for the past few weeks? ... *hops* ... Erm ... Viz, am I supposed to salute you too? I didnt know that ... Please do not hunt me down because of this ... *hops & salutes* ... What is stress? Can it be eaten? Is it as delicious as my fat juicy carrot? * hops* ... Dan, looks like you can be a qualified advisor ... * hops* ... the rest of the team members looks alive ... while a few of them are still dormant ... *hops* ... Viz had been saying that I have been posting rubbish here ... so I shall be more constructive from now on ... Let me think what shall I talk about ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... maybe next time ... byeeeeeeeeeeee ... *hops*

I am back again..... hmm..... looks like some of the team members are stressed out..... relax lah.... stress is part & parcel of life..... no one can escape the fate of having to meet datelines & having lotsa projects....... during your study life......even after u leave sch...... in your work life..... so I guess its better to really learn how to manage your stress..... I know it can be difficult for some........venting out is one of the way..... but personally I do not try tat..... I try to maintain a clear mind.... not let the stress get into my head..... the stress will still be there...... but try to control it..... dun let it control u..... dun worry be happy.....dun know whether u all get wat I mean but this is my advice....... of cos its not applicable to all people..... but maybe u can try..... think more positively.... reward yourself..... have time to relax even though exams may be just tomolo...... have enuff sleep.... no point having sleepless nights just to rush through something..... health is more impt too..... There is no such thing as a stressless life...... hehe.... Mange your own stress!

yup, the beautiful weekends are gonna embace us as we drifted our last remain hours in offices or schools.. hehehe.. my days have been rather normal.. no hiccups.. just like sailing on the smooth sea.. with cool light breeze washing through my hair.. and i like it .. hmm.. thinking of nothing... and nothing bothers me.. i've managed to keep myself aboard and above of things which i dun intend to mess with them yet.. in life.. all is about choices.. and the irony is that.. its not your choice that gonna affect you most of the time.. more often than not, we influenced peoples' lives with our choices.. and of cos, this will mean.. peoples' choices affect us. we lived in a world where everything was made from the same creator, though no matter how much differences in any terms you can see, feel, hear, touch or even taste.. there's always a bondage.. a bondage of cycle.. everything flows together in a common destiny.. dead or alive.. this implies that there's nothing as best of both worlds.. simply becos, both worlds do not exist.. we live in one wholesome planet together with the same time and space.. if there are choices to be made.. its always accompanied by the disregard or compromisation of other options.. THAT is something everyone of us have to live with.. nothing is 100% perfect.. no choice is 100% painless or with 100% acceptance.. only understanding the liberty and the freedom of choice we have over ourselves.. we can then look at things in a different perpective.. not all things are too dear that you cant do without.. not all things deserve our seer investment of emotions.. not all things are meant to be rejoice..

[I'm still ALIVE!]

oh deah,i haven been posting for 10 days...juz in case some of u r worried bout me,i'm fine!still in a piece.Sorrie for mia-ing...but the posting zone here is still quite happenin'..good good..i'm rather pissed of these few days.Wat is this world becoming??and why r Singaporeans more and more inconsiderate now???Dun they know the word "sorry"??y can't they juz utter the magic word when they r in the wrong??Where r their manners??their politeness??sighz...enough of these...dun feel like bringing them up.Zoc zoc,relaz...dun be soo stress up.Stress is juz part of our life...take it easy...u r not the onli one who's suffering now..endure and soon it will be over.....smile~

Hi everyone... looks like both lava and zoc are stressed up with schwork...you guys take care ok? don't stress yourselves out... I guess there nothing much I can say to the 2 of u, but this is a quote someone told me a few yrs back, "When life gives u lemon, make lemonade!" just try to make the best of life, no matter how terrible it iz......all will be well in the end...

yupz yupz, so, I din post yesterday, hmm..... wat happened??? okok... went to get my uniform done, but that stoopid shop CLOSED DOWN! sheesh! suckz!....den I went back to my sec sch... was invited to their enrolment parade u see...stayed there for sometime...remembered all my fond times in sec sch.... den I left...got home 'round 9++ found that I got back my fever........................ was a bit dead...went to bed.......................and here I am!!!!!!! STILL DEAD!!!!!! yahoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! ladida....... okok... enuff of my boring day......................................time for me to go take my medicine...tataz!!!!!!

