time to go part 2

viz is sitting in his office chair.. rehearsing the fact that he will have to leave for Cambodia tomorrow.. perhaps is the family.. perhaps are the friends.. perhaps viz is tired.. he do not know.. but what he knows is that the usual excitement of leaving Singapore is not present this time..

this one week (re)connected viz with people and life which he has missed during his time outside.. however, he did not realised that having to leave everything again will be so disturbing.. this one week in viz's time felt like a wind.. feels good.. but cannot hold on..

Whenever viz is back.. things in his life change.. his niece can stand now.. his god-daughter can speak now.. friends getting into relationships.. friends getting out of relationships.. friends treading in relationships.. it almost seems that the only constant is viz himself.. still crude.. still crazy.. still stubborn.. still blogging.. but still incomplete.. with what? many..

viz knows that he had chosen a different path which he will probably have to face the challenges alone for a foreseeable future.. away from people who cared for him and people whom he cared. but he is glad that life has been kind on him.. he enjoys what he does.. living each day by each day.