Everyone take care okok? especially lava and zoc...

3 days? yes ... that's it ... I haven't been posting for the past 3 damn and stressful days ... though I am online ... but somehow I just can't get it to type out my post ... not just because I am lazy ... more like I can't find the time ... but why today? well ... today I was early in school by about 15 mins ... this gave me the opportunity to post ... *phew* ... good to see some of the members are posting ... see the word "some"?


So you must have guessed it correctly what I have been doing for the past few days - rushing for projects' datelines ... well ... no choice but have to complete at the almost last minute ... due to tests and so on ... that's life I guess ... well I guess ... the word "frustrated" is not for me ... looking at Zoc ... I think she is worse than me ... hey girl ... don't be too worked up alright ... the bridge will somemore be "straight" when times are ripe ... shall give you a pat on the shoulder when I see you ... sorry ... I don't have any enlightening words to give you ... what I can say is ... "Life has to go on ... be it down or up ... take it as what is given to you by god" ... "Learn to look at the brighter side of the world" ...


Okie guys and gals ... late for class already ... shall be back later to complete my post ... damn !

hey zoc, thoughts of how you feel gave me the urge to post. well, you seemed more than stress! well, i know my comments will come in worthless as i am a poor stress handler compared to you. i know that you are facing with workload much heavier than what you can hold on to. maybe all these are test of tolerance? just hang on there, tell youself or perhaps console yourself that its less 2.5 than years that you are in school to slog for. at least thats one i tell myself. it works a little. and how about getting yourself anti-stress pills? haha, that have been my daily dosage in the morning before i go to school. have to prepare myself for "more than words" revision which i doubt i can complete despite i have started my revision like a couple of days ago. well, when you have nightmares means you are ok. thats what VIZ tell me when i have nightmares. he said they will appear sweet in future. mark his words. have faith that all these nightmares induced from pressure will never embark on ur path of life, ok? thats all for my dear friend zoc, well, time to sleep and study. ok study before sleep i mean. guyz take care esp zoc.

AAAAAArrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh....I can't take this lying down anymore!!!!! GGRRRRRR.........bear wif me while i let out all that i want to say.......Me!!! Yes me!!!!! Have gone to the extend where i feel like crying and i cannot cry......i m totally f***ed up by all the stress n workload that i m going thru now....me feeling so "bek4 qek4" that moi nose is twitching......nowadays....i just get so shagged....(not just me mind u...but moi firends as well) that when i reached home...i just dun feel like doing anything...I would rather stone there for the nite then to flip open my book....n FINALLLY....i decided to open moi book n start reading thru it n guess wat......i had a bad nite sleep that nite...a nightmare. *sobsob* I dreamt that i was busy rushing thru work n projects...*NOTE: i dun do moi projects last minute* ...and moi surroundings just kept flashing quickly past me as if i was lagging...n suddenly, i was brought to a basketball court.... For a moment, i din noe how to play....cldn't even shoot a basket n for wierd reasons, i just stood underneath the basketball net...suddenly, one ball plop on moi head n it realli hurt...when i looked up...another ball ploppled n OH MY.....basketballs just came pounding on moi head non-stop till i cldn;t take it n just went berserk. Is this suppose to signify something...f***ed up lah! N suddenly this person who is a non-worker just plopped into moi project grp when the thing is due on fri n we have done up almost everything to set up the classroom.....after having to tell a big lie to us n the lecturer.....PPLE...grrr..... n PLEASE.....for those who thinks that moi course is freaking easy... all i can say is YEAH RITE!!! To add on moi misery, when i happen to bump into moi Building Dpt friend this morning, he looked bad n i asked y. First thing he said," I juz dunno y m i studying so hard. Is this reailli wat i want to do??? I feel kinda lost" sigh... Having 20 over projects due is nothing compared to moi seniors in year 2 who now have forty something over assignments n projects due......n examz r just round the corner... will i actualli drop out of moi course half-way?? I realli dunno... *twitchtwitch* p:s/ after all that i've said, if u think that i m being unreasonable...fine coz me just not in the rite mind to do anything Just want to vent it out.And again as i said b4...when 1 thing crashes, everything just come crashing down. Guess, i'll....dunno. School suxed like mad......AAArrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

hiyaz hiyaz!!!!! dunno how long since I last posted...heehee...eh? someone saluted viz in mrt station? I thought that cadet told me it was in white sands? hmmmmm........ dunno lah... but must have been a real embarrassing situation....hmmmmm................................ poor zoc also......................okok..poor 2 person..I've got nothin to say now..good nite!!!!!!

alrite, this is my third time formatting of my computer in two days.. hehe.. all for the reason.. Windows ME suck!!.. ..anyway.. pretty delighted at the progress of this re-re-installation of Windows 98.. ahh.. hehehe.. hmm.. and wat am i doing now ?.. oh yes.. helping my dear Liz searching information for her project in school.. hmm.. kinda difficult but gonna help anyway rite ?.. hahaha..


hmm.. and so.. nothing much to crap about today except tat it has been a busy day and my keyboard is getting stiffer by the day.. hmm.. hehehe.. alrite.. shall release your agony of reading something that may crank up ur brain.. chill..


yea.. i know its a short post.. f**k it !

Halo ppl ...Long time no hear huh!?..me very busy here in the office..been missing out a lot on posting updates...hope I won't get kicked out due to lack of posting..hehehe...but I noe Viz would understand..hehhe..glad dat u ppl are doing well out there...or at least try to...Zoc..take care k..u virus infested person U...heheheheh...no offense intended... keep u informed of my life updates real soon...till then... GOD BLESS

Well, well, just came out of toilet for the 3rd time.... sigh....moi weak stomach....but moi mum's laksa was really good ... just couldn't resist...hehe :> Aniwae...haven been posting for a long long time...kinda bz.....sorri Viz... Yes, this week gonna be another stress week where lotsa projects due again....in fact till the day of moi examz :< Got to set up a library corner just like one in the childcare centre....not going to be easy...argh..... Hm....slept from 4-8 pm today.....do you all ever noe that stress can make u lose sleep at nite and makes u feel lethargic sub-consciously? Well, din noe that i was until i told one of moi friends all the problem i had with sleep... onli to believe that i was stress...of coruse, for those who knoe, moi nose may have been the problem too. sigh, is this wat i m going to have for at LEAST the next 2-half years? And arrrgghhh....the weather has taken for the worst....with it being hot n humid these few days especially, it sure is a contributing factor to the problem as well. Grrrrr........life is sure never smooth-sailing.... Nevertheless, i m stilll here posting n can still laugh....hahaha...Before i "pen" off, a few words to Viz> u sure have interesting experiences with the MRT...or should i say happening??? :Þ Liz> Take care while studying... n to moi sis, who is now in Desaru enjoying herself which i dun think she will read this aniwae....i wish her well....n miss you sis.... tataz...

Viz> tat must have been quite embarrassing for u..... hehe.... the other passengers must be wondering u r someone with high stature...... receiving a salute in a MRT station..... haha..... well..... post just to let u guys know tat I am still alive..... actually I come here everyday loh.... so I know wat is happening loh........but lazy to post.... sorry...... hehe..... but WHERE R THE REST OF THE MEMBERS??? BETTER POST IF NOT........... Viz gonna f*** u all upside down.... opps..... dun let this posting zone being dominated by only a few members......Lava> wah.... got KIDS run to u leh..... not bad..... hehe.......haha...... :Þ

yesterday was a stressful and yet enjoyable day ... only managed to clear my 3rd paper out of 6 ... bad news is that ... I am still unsure when to take the other 3 papers ... stress man ... had an enjoyable day yesterday ... attended a campfire in the evening ... cool ... imagine having fun with almost 80 people ... and good thing is that when it comes to this friendship dance ... so I said out loudly ... "Hey ... what about me? I don't have any partner!" ... oh shit ... wrong move ... suddenly a group of girls came running to me ... oh freak ... nearly freaked out ... never know that I am that popular ... hahaha ... but was fun ... oh yes ... after that was a karaoke session with my friends ... haven't been drinking for a long time ... and yesterday was kind of challenge ... but still ... I am still able to hold my drinks ... drank at least a jug of beer ... only return home at about 3 in the morning ... a bit tipsy ... but still able to walk in a straight line ... anyway having prata after drink make the feeling worse ... haha ... still alright ... hehehe ... <|> well ... today nothing much except lazing around on my comfortable bed ... just returned from dinner ... so what's next? me aren't sure of my next move? Revise for my exams? ... should be ... well ... exams is less than 2 mths from now ... shall see about it ... why I finish with this post ... alright I finished with it ... *boom*

[ I'm Alive, Thank You ]


yes.. to those who may have the slightest hinge waving rumour about my "Death" from post.. *m|m* .. yes.. i'm alive..very much too ..hehehe.. still istening to my Westlife Mp3s now.. and for the past few days.. my days was very enriched and fun-filled.. and yes.. something different.. without Red Cross.. hehe.. not that i hate the activities over there.. but i heard calling in the middle of the night that i should take a day's break on Saturday.. and yes.. i did.. hehehe.. anyway guys.. for those who missed me yesterday.. i will be back this Saturaday.. :)


hmmm.. if my recently monitoring of postings is not wrong.. i would safely say that most members are either busy.. or they have been captured by Martians.. which in the case.. unable to get a decent internet connection... therefore the miss posts.. heheh.. cmon guys.. not that i'm bothered.. but since you name is very much listed on that members corner to the right .. you POST !.. heheh.. and running along with this "threat".. Vizinity is OPEN for members application.. please sent you particulars to ME .. heheh.. hmm.. just some updates with my life.. my career is getting on well. with lotsa work to do that is wat i meant.. no more libertion over internet access.. hehe.. keeping my finger cross too :) ..


hmm.. anyway.. was at a MRT station last nite.. around 8.30pm.. i just alighted from the train.. which i saw a person in RC uniform.. (oh shit!.. a cadet!).. trembling with fear of wat she might do.. .and yes.. she did it !!.. she give a quick expression of dilemma.. and clumsily gave an almost full slap of her left foot on the ground.. and yes.. that right hand saluted me.. oh my god !.. guys.. just in case you wonder.. i was wearing my kaki bermudas, crocodile polo-tee and teva saddles.. out of natural reaction.. i gave a quick wave of acknowledge and dissolved myself into the escalating crowd.. hmm.. wat a moment.. not that i am not proud of myself.. but its just "not me" to receive compliment that are not in the right space and time.. *sigh*..


hahaha.. anyway.. lauging it off.. tomolo is Monday again.. !!.. a week break for those students in secondary education.. and for people who are not so fortunate like me.. guys.. there's a long way to go !.. hahahah.. yup!.. time to clear the screen.. :)

hrmm...had a cold turkey at the swimming pool because of the "sun"day. now, looking diagonally up, dark clouds just overcast the heated sky. why is weather so unpredictable? actually, they resemble us. we could be in a foul mood today and happy tommorrow. just some worthless thoughts. anyway, my mother bought this scramble pc game and i was a little itchy with my hands. you know what happened. i played when i was suppose to use all these time to study. i feel guilty. cos, i was suppose to go granny house but told my mom that i want to study and i went to play that game instead. ok, never again am i gonna do that. gosh, it's late, i have three chapters of macroeconomics to study and a project on unemployment, all to be done before i sleep. so rush off now. i hate skool!

you must be wondering what am I doing at this wee hour of the day right? well ... damn it ... me can't sleep ... just don't know why ... seem that I have not reached the state of sleeping-at-any-time-any-place ... what the ? ... haha ... ok sorry for my blurish language ... just not my usual self ... <|> right ... I think I better get back to catch some wink ...

hungry hungry hungry hippo ... nono ... dont worry ... it is not that I am really that hungry ... just that I am Internet Hungry ... which means that I may be looking into broadband soon ... well ... offers coming up from SingNet and PacNet ... and morever ... I just checked my hrs of usage for this mth ... well ... shocking ... 39 hrs ... haha ... really need to consider on already ... well ... so called submitted my proposal to my mum ... she will talk to my dad about it ... lava daddy ... please approve ... hehe <|> but come to think of it ... do I really need that? for someone who always watch movies and mtvs ... play online games like counterstrike ... probably need it ... well ... it is also an advantage ... all I need to do is to get a broadband router ... and network my house ... my family members will not have to fight with me for the Internet and computer ... shall see about that ... hehehe <|> ok ... so what's up? another boring day I suppose ... but today is Friday ... that's why ... I have a paper tomorrow ... and I have no choice but to stay at home to study ... forgoing all the fun that my friends will be having at pool table ... and movie threater ... arggh ... damn it! not going to talk about it ... hope tomorrow's paper will be a good one ... but a bit worried ... hehe ... ok ... just had a balance diet lunch ... trying to keep down my waistline ... and toning up of my body ... prepare for the future ... wat crap ... well ... don't bother ... hehe ... got a few pieces of hardwares for me to test and sell ... probably u will catch me online here again ... well ... who knows?

alright the big man had just posted ... good ... <|> now saw some messages on the WWW indicating that mother's day are coming ... wasn't aware of the date ... anyone can enlighten me? hah ... probably will get some flowers for my mum ... and get a small little present ... that will actually keep her smiling till the end of the year ... damn ... the only nearest event that is coming up is St. Patrick's Day ... is for Irish I think ... ok heck ... none of me business ... so I wished you all on the 17th March ... a happy St. Patrick's Day ... <|> don't seem to be able to watch Iron Ladies today ... alright ... no choice ... shall give this show a miss then ... sighz ... no one is free ... especially the one I asked ... too bad I guess ... I shall stay home today after clearing my paper in the afternoon ... today really dampened my mood ... sighz ... I will probably stay at home till end of the week ... will only come out when necessary ... sad ...

ok.. everyone seems to be indulging in their exam preparation as though they are on drugs.. hahaha.. well. .seems to be, i'm again.. the most free person to be online and doing these postings.. wah.. looking back into the history.. cant help noticing that i've been posting official for a little over a year.. wah.. am i really doing that much things to post or was it all crap ?.. hehehe.. anyway, the initial intention was a self-egoistic, self-centered posting arena.. developing till today.. a number of faithful readers and some part-time members.. hahaha.. of cos, with commendable participation most members too .. :).. thx dudes and the rest of the world out there.. thank you for keeping this site alive..


rite.. shall flip today's pages of events and recall for any interesting topic to bitch about.. hahaha ..mm.. mm ... nope.. nothing except for work.. and the sleep that i'm gonna pamper myself very soon after i hit the post button.. hahaha.. mmm.. oh ya.. i'm going for my injection.. twice in two months now.. the SAF says it is gonna benefit me when i'm away in taiwan.. .. my arm is gonna numb for at least 24hrs !!.. ok.. time for the button .. :)

great ... some movement going on in the posting ground ... at least some of the members are aware that the pig head do contain the "mouth-and-hand disease" ... hehe ... but not found in animals in Singapore ... ok ... the rest of the members ... keep it coming ... or else you might be finding staring at the pig head the moment you open your door ... trust me ... I am good at this ... <|> ok ... just cleared my first paper for the term ... geee ... a very encouraging paper ... well ... the reason is simple ... it was so easy ... that almost everyone got 90 and above ... but sad to say ... this is only first paper ... 5 more to go ... while 2 more to go for my classmates ... nvm ... <|> I still haven't catch the movie "Iron Ladies" ... since last week ... really must go and watch tomorrow after my second paper ... who shall I ask? alright ... before I answer ... anyone want to watch with me? if not I shall ask my friend ... heh ...


ok ... time to study ... wish me all the best for my second paper ... adios ...

my disappearance could be explained by the enjoyment with immediate effect after my last and most tedious paper on wednesday. i played and gosh the battery is running out. so i have to post and publish and go back to studying. after the numerous entertainment i was in, now i have to prepare for the most tiring one -- the semester examinations. revision begins now! wish me luck and support me ok? exams stress building up!

yoyoyoyoyoz!i'm here again..!!but..juz for a short post...i'm veri alert and energetic now..as i had been sleeping and eating the whole day.Let me see, opsssss.....i took 3 naps todae!frm the moment i woke up in the morning, all the way up to now...oh deah..i'm living the life of a pig.oh gosh..i'm soo fat now..die..it's time to be on a diet..oh duh!!kidz these days r reali horrible...sighz..wat's happening to this society???issit the government's fault??or the technology's???well, heck!

lava...r u alrite??dun be over-sensitive.....get alive~...

hmMm..with soo much sleep in the afternoon...i can't get to sleep now.....sighz..alrite..shall finish reading my novel....adios!

alrite.. everything seems tiding smooth again on vizinity.. hehehe.. listening to Westlife now.. cool.. not bad.. burnt a whole CD of Westlife's MP3 for my dear Liz.. but turned out i'm listening to them myself.. hahaha.. hmm.. anyway.. as time from now.. Liz should be beeing over her newspaper cuttings.. juicing information for her project.. stress time for her.. hehe..


Oh yes.. i was onboard of the MRT today when i encounter the sliding side of modern society.. three youngs boys.. probably Pri 4 or 5 students were chattering loudly in the train.. disturbed my peaceful moment in nap... *die !.. all die !*.. anyway.. with my cool sunglass as a shield.. i took my glance at them.. the conversation they are engrossed in was definitely not wat i would had discussed during the time i was Pri 4 or 5.. from girls breast to handphones and money.. .i mean.. oh my god !.. wat have the modern society which emphasized so much on education and creative thinking ??.. and these are the "product" ???.. the country is supposely to rely on them??.. oh.. if i have a weapon.. them probably end up beehived !.. i cant help thinking what happened to the parents ?.. supplying their children wif handphones which they probably dun even need them accept microwaving their braincells.. (good idea for those boys too) .. and the schools.. have the teacher been teaching the correct stuffs or have they been filing their nails in lessons ?! ok.. done !.. this world is coming to an end..

seem that my wish came true ... with the call from her ... it really brightened up my life ... it just happened after I clicked Post & Publish of my previous post ... and she called ... I don't know how to put it ... right ... shall continue with my revision ... goodnight

Phew.... finally able to go online again.... all thanx to Viz...... but my poor 10G died and had to be replaced by 4G.......... which is defintiely not enuff for me loh......... hehe....... shall wait for another friend to contribute another 4G.... hehe..... the poor me have to get all the icq contacts & email address again....... not to mention all the valuable MP3 files, Movie files & other documents tat were all lost in the process.... hai...... why must this thing happen to me?

arghhh ... I must let it out ... let it all out ... my frustration ... my emotion ... my unhappiness ... everything ... it just seem that my life had just suddenly overturn ... 180 degrees turn ... things seem to be not doing as what I had expected ... <|> someone in my life is trying to avoid me ... somehow I can just feel it ... I am not going to mention the someone ... I am really saddened by it ... I myself don't even know what is going on ... can you believe it? be it my fault ... at least let me know what went wrong ... please ... just hope to get a phone call frm you to tell me what's wrong ... sad sad ... is it because that I am not tactful enough ...


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